I'm scared.

I'm scared of you.

I'm scared of me.

I'm scared that you won't believe me.

I'm scared of not being here tomorrow.

I'm scared of what I feel.

I'm scared of what I may feel.

Don't cry,

Don't blame yourself,

Don't try to comfort me,

Because I know that you are scared too.

Don't try to put me the confidence you don't have.

Don't deceive yourself with fake hopes.

Don't try to fight against something that is with you and with me.

Don't pretend that you are not scared.

Because you are and me too.

Coward people,

It's said that they are coward people,

Weak people who can't control the situation.

I don't think the same way,

For me they aren't more than just people,

People who try to do a stupid thing,

But the most courageous thing too.

It's not like from a moment to the other you can do it,

You need courage,

And a lot of it,

More than I will ever have.

I want,
I want the hope of the dreamers.
I want,
I want the light at the end of the tunnel.
I want,
I want the darkness of the abyss.
I want,
I want the faith of the lost.
I want,
I want something that isn't mine.
I want everything,
Everything that isn't yours.
I want all,
Except you.

If I ever wanted to die,
Would you help me to die?

Please,
Don't get close to me.
I only cause pain,
To myself and everyone who gets close.
That's why please,
Don't get close to me,
I love you too much to live with the idea that someday I caused you pain.
Please,
Don't get close to me,
I can't control myself.
I don't have control over this,
Not even a little.
I lost it when I lost myself in the darkness.
That's why,
I'm dying,
Little by little I'm dying,
Dying inside.
That's why please,
Don't get close to me.

How do I heal myself?
With my own words.
With my verses that could be not even verses.
With my poems.
I heal myself, writing.

It's incredible isn't it?
Yesterday, we were together.
Today, we dont even talk.
It's incredible isn't it?
Yesterday, you said and promised,
That you wouldn't leave me.
Today, I see that you lied to me.
It's incredible isn't it?
Yesterday, I smiled with you.
Today, I cry alone.
It's incredible isn't it?
Yesterday, was love.
Today, is just a lie.