I will mock your vulnerability,
Trample it mercilessly
Because it seems so fake,
And if not, it's a risk I'm willing to take.

Cruelty covers my tears
In an opaque veil
So you can't even tell
How affected I am.

It's pointless for me to worry about you,
But somehow, in some way, I do.
I should know by now your heart is ice,
And the best you can do is pretend to be nice.

There's a certain calmness that follows,
Like all your pain has been erased,
But it does not simply leave
Without first leaving a trace.

All I want is the pain,
To feel a little less insane,
To see my emotions rain,
Raining red, raining bright,
It's raining all over me tonight.

They tell me,
'Just try it on, you don't have to wear it the next day.'
Oh isn't that so easy for you to say,
When you've cast all your morals away?

I don't miss you.
I don't know why I think I do.
Because if you were here right now,
I don't even know how
I would live my life.
I can feel you creeping up again,
Trying to get back in,
Trying to tie up those pesky loose ends.
It ends here now before it ever begins.
I'm not going to let you hurt me again.