Every night after,
I watched the sun come up.
Too afraid to sleep.
Too afraid to lose you again in my dreams.
The bags under my eyes
soon became the suitcases of your sorrow.
I was worn out and petrified.
I couldn't face it all again.

my head is full of blue thoughts,
that i can't shake free.
a heavy fog of the type of thoughts
that make my eyes go runny and red.
the blanket of regrets
and bitter disbelief that offers no warmth.
i wouldn't put stock in it
ever
getting any better then this.
i think of lovers never loved
and bodies never held close
kisses hanging dry in the air,
blown away by carefree mouths.
i want the million little things
that arn't really things
that i know i can never have,
i want the moments lost and forgotten
in the darker shades of grey.
i want and i need,
i beg and i hunger.
but i know,
such things
that arn't really things,
are so far out of reach

the distant between us is killing me
i just want you here with me
to cuddle, hug, and kiss you goodnight
see with me id treat you right
but all these people keep getting in my way
sometime i just dont know what to say
i think ive fell into like with you
i really kinda want to date you
but i dont want to feel like im coming to strong
so ima cut this short and not make it to long
people will say and do what they want  
but just remember it you girl the one i really want.

and she said she'd miss him,
in the smallest voice,
with sincerity that silenced
the world.

ive done it again
i was doing so well
but why
is this the answer to a cheap happiness
im not smart enough to stop
im too cold to change
ive lost the will again
i dont want to restart
i feel to be a danger
i want to be a safety
unstable
and
uncontrollable
i see the faces
so scared
to see the face thats been hidden
by the breaking mask
the glue is nowhere to be found
the faces still scared
not knowing what to do
seeing the monster
the creature
the broken mask
the faces still scared
no means of peace
till the glue is found

Did anyone tell you, you can stop holding your breath now?
It's all clear, the fights over, your not gonna drown,
I think they forgot to tell you, It's okay to stop running,
Yeah, its silent but stop humming.

Your lips were blue and your hands were shaking,
You said the rain would do you good,
A breath of fresh air was all you were needing,
Just know that I did all I could.

Just know that I did all I could,
But no one could rescue you from the cold,
It stuck to your skin in the darkest of weather,
Darling you were soaked.

My hands could not calm your shaking,
My words could not warm your heart,
With each breath that you are now taking,
Someone else falls apart.