Month Poems - Hello Poetry

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It's starting to warm up
but I can't calm down
they'll tell you it wasn't so bad
"You're better now, right?"

But they weren't there
in that place
where words were so limited
actions even more so

Maybe some of it helped
but not all of it did
and sometimes I think
I'll never feel free again

He was kind
but didn't understand
she was amazing
but you couldn't get too close

Can't talk about this
can't talk about that
keep it light, please
redirect and forget

Maybe some of it helped
but he wasn't always
as good as they said
and we were constantly afraid

You can't whisper
but don't talk too loud either
watch you diet
but don't think too much about food

We all had our demons there
some more obvious than others
the pills didn't make it go away
sometimes they just made you numb

Leaving didn't make you free
there was still so much to do
and everything was so different
they couldn't handle it when you cried

So off again you went
a new place, a new house, new rules
but the same old problems
because you weren't free

The pills didn't fix you
and neither did their words
some even made it worse
and you didn't even know what home was

Not anymore
everything changed
they'll tell you it helped
"You should be better now"

They made you change too fast
and got mad when it didn't work
the mold snapped
and the real you slipped through the cracks

So maybe it helped
and maybe it didn't
but I think I'll always
hate reminders in March

Because I'm not really free
and to you, I'm not really me
a bandaid over a bullet hole
and a painted on smile

But I'll still always hate
reminders in March

The path to recovery is not linear.

#mentalhealth

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A Second Chance in February

It seems such a silly thing
but today feels like a second chance
a second chance to try again

Maybe I can't fix it
but I'll try
because I don't want to lose this

Stolen kisses in the halls
words that no one else will read
a gift I think you'll like

Sometimes I think
they would laugh if they knew
but I don't care when I'm with you

I know it's probably silly
to imagine a time like this
to be a second chance

But I won't let their cruel words
and the harsh steps back
to stop me from being next to you

I worked hard to be here
and I'm not leaving
until you ask me to

It's a second chance
so early in the year
but I won't lose it, not this time

Maybe I don't remember
and maybe you don't too
but something brought us together

Maybe a second chance
is what we need
maybe it's just a foolish want

But while I still can
I'll hold onto it
because I don't want to forget

Your smile or your laugh
or the feeling of your kiss
or you in my arms

I don't want to lose
whatever it is I have with you
but I'm still scared

5d

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Falling Behind in January

It's only January
and I'm already
falling behind

End of winter break
Back to school
New expectations again

Rush, run, quick

A new job for her
More stress than ever
Got to fill the calendar

Rush, run, quick

It's already so busy
Dates and times blur by
Plans canceled

Rush, run quick

I feel lost in all of this
It's still cold outside
But the house is already warm with anger

Rush, run, quick

A new president
A new worry
An old hatred reheated

Rush, run, quick

My feet bleed
Against the rough sidewalk
Too much hurrying

Rush, don't stop, quick

I need to protect
But can't hold it together
Be busy, maybe they won't notice

Rush, run, quick

You need to prepare
But don't lose yourself either
Don't fall behind

Rush, run, quick

Birthdays and dinners and parties
Play games with him
But don't forget her

Rush, run, quick

Learning new words
New words but don't get lost
They'll get mad if you're confused

Rush, don't stop, quick

Resolutions fall behind
The trash bag breaks
Everything seems to fall

Rush, run, quick

There's so much stress
And it's still only the first month
I wonder when it ends

Rush, run, quick

It's only January
And I'm already falling behind
Will I ever catch up?

To everyone who's stressed with the new year I hope you find time to take care of yourself. We got this <3

5d

E

An Old Love In December

There's a chill in the air
and holly in your hair
presents wrapped neatly
and words said sweetly

Candles sit on the shelf
right there next to an elf
off work early
and home in time for a shirley

It's a rather nice time
even if it seems without rhyme
it all seems so senseless
when I know your pain is endless

Because there's old love in December
as the fire fades to ember
all the tears you hide
ever since I left your side

I wish I could stop your pain
but it's as consistent as the rain
I suppose I could move ahead
but I think I'll stay here instead

POV: dying before your lover

#triedtorhyme #failed

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Rain in November

The light tap
of rain against the window
the chill in the air
and the water gathering in puddles

You stay inside
a cup of tea in your hand
and a book on your lap
a rather cozy day

The rain falls lightly
gracing the earth
with water it's starved for
though it's not always good

You think you're fine
and you go on as if you are
but your face is wet
as your eyes cry with the sky

Maybe it's not perfect
but hide that away
just smile
and it'll all go away

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