APRIL 19 2015 WE JUST KNEW WE WERE ALL GOING CRAZY,
THATS THE DAY  A DISEASE CALLED S.I.D.S DECIDED TO TAKE OUR BABY.
THE PAIN  AND THE GUILT WE WISH WE NEVER SLEPT,
BUT OUR SORROW FOR THE PART OF US WE WISH WE COULD'VE KEPT.
FOR ME AS JOSHUA JR. MOTHER HOW CAN I SLEEP WHILE MY BABY IS DYING,
FOR HIS FATHER HE WAS HIS JR. HIS PAIN IN HIS HEART IS UNBEARABLE HE CANT STOP CRYING.
FOR HIS SIX OTHER BROTHERS AND SISTERS DOUBTING THEMSELVES  FOR PAIN WITHIN,
FOR HIS FETERNAL BROTHER JOSHAE CRIES AT NIGHT OUTLOUD IN SEARCH FOR HIS TWIN.
GRANNYMA TEARS UP WHILE WATCHING THIER FAVORITE SHOW,
AND THE PAIN AUNTY FEELS HAS BECOME A STRUGGLE THAT NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW.
THEY SAY WE MUST ALL GO ON THE PAIN IS SOMETHING WE MUST ACCEPT,
WE ALL FEEL THE SAME WAY WE LOST THE PART OF US WE WISH WE COULD'VE KEPT !!!!