I'll dress you on my mantle
and brag to friends during wine.
I'll tell them about the night
you were only mine.
I'll laugh, because it's been
a long time since...
But in my heart I yearn
for the intimacy I reminisce.

I am destroyed
and broken.
Unhappy token,
in a crowd
of smiling masks.
I'm the opening scene
of an antidepressant commercial.
I shed my skin at night
at the end of a bottle
or two.
I always wake up, though,
thinking of you.
I don't even remember you.
I know I've made you up
inside my messy head.
That's what I tell myself
so I don't cry when
I wake up in someone else's bed.
I'm slutty
and used
and tired.
I'm so tired.

I'm hooked
like a ******
to a hundred million
fantasies
and none of them
include you.
Everytime we get close,
an inch apart we gain.
I'm sick
and there is no cure,
no God
to save my hurt.
My grave is built,
the soil is soft and comfy
to lay rest my guilt.
It is what it will be
and that's whatever
defines me.

It's over before it begins,
that's my decision.
I got a heart
with fifty incisions.
Past lovers
look more like accidents.
I wake up next to an empty bottle
of grey goose or
whatever someone else chose
to lead the night.
I'm fuzzy and faded,
thirsty and jaded.

Pheromones
got you like
OoooOoooO.
Natural selection;
You mistake for fate.
You think it's love,
but it ain't.
Can you feel my scales
against your neck?
Can you get a grip
before you're dead?
I wish saving you
could save me.
If I could be better,
I would be.

I'm okay alone,
anywhere except at home.
That place is too loud.
My energy is toxic
with it's radioactive hold.
It'll mutate your views
and you'll die from my
silent fumes.
Should've got a tattoo
on my forehead
in all caps screaming
DANGER.

A passenger...
on your
emotional rollercoaster.
I'm strapped in...
without a choice.
I have so many thoughts
and no voice.
Bruises on my knees,
blood on my feet,
a cigarette in my mouth,
your loving is a tease.
You come from me
begging "please."
You fade in and out
of all my days;
Almost mistook you
for a phase.
It's always the ones
you don't expect.
Everything I want.
Everything I want.
I want to arrest you,
you are my criminal.
My kryptonite,
you stole me
in the night...
I surrendered;
No fight.
I need your eyes on me.
I can't behave,
I can't think straight.
You're all I crave.