Somehow I lost my footing
And fell
Into a sea of envy,
Into a pool of misery.
I fell foolishly,
Deeper and deeper down
To the point where I
Didn't know,
Where I couldn't even love
Myself.

All I want
Is a pink picket fence
And a kid
And a house
And a husband who tells me
I'm beautiful, even when I'm not
And I want us to be in love
And spend every day
Thankful for each other
And I don't want anyone
To tell me
That I want too much.

Sometimes I get this crazy thought
That no one likes me
That no one cares.
I just feel like it's all falling apart,
That I'm falling apart
Like a rare piece of art
That is too difficult to replicate.

Friends become enemies,
Enemies become friends.
I turn my back for one second and
They're enemies again.

I can be just as likable as I am unlikable.
I can be just as charming as I am annoying.
I can be just as kind as I am cruel.
I am not consistent, not predictable.
But the one thing you can always count on
Is my stubborness,
My unwavering, steadfast spirit
That will never compromise
Despite my inconsistencies.

No more of this *******.
Just deal with it.
Look people in the eye;
Look at them when you speak.
When people make you angry,
Don't simply swallow it down
Like a poison that slowly kills you.
Tell them.
Tell them they ****** you off,
That they crossed a line
They shouldn't have crossed.

They all form a circle
Tightly woven like a sweater
With no extra room
No space at all,
Not even for me.