It's where I keep my memories,
Both happy ones and sad,
It's where I keep my feelings,
Both the good and bad,

There is a book so titled,
My one and only love,
It is at the top, the very top,
It's so far up above,

It's hard to try and get it,
It's out of my reach, but I try,
It's up inside the clouds so blue,
On that heaven shelf so high,

I hope one day I get it back,
And read the pages through,
Then I know I found again,
My one true love, my you.

I'm a shark, when in a nark,
I will bite you and fight you,
And rip you apart,

But that's just the start,

I'll snap your soul,
When I roll,
Rip your heart,
Your bleeding heart,

But that's just the start,

I'll chew you through,
And spit you out,
You can't shout,

Because it's the end.

Your not only tarred by the clothes you wear,
It's colour if skin and style of hair,
It's your walk your talk or accent you speak,
It's your ****** gender, your strength or your weak....ness,
If your a hoody a goody or an old fuddy duddy, you are judged,

Your not only judged by the way you live life,
It's the size of your house, your car or your wife,
It's your stance your glance or posture indeed,
It's your choice of career, obligation or greed....yness,
If your a banker a tanker or just the local ******, you are labelled,

Your not only labelled by what I have said,
It's by where you have shopped or where you dropped dead,
It's the illness, the sickness, the disease that you had,
It's your funeral, communal, whether good or bad....ness,
If you have drive, are contrive, want to survive, get out of the beehive.

Tina Ford

I'm just tryna get on,
Don't ask for much,
As much I have,
With good family and friends,
I don't do to bad,
But there's a feeling of emptiness deep inside,
I'm keepin it quiet, but inside I've died,
I don't like to share the failure I feel,
For a glimpse of hope, I would beg, borrow, steal,
Tears keep rolling from my blue blue eyes,
I'm keepin it quiet, but I've died inside,
All feelings have left me, alone, that I am,
I scavenge my soul for a glimmer that can,
Revive me, alive me, awaken my mind,
Give me the passion I need to survive,
I don't like this feeling me dying inside,
So what do I do? I ask every day,
Crawl on the floor, give in and lay,
On this bed of self pity and worthless intent,
I wasn't born for this, it's not meant,
I reach in the darkness with my very last fight,
And a miracle, it seems, a flicker of light,
A low golden twinkle and gentle appeal,
My heart beat gets stronger, my feelings.... I feel,
This is all I need, I did not realise,
My reason for living is in my childs eyes.
How selfish and cruel when my feelings re root,
The depression subsides, time for the boot,
I must start again, my eyes cry once more,
My soul has a warmth, I have felt before,
So I pick myself up again from the hollow,
And I pray that these thoughts will not dare to follow,
Because,
I have a gentle soul and at times very weak,
But I find when I write I don't have to speak,
And this is my prompt, my will to survive,
I didn't like that feeling of dying inside.

After years of torture and mental abuse,
I could no longer think of a good excuse,
For the marks the cuts the blackened eyes,
My mind wearing thin along with my lies,

The suffering caused by the slightest mistake,
kicked in the head till my face would break,
walking on egg shells to keep all serene,
Hundreds of questions, as to where I had been,

laying stiff and frightened in the bed,
waiting for the dreaded words to be said,
Cringing, then praying for time to pass quick,
as you slept, I would be violently sick,

The feeling of horror, of dread and of fright,
Swelled up inside me, when you came home at night,
Every inch of me, was battered and torn,
Time to wake up and face the storm,

with the stench of stale ***** and another man,
your make up all smudged into your false tan,
You spat those words into my face,
calling me weak and a total disgrace,

I trembled slightly, and started to shake,
I could no longer give and let you take,
So I grabbed your throat without a glitch,
And I screamed in your face die you *****,

I squeezed and tensed my hands so tight,
Your eyes they changed from dark to light,
I slowly forced you to the floor,
and screamed again, no more, NO MORE,

An unfortunate reverse had taken place,
And now it is you with a broken face,
My bags are packed and I'm reborn,
Time to wake up and face the storm.

