My heart's growing colder everyday.
I can feel it, when I look the other way,
Ignoring everyone who tries to catch my eye.
I can hear it, when you ask for help,
And I tell you in not so many words,
That it's not my problem.
I can see it, when you notice my vacant expression,
And you turn away, hoping I won't infect you
With this ever-present emptiness.

She appeared to me as a small caterpillar,
Transforming slowly in front of my eyes.
I watched as they plucked her butterfly wings
And sold them for a pretty price.

Here I am, sitting, wondering
What you're thinking.
It's dangerous,
Your love.
It pulls on me in all the right places.
You're the king of my thoughts,
A ruler of my feelings.
I know this cannot be healthy.

Love is more powerful
Than you could ever imagine
It defies your expectations
It satiates your thirst
For something real and complete
It is the only freedom
From your own selfish agenda.

There is a demon in me,
Literally.
I can feel it pushing me away,
Back into the passenger's seat,
As it drives my life.

A whisper
An insidious start
To a noisy finish
With the voices so soft
So innocent
'Til they grow louder
'Til they sound mean
'Til they shout everything
That you cannot bear to hear.

With nothing much else to do,
We would grab a couple of purple prickly pear margaritas
And I remember how delicious they were
And how the bartender didn't hold back
Yes, they were strong.

And I would giggle, I would act ditzy.
Just because it was fun, and it got your attention.
You would roll your eyes at me sometimes
But not really in a mean way.

And we would grab some coney dogs, devour them like they were nothing.
Then we would fight about something.

We would drive all the way to the city
Stroll through the casinos aimlessly,
Because we were financially irresponsible,
But not that financially irresponsible.
Afterwards, you would buy me a delicious ice cream.

Then you would tell me all the places you wanted to take me, and all the events you wanted me to experience.

We really did give it our all.

But life is cruel, and our best wasn't good enough.