It was a rainy, cold night,
In a room full of despair and hate
when darkness devoured
what was left in my humanity.

As I was blinded and lost
I succumb in fear.
My mind goes blank,
my heart stops beating,
my tears started to fall.

It was not just a bad dream,
it was the most horrifying nightmare after all.

Distractions and psychiatry
Helping to cope with the truth
Doctor, tell me the diagnosis
An acute case of wasted youth.

These days spent tethered away
To their life measuring machines
Listen for the steady rhythm,
The weak chorus my heart sings.

My empty eyes are fixed staring,
A weak voice’s whispered begging
Bring me an end to the agony
The pain of my frail body failing.

You are my best trophy,
my prized possession.
proud and vocal,
my lone and superb inspiration

my only satellite,
drifting over my succumb thoughts;
Emptying spots and vague knots,
unveiled and secretly caught.

Take charge my sweet,
we are winners on our own.
I walk at a fast phase,
running my own unique race,

To taste, and sip
into the wine of victor.
Understand and open free,
minds we need to filter.

We dance, we travel,
paralleled and remarkably adjacent,
come and join my winnings
it's us, our present.

I'll be with you at the top
we'll stay with reasons.
stay with my triumphs,
me, your obsession.

I need your dominance,
my deepest pleasures,
we lead and keep up,
love we cannot measure.

Hoping you're with me,
with full understanding,
I am no other man
never used to losing.

I need to be pleased,
as I please you;
stay on the skyline,
and feast on my resource.

I am a man, eccentric,
a pillar at my right,
visionary may seem,
but making my own light.

I am high value
And I want no *****.
Let us face the world as one,
and make me a sandwich.

I know you won't remember the first days you were here,
My jealousy was an angry tantrum full of screams and tears.
Before you ever came along I was their one and only.
But if I were to lose you now I would be forever lonely.

Over the years I grew to love you with all of my heart
And then one day he joined us and our trio had its start.
I wished to forever protect you two from every grief and pain
My healthy, happy, baby brothers I wish you could remain.

Jacob, eighteen years have passed since you came home with mother.
Your adventures and comedy have made you our constant entertainer.
Now you have turned into a strong man who is valiant and true;
The Marines have made you honorable and for that I'm proud of you.

And Matthew, it has been seventeen years since you graced our home.
You are more loyal and more caring than any man I have ever known.
A harder working, more determined man would be difficult to find.
Your heart of gold and lively personality make you one of a kind.

I was not always the compassionate sister you both deserved,
But someone with more love for you will never be observed.
I promise to always be there for you no matter what you encounter.
Because I have learned over the years that blood is thicker than water.

he wasn’t expecting my lips to be so warm

nor my heart to be so cold

he wanted to go by what he felt

and not believe what he was told