Christina Ford

My skills I give you to help rebuild,
My hands I give you with love, they're filled,
My time is nothing but all I own,
I want to help you make it home,

My arms are strong to carry you,
My legs will walk a path that's true,
Our souls will sing if we achieve,
For in kind people we must believe,


The world is full of people like me,
Human kindness is here, it's free,
Let me be the one you follow,
I will take you from today into tomorrow,

My heart does nothing but ache for you,
These times are hard, but love shines through,
I am here, to feel and aid your plight,
And I bring, from your darkness a hopeful light.

My lips could speak a thousand words,
My words could tell a thousand truths,
My truths could open a thousand minds,
My mind could twist and turn your lies,
Your lies have spilled from your lips,
You talk with vile and poisonous words,
Your mind is closed and insincere,
Your soul is full of disrespect for all,
The damage is not to others, but only to yourself.

I stood and watched the beating,
My heart was all I heard,
I stood and watched the beating
I'm next is what I feared,

My brother only three years old,
Was trying not to scream,
I reached my hand to touch his face,
Was this just a dream,

His loving eyes of innocence,
Became empty and so still,
My father shouted angrily,
As I lay down next to him,

I shook his shoulder gently,
I wiped away his tears,
Please my little brother,
Let me take your fears,

Wake up, wake up, it's time to play,
We can go outside,
We can climb our tree of dreams,
Together we can hide,

My father walked away in time,
My mother followed him,
But no one helped this little one,
I cried from deep within,

I tried to lift his little form,
To carry him to bed,
As I had tried many times,
But blood poured from his head,

Wake up, wake up, it's time to play,
We can go outside,
We can climb our tree of dreams,
Together we can hide,

But he would not wake up to play,
I shook him more and more,
I kissed his rosie cheeks of red,
Then came a knock on the door,

It was some police and other men,
They ran and got my dad,
They took my brother in a yellow car,
They called my mother bad,

They chained their hands and shouted loud,
I just sat alone,
I wandered what was happening,
In this house, my home,

A lady came and took my hand,
She led me through the door,
I looked at our tree of dreams,
But it wasn't there no more,

Ten years passed in different homes,
A life that's like no other,
And all this time I was alone,
And thinking of my brother,

Today I found our tree of dreams,
And sitting way up high,
Is my brother, my sweet sweet brother,
I began to cry,

I climbed the tree and held him tight,
He was happy and had no pain,
His eyes where full of life once more,
We where together again.

We are with you,
In thoughts and prayer,
Broken hearts,
Our love we share,

A wicked world,
It shouldn't be,
We hold your hand,
For liberty,

Liberty from,
Your tears and sorrow,
We hold your hand,
Today and tomorrow,

We try to comfort you,
We are always near,
Take our love,
Know now in your fear,

We are with you,
Strong and pure,
Forever loved,
Forevermore.

Please don't leave me,
Even though I forget,
The day I gave birth to you,
The day that we met,

Please don't blame me,
Even though I cannot mind,
The days and weeks happenings,
They get mixed up all the time,

Please don't shout at me,
When I can't remember why,
I emptied all the cupboards,
I don't want to make you cry,

Please don't lose faith in me,
I'm here, just through the door,
That I've lost the key to,
I can't find it anymore,

Please don't be sad for me,
As my memories are all here,
They're just hiding away for a little while,
Some sneak out with a tear,

Some roll down my cheeks,
I wipe them to one side,
And although I never speak of them,
They are all here, inside,

So please don't ever leave me,
Your my only thing that's real,
I know I cannot show it, but,
I do feel what you feel,

I still have that beating heart,
That brought you life and soul,
The same blood runs through our vein's,
To love you was my only goal,

So please don't ever leave me,
In a place that's not my home,
Keep me, with things, my life,
So that I'm never alone.

Maggie Thatcher working class snatcher,
Don’t look twice coz she’ll come at ya,
She’ll grind your bones to make her bread,
She will take your pride and on it tread,

She takes your voice, so speak no more,
She will try to ruin man forevermore,
Racism, her middle name,
For people who won’t play her game,

Iron lady! I’m not sure,
She thrived on stealing from the poor,
Even on her day of fall,
She takes ten million from us all,

Privatising our very lives,
Sorrowful tears filled many eyes,
But as years passed and went,
We grew strong against the government,

And with her on her burial day,
The secrets of the 96 lay,
For the kids and poor she did not cater,
We will not weep for this dictator.

