by Ryan P Kinney
“For much of my life I have enjoyed suffering from an undiagnosed untreated mental illness. It was never any surprise to me that I was manic. It has been the main source of my artistic endeavors and continues to color my every creative impulse. However, as with many mental illnesses, comes long periods of intense depression. A number of poor life circumstances, both self-induced and otherwise, have allowed this depression to manifest into suicidal thoughts . What you are about to read is a collection of self-indulgent works concerning my fantasies to end my existence. Some parts are real, some hallucinations and fabrications; all are meant to be felt. These represent the past, present, and future  of my depressive episodes. Thank you for taking the time to indulge me.   Maybe we’ll learn something.” “Don’t read or you’ll judge.”- Kurt Cobain If you are reading this, I am still alive.