The clothes in my closet
remind me to be anyone I want to be-
The hiking shoes on the shelf
remind me to explore the wild outdoors-
The pictures hung up on the wall
remind me to create and be inspired-
The bed and blankets and pillows
remind me to rest my mind-
The books stacked on journals stack on books
remind me to expand my horizons-
Its just me and my thoughts,
me and my pains,
        Me and my droughts
              me and my gains.
With the Lord pulling me,
and the Devil chasing me,
I have control of my abandon.
My legs can take me farther.
Water. Coffee. Water. Sleep. Repeat.
Life of simplicity, Lurking behind my heels.
I cant help but fall in love with the way mystery feels.
Hold me tight, but wild me free,
keep me close, but love me harder,
attend to my tears, but add positive.
My stuff has value, but I cannot take.
I hope someday these poems make light,
and find someone to take flight.
In the solitary of my own bed,
I lie and think
how different things will be,
When you infest here too.
My love for you
it grows stronger and stronger,
and my fears grow greater and greater.
My own thoughts kick in,
lets see how you will be,
if the shoes are switched.

Internally seeking.
Outwardly reaching.
No lifeboats in sight.
Both ways have no view.
Slowly retreating to myself,
Feeling confined with no help.
Stop time, and tell,
no bad endings, end well.
Lose you to yourself,
or lose you to hell.
My breath is quickening.

So my knight,
if you are ready for the fight,
Kneel and look up to me
as I bestow my love.
You are sir of my thoughts
running them around on your horse,
You are kind of my eyes,
for who else can behold?
You are Duke of my lungs,
stealing each breath away.
But dont forget!
Most important of all!
Knight of my heart
Knight of my life.
My knight in shinning armor.
Climb off your high horse,
to kiss this little bird hello,
and I will devote each kiss
with a purpose, none for show!
Each kiss will be,
for love of my life, eternity
Each kiss laid on your skin
for passion.
Each kiss to pass by and by
for prof the only flight
in my heart is from your
delight.

Lungs collapsing.
Full with cold.
Tears or sweat;
Mix on my face.
How often I question
my tired bones.
Please dont fail me now.
Structures build up
to benefit me,
but all I see,
is the change and regret.
Pouring from within,
Oh my dear, Dont go...
I only want some time for me
to think clearly.
I dont want to lose you,
But cant you see??
Sometimes the runaway,
just might be me.

My outside is fake, hard, plastic.
My insides dying to come out! express.
No Barbie could ever see through this mess.
Fighting for a relationship is worth it,
until the fighting is done,
and still not gain has been made.
Still not solving solved.
How happy I was a year ago,
How happy I was in the shower,
And it is always your fault.
You are a selfish manipulator,
that always gets your way.
***.... For church?
I stand for my religion
and you knock out my feet.
I stand for my God,
and you knock out my knees.
I am an astronaut painting,
Painting my own universe,
slowly shattering and being painted over
by your own self,
How can you be so stone cold,
How can you not trust?
After all this my trust, is still away,
So no more slowing down.
I am done.
Not more convincing or holding back
I have got the reigns with no slack.
Manipulate all you want, you'll never get your way.
Because finally I realize it should never be this way.
Something you cant find
Take me back to the shower,
how happy I was!
and now, I've lost it...
Who knows when it will return.
Butterflies cant be kept in a box.
not matter how beautiful
they suffocate slowly and die,
when their job is to bring new life.

In the kindest way...
I just want to shake you!
And knock what I am saying into your head
... out of love.
I just want to grab you!
And slap my emotions onto your heart,
I love you too.
I want the best for us too.
So how come when I correct you,
It s all fighting and my fault?
But you correct me, I am at fault.
I want my heart and my brain
to feel your love.
Not just my ****.
Is that to much to ask?
I love you too.
Just listen to these words,
Please.
Respect and communication is all I want.
No bows, or diamonds, just us.
Just you. Just your whole heart.
In my hands
: All said out of love.

With heats so wild
we need cages of bones,
to hold back these wonderful desires.
Slowly I am wandering further
getting lost in your love,
and consumed by your fire.
Windows are wide open
peering in from my heart to yours,
And i have only one small drop
of knowing in my soul.
My bones rattle as I fix on you,
and by far out of my grasp
only your sheets know how
we speak,
and only your love knows
the others heart.
For you are mine and I am yours,
bound not by law, but power above.
To great for this world,
my speech falls short,
done without haste,
I am a drop with the force of gravity,
concerning your love.