I wear my heart on my sleeve,
I'm easy to deceive,
But I always believe,
In my dreams,

I am clever and bright,
I never fight,
I'm not always right,
About life,

I see far ahead,
Pictures in my head,
Me laying on my bed,
I have made,

I am optimistic,
Quite simplistic,
Somewhat idealistic,
On my path,

My heart is a drummer,
My soul a long summer,
My brain is a ******,
For  good choices,

My blood runs quicker,
Than the finest of liquor,
Than one million nicker,
But really,

I'm nothing so special,
Like white platinum metal,
But I'll happily settle,
To be me.

If I was god, I'd calm the storms,
I'd hush the seas and tide,
If I was god, I'd stop the wars,
Make humans stand by side,

If I was god, I'd banish all money,
Everything would be free,
If I was god, no one would hurt,
No human pain would be,

If I was god, I'd feed the world,
With fruits and vegetables galore,
If I was god, no illness be,
Like people suffered before,

If I was god, I'd make it right,
Paradise would be right now,
If I was god, no nightmares be,
Coz peaceful dreams I'd allow,

But wait a minute, god I am,
As each of us as well,
So stop this silly living now,
We've turned our earth to hell,

He's inside everyone of us,
You feel his beating heart,
That he gave to us so selflessly,
But other humans rip apart,

Breathe in your faith, whatever it be,
And exhale the love and pride,
We'll bless humankind together,
From here to universal wide.

A pint of bitter the old man cried,
As he stumbled to the floor,
I’m sorry Mr P sir,
I can’t give you anymore,
Hi ham a regiment soldier,
He slurred and boldly spoke,
I know and respect that Mr P,
But I think your hip is broke,
Hi fought in Burma and  Vietnam,
And world wars one and two,
Hi was imprisoned and tortured,
And still hi made it through,
Now listen here, young girl me lad,
Hi want another beer,
hi walked on the moon you know,
ham hi speaking clear,
Mr P its time to go,
its nearly half eleven,
you have had thirty pints today,
since only five past seven,
I understand Mr P,
but sir you are quite drunk,
I cannot serve you anymore,
and you wife has done a bunk.

I got poked by death today,
Not one word did he say,
He's just letting me know he's there,
Waiting around,
And to be fair,
I've always known he was there,
But I didn't really care,
Till he poked me that is.

I want to hurt you, desert you, socially disgrace you,
Shame you, break you, and publically deface you,
Simply and quite easily displace you,
But I can’t,

I want to beat you, delete you, silently defeat you,
Spite you, fight you, locally expedite you,
Gently and easily overwrite you,
But I can’t,

I want to kick you, flick you, psychotically brick you,
Nab you, grab you, franticly jab you,
Smiling as I lovingly stab you,
But I can’t,

I want to grin, watch blood soak in, laughing within,
Delighting in my sin, comfortably rock...in,
As, I picture you in your coffin,
But I can’t,

But I can wait; I’m at the gate, of fate,
Don’t be late……………

Awake my soul, for he is here,
To chase away my every fear,
Relieve my heart from every pain,
For I will love once again,

Awake my eyes, for he is seen,
To bring to me my every dream,
Fill my veins with something new,
For now i feel the love shine through,

Awake my body, for he has life,
To make of me his true love wife,
Fill my lungs with every breath,
For i will love until my death,

Awake my mind, for he is love,
And fits with me just like a glove,
Fill my being with desire,
For now i feel your true fire,

Awake my soul, for you are mine,
Until the end of all time,
You've took my heart for your own,
So now I'll never be alone,

My love for you is here to stay,
Everlasting for every day,
I love you husband, my rock, my life,
Im proud to be your loving wife

Tina Ford
Jan 14

They used to call me a four eyed cow,
But I told them I had two,
You know the rest of that rhyme,
But I've got more to tell you,

I had to wear a calliper,
My god I got called then,
Peg leg, four eyed cow,
Over again and again,

I suppose you feel some pity for me,
Well I tell you it got bad,
In a wheelchair for over a year,
Not the best time I had,

Bullies best target way back then,
I could not run away,
They kicked my legs and laughed at me,
I hear them, still, today,

I would get called names very bad,
Got hit and pushed away,
I only wanted to make friends,
Friends with whom ide play,

My father sat with me one night,
As i cried with shame,
He told me not to feel that way,
For I was not to blame,

He told me in a caring way,
They didn't have love like me,
And that is why they called me names,
And I began to see,

My dad had took away my pain,
And i felt sorrow for them all,
He asked me to say hello to them,
When they next came to call,

I did this with a fear and dread,
And quite to my surprise,
They asked me what had happened to me,
And tears they filled my eyes,

After a long conversation,
They asked to make amends,
Apologized for the words they said,
We soon become good friends.

