Scared to smile around you so I stumble.
Tumbling and fumbling and shaking
Under your spell. I've been
Mistreated and defeated I'm a
Brambling idiot. I'm afraid of
Loving and living and leaving.
Eternity is such a long time to go without love.

A night of drinking and partying
Ended in 2 couches and 3 people.
You playfully pushed me over
Smushing your body close to mine.

I was with someone
but  hadn’t been in love with him
for a long time.
Your hardworking arms pulled me in closer
And you kissed my forehead.

I knew that night I had to end my
Already crumbled relationship

I knew that night that I didn’t want to
Go on forever without ever kissing you.

A pocketful of stars
An arm full of old scars
A crumbling heart,slowly falling apart.
A head full of dreams
A world that is never as it seems.

I believe in first glances
And second chances,
That the third time is a charm

If in the end I stumble and I fall
I know it was worth it all.
I'll have no regrets.

I put all my faith in a feeling,
All my heart in hoping.
But somehow I always end up heart broken.

Is this how it ends?
No 'happily ever after',
Not even just friends?

Bits of my heart scatter upon the floor while I
Run from razorblade rain that rips into me.
On and on I run but I can’t get dry.  A
Knight in shining armor races past me to another and
Ever after passes me by.
Nothing is right in my fairy tale.

4:17 I'm awake and aware,
shaking with nervous energy and
searching for your face in the surrounding darkness.
Like a magnet I'm drawn to you.
5:05 Laying with you, our bodies intertwined
like an intricate celtic design.
Our hearts beat in rhythm, never missing a beat.
9:01 Happy in your arms.
I could lay here for always listening to you breathe.
9:08 You're gone and I'm uncertain you'll return,
all I can do is try not to imagine the worst, but the glass is half empty and the clock ticks loudly.
9:12 Your back and I'm happy to see you but
I can tell from your face that you aren't staying.
This is the part where I begin fraying.
The glass is empty,and the sand
has reached the bottom of the hour glass.
Time is up.

You were my everything.
And now you are someone else's everything.
And I'm sure you'll be another's everything after that.

I'd like to kick you...but really what would that solve?
Matters of the heart cannot be dealt with violence.
One must just **** it up and tell their heart to just forget he ever existed.

The universe just won’t let me forget.

Alone and lonely
The darkness takes me.
I'm searching for shooting stars
in the night sky
but the street lights
are too bright
and the clouds are
too dense.
The rain falls
slowly, it beats
******* my window
pane.

Train tracks
strewn with
bits of broken glass
That shimmer in
The cold winter sun.
I think about jumping
In front of
The next orange line train