I’d rather be here
Than hiding somewhere
In memories or thoughts
Or cries of despair
I’d rather be loved
And feel you connect
Than be brought into a void
I’d rather forget
Of a past that is gone
Of a man who once was
Of a man whom you wanted
It’s important because…
If I don’t say this
I’d be terribly remiss
Love the man who I am
Not the man whom you miss

We pick and choose
What to believe
What hurts us most
Is released
Before the tears
And suffering
Old cherished myths
Our self deceit
The center of
Our universe
Revolves around
A different sun
The meaning
That we give to life
In a flash is
All undone
So then we tremble
On our beds
And pause
In silent
Humble prayer
The fear is of
The unknown God
The search for guidance
Anywhere
It’s hard to even understand
The layers of pain
That we meet
It seems cruel to keep us
From the truth
Deny the food
That we need
Yet we keep our faith
And we resist
We’re not closet
Existentialists
We may cry in pain
We may question why
But our hope in God
Just never dies

Très ****
Si ****
La distance
Entre nous
Malgré
Nos efforts
Et nos espoirs
C’est exactement
Comme prevu
Même si
Je peux distinguer
Tes émotions
Très, très claires
Dès fois
L’amour
Ne suffit pas
Malgré
Ce qu’on
Espère

This Sad Rarity

So far
So great
A distance
Exists
Between
Our souls
Lost hope
And wasted
Effort
Where pain
Has taken toll
It’s exactly
What they told me
Although
Your feelings
I clearly see
This time
Love won’t save us
In this sad
Rarity

The person you left
Is not there
You’ve returned
But he isn’t home
You’re a refugee
Without a future
Always searching
Cursed to roam
You’re torn between
The past and present
What you were
And who you are
And if you could
You’d rebuild
That foundation
When the angels sang
With the morning stars

Il y a longtemps
Que je t’aime
Et je ne peux pas
Me reveiller
Même si
Maintenant
C’est le matin
Et je dois
Me preparer
Pour un voyage
Très, très ****
En chassant
Le soleil
Un voyage
A un montagne
Où je peux
Tout surveiller
Il y a longtemps
Que je t’aime
Et sans les dire
Les mots sont vrai
Tu es toujours
Dans mes rêves
Et mon âme
Est obsèdé

In the Shadow of My Dreams

I’ve loved you
For what seems
Like ages
Now I simply
Can’t wake up
Even though
The sun has risen
And a new day
Has begun
For I’m
On a long, long
Journey
As far
As my soul permits
But in the shadow
Of my dreams
It’s you
I can’t forget

Des fois quand
Je pense à toi
Dans le silence
Même si c’est
Du déjà vu
Il faut garder
Une distance
Car il fait froid
Encore une fois
Avec un vent
Bruyant
L’aire est glaciale
Et la vie arrête
Avec tous ces
Mensonges

Life Comes to a Halt

Sometimes in the quiet
I am haunted by you
It’s hard to keep that distance
Although it’s déjà vu
For it’s freezing cold again
And a piercing wind blows
And life comes to a halt
With each lie that is told

Tell me
You who hide
In ballrooms ablaze
Sparkling diamonds
And smiling gaze
Admiration
Close and afar
Can you finally admit
Who you really are?
You ask me why
You're acting so
Why you're flying high
When you're feeling so low
Why you run
When you're close
Why you just
Shut that door
Why you simply can't go
Where you've been
Once before?
As you curl at the feet
Of someone you love
Denying it's real
At the things that you want
And the things that you miss
That you mention to no one
And will not admit
Yet you told me the truth
You whispered the words
In the middle of the night
When no one else heard