Sometimes someone who hurts you is only looking for kindness and love.

Catholic upbringing is what i had,          

Hypocrite i'm told is bad,

Religions differ whoever you are,

Islamic, Budha, Queen or Tsar,

Schooling i found done nothing for me,

Teachers and i could never agree,

Important exams i did not take,

Nothing i'de to to make that break

Adult years became reality,

Hoping to fit in with society,

Arguing rowing everyday, over

Raising children the proper way,

Wishing i was back at school,

Out of this adult world so cruel,

Only one thing that's left in my life,

Dreams of a lonely catholic housewife

Oh Christmas,
Why do you make me feel so sad,
So sad, because I cannot help my fellow men,
Fellow men suffer in silence,
In silence I cry, alone and afraid,
Afraid because I am incapable,
Incapable of bringing peace,
Peace is all I ask,
Ask and i shall receive you say,
You say you are there,
There for me, but I cannot see you,
See you or feel you,
You leave me, in my darkest hour,
Hour after hour, alone,
Alone, all alone at Christmas,
Oh Christmas.

I wanna drink,
Despite what ye think,
There is no link to the brink of return,
I wanna stay,
This way,
Today,
And every other day,
And I can hear you say,
She never used to be this way,
I'm not,
A kid full of snot,
A teenage blot,
A local sot,
I'm human,
And I'm consumin,
Me life from a bottle,
You wanna throttle,
Me, don't ye,
You wanna,
Cheat me and beat me and take away me sanity,
I can hear you think,
She never ever used to drink,
She's at that brink of no return,
I don't care,
I really don't care,
It's my life,
My strife,
I am the only host,
To the ghost,
I know the most,
That haunts my soul,
Stamps out my goal,
I know you feel,
It's unreal,
It's no big deal,
I wanna drink,
Despite what you think.

Suicide Pete had the world at his feet,
Brought laughter and cheer to all in his street,
Colleagues thought, Yeah he's neat,
Everybody loved suicide Pete,

He had a good job at the local news,
Reported on poverty, and kids with no shoes,
Told the truth about food bank queue's,
Peoples hunger, coldness and blues,

He had a big heart filled with light,
Gave all his free time day and night,
worked with the homeless and their plight,
Knowing the end was not in sight,

Helped with charities all year round,
picked people up of the ground,
Gave the beggars his very last pound,
Never ever grumbled, not one sound,

They say he looked well and in good form,
Some of them had known him since he was born,
But none of them knew what happened that dawn,
Some only heard the news later that morn,

It was pay day for sure, he gave the lot to the poor,
but they needed more and more,
Pete's head became sore,
He took a walk down the shore,

He pondered and thought and searched his brain,
Why Government people kept causing such pain,
He was certain it was for their own greedy gain,
His heart beat faster like an runaway train,

A smile appeared when he'd made his mind right,
He decided enough was enough, time to fight,
He found himself at a tourist sight,
In London town, he stayed the night,

The very next day his mind felt buff,
And he looked pretty good for sleeping rough,
He entered the House of Commons feeling tough,
He nodded and smiled and blew the ****'s up.

Creeping up your stairs at night,
As you lay asleep in bed,
The depression imp slides in your room,
And straight inside your head,
He starts to play his little game,
Your at his beck and call,
Whispering all bad thoughts,
Your dreams begin to fall,
You start to doubt your confidence,
Along with hope and will,
He's eating your very essence,
Your soul he wants to ****,
You let yourself fall at his feet,
Your future in his eyes,
You cannot help but be entranced,
You feed him with your lies,
Your kindness shrinks to anger,
Your caring thoughts are gone,
This is a wicked entity,
And he wants you for his own,
He will use your every breath,
To try and keep you in,
But please have faith and belief,
Were all put here to sin,
But in the pits of darkness,
A light will always beam,
There's always hope and dreams to be,
After the darkness you have seen,
So just before you drift to sleep,
Try to say this prayer,
Stay away depression imp,
There is no room in here.

