The tiredness no amount of coffee can fix,
of chasing boys since 1996.
But they keep running,
So I'll be staying and waiting.
Come knight, come armor,
get me out of this clambering mess.
I can't get out myself, I'll need an accomplice.
You. You make me want to roam free,
go out and be me!
How can I stay hidden like this?
My light inside is slowly dimming.
Please come set me free.
If you chased... If you tried...
You'd be the one I'd hold at night.
I know I'm not much,
but get to know me, and I'll be more.
You help my weary wings soar.
They are stretching out and wildly flourishing.
Once locked up so others couldn't see
is what he's really doing to me.
I'm not ready to settle down,
I'm not ready to leave my independence.
Just put you on hold, upon a high shelf,
I'll live my life by myself.
Come back to you, and get you down,
brag about the fun I had,
then only then, I'll make you a dad.

Through this hard rain,
You don't know who you'll see,
staring back through at me.
But for now I hope its you,
standing waiting for me.
"Don't be like them"
keeps running running
through my mind.
"Your nutty", "You have something up there."
I feed off you and your pitiful compliments.

Steady as it goes, let it out
one bit at a time,
The life I lived,
the love I lost.
All come in time.
Never have I been steady
always running and dodging life.
Running,
    Running,  
        Running, through life I go.
Never look behind,
I can not be contained!!
My legs! my wings!
Oh how they wish to go!

A hug, but not a kiss,
it has to mean more than this.
A lingering touch,
first 1 arm, then 2.
Then 3 then 4. Wrapped together
the closest we will be,
until for now, forever.

Caught up, fired up and ready to argue,
I remember in the motion of photographs,
our laughter, our kisses.
Enwrapped by your mouth,
showing mine the way. How can bad come
from my mouth as well?
How horrible to let you see that side of me.
The side no stranger or even friends see.
The side thats mean and nasty.
Let my mouth do building instead.
Le my mouth help you get lost in mine.
Let my mouth be of love and genuine support.
I'm sorry for the things that may exit.
That side of me, will hopefully
no longer be, by tomorrow.
My love will ever grow for you.
My heart will only yern for yours.
Matches made, lives entangled, established 2013.
Here we go, about to pass the two year mile.

Through thick and thin,
till the lights go dim,
you have always shone,
My love song for you,
will never do,
So I try each day,
Its so nice for a place,
to cast my worries away,
Thank you Lord for  your amazing grace.

Cant you see in my eyes?
can't you hear in my voice?
I am trapped!
I fear love, and am charmed by admiration.
No, I won't give up...
           but I won't fall for the same trick twice.
I seem sweet, but deep inside
I thirst and hunger for more eternal.
Your everything I need to keep me crazy,
and every thing you need to keep you sane.
Attracted to people in help, I always succeed,
in letting them over power me.
Steps must be taken,
   one at a time.
Because soon, you'll be the biggest decision of my life.
You don't understand, I am so caught up
baby names are already accounted for.
My heart is beating out of my chest
with each pump of blood and each breath I breathe,
you are there in front of me.
Rebellion has often been, my go to alarmed.
I am still young, and you know what I want?
To do what I want.
Some one smart once said,
if you stop doing things for fun, you may as well be dead.