You used to go on and on
About how I was always so **** cheerful in the mornings and I
Told you over and over again that it was only because
I was waking up next to you and that's
Proven to be true.

I was able to run away from this pain for so long but then
I blew out my knee and stopped running and
It caught up to me.

The fact that you have to ask
If I'm happy
Shows you don't get where I am
And that we've never been on the same page.
I don't know why I'm still here.

When did love
Cease to be enough?

Before....I couldn't afford to like you because
Part of me seemed to know
That liking you would mean giving you my everything
And I didn't have enough of me
To sustain us both.

I was doing so well
Holding myself upright
And then I tripped and fell
For you.

I'm afraid of how easy this is
And how well we align.
If we don't have to fight for it,
Is it even real?

Five years long our story stretches
Each one a different tale
And seeing you fills me with ghosts.

She doesn't inspire poetry.
She demands song instead,
The way a breeze calls forth a melody
From a glass bottle's rounded lip.

Even when we cared about each other with all that we had
We were still too into ourselves to work out.

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I should've known we were in our prime
The brightest stars are in their ending stages.

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I never thought you'd walk away,
And that was the problem.

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I'm afraid to try to give myself to anyone now.
What if they take it.

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You will never leave me.
And I'm beginning to get to be ok with that.