Avaricious nation, I want no association,
There's starving people, your being sheeple,
What's up with you UK?
No need for the greed, it's a planted seed,
Leave the telly's, feed the belly's,
What's up with you UK?
All for a saver, it's a poverty waver,
Feed mankind, not pockets lined,
What's up with you UK?
All for the sake, a Merry Christmas to make,
Yet you play along, you've got it so wrong,
What's up with you UK?
Life's about caring, not what your wearing,
Or material stuff, I've said enough,
What's up with you UK?
You all know what's up!!!
Hear my rant,
you all live. with IGNORANCE AND WANT!!!

If you wanna get by,
Get high,

Don't sigh,
Just flyyyyyyyy,

If you wanna fly high,
Say goodbye to the lie,

Don't over achieve,
Just leave,

You won't come back,
After crack!!!!

There is no place for the two sided face of racism,
Were one kind, human kind, and I don't mind, I take as I find,
Don't go on postcode, or selfie pic upload, or the vehicle you rode,
It's personality, your charity, what my mind sees as clarity,
That you have a heart, and you want to be a part, of this world, it's a start,
And we got to start somewhere, why not here, let it be clear, there's nothing to fear,
We can be one, were not alone, don't feel outdone, by a someone,
Were unique, we all stand on our own peak, we are not weak,
Take my hand, my fellow man, together we can,
Be free, at liberty, have one family tree, but most of all be happy,
We can rejoice in our choice,
We can be glad we had, coz were not all bad.

The autumn rain is not the same,
Without you by my side,
The falling leaves and empty trees,
Are pointless now you've died,

The snowy hills brought us such thrills,
But now no footprints tread,
The frozen brook, no second look,
Since you have been dead,

The summer nights and it's delights,
Are cold and dull and grey,
The picnic laughs and photographs,
Like you, gone away,

I await the spring and hope I'll sing,
Our song of love again,
I will not stay another day,
In the autumn rain.

I’ve got time on me hands,
It’s better than blood,
I’ve got worry on me mind,
I know it’s no good,
But what can I do with nowhere to go,
My mind races by, my body moves slow,
If only I could I would leave you all behind,
Start a new life, new beginnings ide find,
But those roots pull my strings,
Those strings on me heart,
I know a new life would be very hard to start,
With the call of me town, ringing in me ear,
I don’t think I could do it to all I hold dear,
So instead I sit here and wallow and moan,
Losing my marbles and losing my home,
Fed up and messed up it’s all a farce,
Someone come and give me a kick up the ****,
Thank you and goodnight.

Tina Ford

Let's talk political, why because it's critical, do ya think you fit the bill,
On the street with a beat of the multi cultural heat,
That's startin to burn up and churn up, but no one will show up and turn up,
If it's a revolution for a solution to all the pollution,
That's forced in our brain, not for material gain, it's insane, and the same,
Over and over again and again,
It's on the news, bringing blues of lies and trues,
We want fair play, a decent wage pay, don't wanna lose at the game you play,
Listen with your ear, take the words you hear, do not fear, it's clear,
We're not the bad, but we're sad, at what we could of had,
You risk it, take the biscuit, take our lives and mess them up mixing it,
We're fed up, not getting told what's up and what's said by your head, as you lay in his bed,
He's your leader, the feeder, the taker of what we need yeah,
We're cryin for a voice, a choice, someone to make a noise,
Is it me...... T, unlikely to see,
I'm not brave, but I wanna save,
Humanity from all this insanity,
I'm no joke but I choke on the smoke,
Of the cultural heat on the street,
I know....... I'm just to sweet.

She looked at me, and said,
Who are you?
It felt like my heart stopped still,
I tried to speak,
I tried to say,
Mum it's me, it's me T,
But nothing would come out,
I was frozen,

She looked at me, and said,
Who are you??
I felt my soul crumble into a million pieces,
And I stumbled,
M... M... Mum it's me T,
Knowing,
She didn't recognize me,

She looked scared of me,
She truly did not know me,
How could this be,
I am her T,
And she....
She is my queen,
And her memory,
Is frozen.

