I’m drifting through space with no direction
Nothing to guide me
Nothing to hold onto
Everything that seems within my reach
Slips away
I just keep falling
With nothing to catch me
No one to catch me
Everything feels dark and cold
I live a nightmare that never ends
Morning seems lifetimes away
I see a light and stretch my hand towards it
Fingers outreached I try to get closer
But the nearer I get to the light
The dimmer it becomes
Until the light is no more
Nothing more than a figment
The darkness consumes me
Loneliness eats away at me
While I starve
Craving  a companion
Any contact to subside the isolation
Anything to fill the void

Our relationship
A cup of cold coffee
Bitter
And left unattended

I run
not sure from who
I hide
not sure why
I am afraid
But I can’t escape
Because what I fear the most
Lies beneath my face

I"m sorry if I'm not enough
I'm sorry if I'm too much
I'm sorry that I'm sorry
I worry that I give too much
Try too hard
So I pull back
And then worry I'm not giving enough
So I try harder
Like a child on a teetertotter
Never able to balance it evenly

My love is like the ocean
Waves of it surge forward
Towards the shore
Pushing and pulling
I grow nearer and nearer
But every time
Right before I'm close enough
The moon pulls me back
I retreat
Deeper and deeper
Never quite reaching my goal

Stuck in an infinite cycle
Like a song left on repeat

Destruction
Creation
Destruction
Creation
Hope
Anguish
**­pe
Anguish

Despite my ultimate demise
I always get up
Just to fall again

In my grave I’ll rot
Waiting
For those who won’t come
Waiting
For those who aren’t worth it
Waiting
For those who don’t care

In my grave I’ll rot
Longing
For those who don’t love
Wishing
For those who don’t miss
Hoping
For those who don’t remember

In my grave I’ll rot
Remembering
Those who were there
Feeling
For those I touched
Proud
Of those who I influenced

In my grave I’ll rot
Easy