In the flood canoe rescue,
Great Britain take the lead,
In the pilfering of houses,
We get gold for the greed,

In the skeleton were top,
As the food runs out to quick,
For children and the aged,
The poor and the sick,

Sandbag filling quickness,
We have that one to,
The army lads champion that,
The royals helped with a few,

Evacuation sprint,
Won by counties, five,
Death toll medal to follow,
When we see who's left alive,

Loss of homes and business,
Unmentionable amount,
Mental scars and sadness,
Impossible to count,

Top gold medal for Cameron,
For deserting the British clan,
And top gold for foreign aid,
Given by this man,

No takers for foreign help gold,
But the world can see our plight,
And yet we are the first to aid,
When other countries are in the *****,

So well done rich safe government,
Your truly an all gold winner,
For the country that was fought for,
You watch as your land becomes thinner.

In our world of innocence and light,
We live amongst demons and sinners,
In our world of silence and comfortableness',
We have lost, and they become winners,

But we are the beautiful creatures,
The timeless souls of verse,
We can nourish and feed ourselves,
In our script we self immerse,

We can make all the bad disappear,
And write of a life surreal,
But alas our open hearts fail us,
For every word, we feel,

But we are the beautiful creatures,
We bring life where there is none,
We can word away from the demons,
And the sinners? Well there is only one.

Wake up,
Shake up,
Sit up,
Make up,
Tea in a cup,
Slowly sup,
Now I feel alive,

Leave home,
Travel alone,
Mobile phone,
I'm a clone,
Skin and bone,
All alone,
How am I alive,

Work all day,
Pittance pay,
Never play,
Bills at bay,
Feelings flay
Smile and say,
I wish I was dead.

I was brought up on a council estate,
I had 53 aunty's and I was everyones mate,
We played out till dark or till we felt hunger,
We'd beg mum or dad to let us play longer,
I had holes in me shoes but they made me run faster,
I had national health glasses held together with plaster,
Dried snot on me face mixed in with the dirt,
Corporation pop stains all over me skirt,
But I was happy,
Go of for the day with butties of jam,
If we where lucky, some biscuits of me mam,
An old fairy liquid bottle full of cold water,
There's one we'd always chase, but never ever caught her,
We'd make dens in the woods from old boxes and trays,
Be princesses in a castle, oh what joyful days,
We'd sit in the field, making daisy chains,
Play rounders and hido, and loads of games,
Run to the mobile for a 10p mix of sweets,
Sit on the curly wall at the bottom of our street,
Pinch a bunch of flowers from St Gregs ground,
And say to mum "honestly they where found",
Get grounded for giving cheek or answering back,
Walked along the ralla, the old train track,
Wait for the icey, all of us in drones,
To ask him politely for any stale cones,
Played out in the rain, got soaked through and through,
Just some of the things we used to do,
In those endless summers of my past,
That have gone far to fast,
But they have made me who I am now,
A ****** of Mother and a miserable cow.
Haha joking,
I'm proud of my childhood, I was very lucky.

Trapped by despair and inner demons she longed for freedom,
Her umbilical cord forged from nightmares, tightened itself once more, Wrapping itself around her ornate soul,
Ignorance and want Snapped at her heels,
She lay alone on a bed of thorns, twisted and dense under her pale flawless skin, She lay...... she lay and she wished for the wind,
He promised to carry her away,
He promised her a new life,
A free life,
A sweet, serene and elegant life,
But again he never kept his promise,
Time passed, seasons disappeared along with the forty shades of green in the meadows of the island she called home, A new day arrived and she again struggled to untie her body from the wreckage of her past, People passed by, not seeing her there, or just choosing not to see her, She felt withered and fallen,
Her tears bringing the ground beneath her alive with life,
Beautiful life, all colours and aspects of life,
She longed for the moon and his gentle light,
For he was the only light that brought her comfort,
Suddenly from the glow along the crest of the treetops,
She felt the wind, she reached out her hand,
He got stronger and colder,
He lifted her, he lifted her above the bed she had lain for so long, He lifted her so strongly that her restraints became weak and shattered like a looking glass, He lifted her so high that she could see the reflection of herself in the lough of lost souls, And the strong arms of the winds released her,
She was free, she was free, she is free,

Close your eyes,
Slip into the comfort of your mind,
Where we dream, drift up stream, in a magical theme,
We are hero’s, in the afterglow’s, of the greatest shows,
It’s a release, a peace, a feel good increase,
We reflect, at our effect, to accept or reject,
Close your eyes,
Float away to the only place where everything is ok,
Where we become X factor winners, ****** sinners, lottery winners,
We have the perfect figure, extreme vigor, we can pull the trigger,
And no one dies, we can become butterflies,
We can be anything, anyone, anytime, there is no time,
In our sleep, let our souls slowly seep, into the deep.

Today I send love,
Today I feel love,
Take my love,
Give it, share it, be it,
Let us love together,
Today I send love.

Hold onto my wings,
I am your guardian,
I will carry you,
Through the storms of life,
Hold onto my wings,
Let me shelter you from hurt,
I can protect you,
I can envelop you with love,
And keep you warm,
Hold onto my wings,
Let the wind lead us,
Let him take us,
To where we want to be,
Where we can be safe,
We can whisper our stories,
Hold onto my wings.

Winter olympics

In the flood canoe rescue,
Great Britain take the lead,
In the pilfering of houses,
We get gold for the greed,

In the skeleton were top,
As the food runs out to quick,
For children and the aged,
The poor and the sick,

Sandbag filling quickness,
We have that one to,
The army lads champion that,
The royals helped with a few,

Evacuation sprint,
Won by counties, five,
Death toll medal to follow,
When we see who's left alive,

Loss of homes and business,
Unmentionable amount,
Mental scars and sadness,
Impossible to count,

Top gold medal for Cameron,
For deserting the British clan,
And top gold for foreign aid,
Given by this man,

No takers for foreign help gold,
But the world can see our plight,
And yet we are the first to aid,
When other countries are in the *****,

So well done rich safe government,
Your truly an all gold winner,
For the country that was fought for,
You watch as your land becomes thinner,

Time don't matter to me,
I've been all I ever could be,
I've finished the end of the book,
It's my life, take a look,

Because time is but a space in our universe,
That has to be filled in so right,
And time well spent is a blessing,
That's given with our birthright,

So try to use it wisely and true,
Coz after all it's the best you can do,
Live your life well, be good, be kind,
Then time won't be lost, it'll all be fine,

Because time is but a space in our universe,
That has to be filled in so right,
And time well spent is a blessing,
That's given with our birthright.

There's poison in my blood,
I know it is no good,
I feel it burn and churn and turn,
My vein's in pain,

There's poison in my heart,
I knew from the start,
I feel it beat, it's deceit and greet,
My soul, it's goal,

There's poison in my mind,
My being it will find,
I feel it grind and bind and unwind,
My kindness and will,

There's poison in my blood.

The words he spoke made me choke, I don't wanna croak, not under the cancer cloak,
My eyes they streamed,  water of dreams and sun beams but I know what it all means,
It's not a day out or a way out not even when I scream and shout,
My ears hear fears, stupid words and things obsurd,
I can't be a chancer, not with cancer, im not gonna be a dancer,
In heaven or hell, I don't wanna dwell.on the ledge of diseases,
I will fight day and night, I'll put it right, it's within my sight, it is my rite,
Rewind a day behind, I was in sane mind, but now I'm one of the special kind,
Can you hear me breath in every sin, they come knocking coz im a locking out death,
He can wait for a date with me or your mate,
I'm no longer dreaming this feeling, the burnin the churning my body is yearning and turning,
Give me pills, no frills, chase them angels of me window sills,
Lights getting dimmer, my breathing getting thinner, but I still want to eat the medicine dinner,
Family all gathered round my body looking tattered there all so worn and all so shattered,
I'm to ******* and to wired up to give them kind words, of hope, I, they can't cope, it's not a soap,
This is life and death in a breath as I choke under the cloak, that dreaded cancer cloak

I will name you and shame you, in public, at will,
I will point out your face in the crowd,
I will tell all the secrets that I've kept inside,
I will scream them all out so loud,

Your a heartbreaker, a dream taker, a low life coward,
You snatched away my youth,
People will know what a sicko you are,
After they hear the truth,

Your a dog, a rat a vile waste of space,
I hope your mind brings you pain,
Your an innocence eater, liar and deceiver,
In hell you'll rot, again and again,

But wait!!!! Hold on, just stop still there,
Take a good long look it's me,
I've survived, revived, stayed alive,
Because I'm stronger than you'll ever be,

So when you see me, don't get a thrill,
Don't think you have ruined me,
Coz I'm telling the secrets to the judge in the court,
And they're gonna throw away the key.

Hey, are you in?
Are you with the crowd?
The in crowd?
Are you with the in crowd?

I'm not!
I don't want to be either,
I want to be free,
An individual,

Not a sheep,
Nor a creep,
Just me,
Individu.... ality,

I'm out.

Birds tweet and sing as they hop from branches,
High in the evergreen above the concrete,
Children laugh and squabble on the cobblestones,
The factory bustle lightens and work time nears,
The sound of the siren in the distance,
Somehow brings a sense of comfort to me,
It's 8:45 and the sun is beating down,
Suddenly the noise stops and my heart beats faster,
The ssshhhhh sound of silence fills the air,
It hurts my ears and I hear my blood rushing,
The human traffic has halted, the children are quiet,
No one speaks a word, we just listen,
We listen as we walk to our place of safety,
Our home for the day, maybe longer,
We grabbed what bits we could and,
Settled in our new surroundings,
Then we hear it, that dreaded hum,
It's far away but it's coming here,
I breathe faster, my heart pumps faster,
Fear grips my soul my wholeness,
I panic, I sweat, I'm scared, I am dying,
The hum gets louder and deeper,
Some old lady starts to sing,
An old rebellious song,
It's tainted with fear on her breath,
I pulsate, my whole body pulsates,
The church bells toll,
The hum now becomes a buzz,
It's loud and scary and louder,
It's nearer, they are nearer,
The planes, the bombs, the destruction,
The old lady sings louder, people join her,
Others cry and rock back and forth,
Others comfort each other,
I sit alone, death my only friend now,
They are here,
They are here,
I hear the bombs screech as they fall,
It feels like forever,
Then bang, explosions around us,
Dust falls, walls shake, screams fill the world,
This is war.

Day in day out, I roll,
That’s how I roll,
I don’t ask for miracles or magic,
Just eyes with smiles,
The love bug,
A simple hug,
It’s how I roll,
A kind word,
Unheard but spoken,
Has me choking,
A message of hope,
A funny joke,
A Facebook poke,
It’s what I need,
To help me roll,
An easy Yo or hello,
Keeps it real,
Makes me feel,
What I’m doing is worthwhile,
If I make you smile,
Then that helps me roll,
That’s how I roll.

We all know what it is,
The wish we silently wish,
It's in the very first kiss,
Of Christmas,

It's what we all believe,
But so hard to achieve,
But we know what we wish,
With the very first kiss,

It's peace for all mankind,
Leaving no one to fall behind
Together lets all wish,
With our Christmas kiss.

Like a leaf I float on the wind,
Not knowing where I'll go,
I never stay long enough,
To watch the seeds I sow,

Like a leaf I flutter in the air,
Not knowing if I'll land,
If you can try to catch me,
Please hold me in your hand,

Like a leaf laying on the floor,
Without the wind I'll die,
So keep the wind blowing,
So I float into the sky,

Like a leaf being born on the tree,
I grow and grow each day,
I watch, I learn I follow you,
Wherever the wind may play.

Can I keep you forever?,
Can I?,
I will nurture you,
I will nourish you,
I will love you completely,
Can I keep you?,
I will teach you about life,
I will learn you wrong and right,
I will help you grow,
I will set you on the right path,
The good path,
Can I keep you my innocent child?,
Please stay,
Don't go away, not today,
Not ever,
Let me take the pain,
God give me pain,
Spare me my baby,
Let me suffer,
Let me be the one,
Let me keep him,
Let me keep him,
Let my love fix him,
I give to you myself.

Pencilled thoughts on paper,
Penned hopeful dreams,
Typed lists of wishes
Is all I do it seems,

Nothing ever changes,
Even with the words I write,
They're just my lifes ideas,
This keeps them in my sight,

We have to keep on holding,
The dreams inside our head,
They keep us having faith in life,
Until that is, we're dead,

Then all our dreams and wishes,
Come alive and take our mind,
To pure and everlasting light,
It's what one day we'll find.

I hope!