I'm shattered.
In ultimate pieces.
Maybe, I love too hard.

I search for sanctuary
in a touch,
a bed set,
empty promises.

I know it's nothing real.
I've done this before.
I swear I'm erasing my memories
just to believe it again.

Like a morphine drip,
I keep pressing the button...
Deleting each memory...
The machine is broken
and I press so much
I forget I even pressed it.

Next thing I know
I'm an amnesiac morphine addict.

I can't stop.
I cant go backwards or forwards.
I can't unsay words.
I can't undo things.

I want a life worth living.
Someone worth loving.
Something to die for.
Let me be your martyr.

I can bend over backwards,
jump through hoops
and survive 5 hour replies.
I can't promise perfection,
but it will be real.

I can't promise I won't spend nights
wondering why you're with a girl like me.
Picking apart every detail
from skin to every word I mutter.
I succumb to you, though.

Because whether I'm deserving of love or not,
my selfishness will never shun it.
I can't live without something.
It's not in my nature; my DNA.
I am destined for needing more,


Always.

blows
my mind
how i've
stayed
alive,
because
i wasn't
aware
my world
wasn't there
until
i
    met
             you.

teach me how to shine,
you make it look so easy.
you give me butterflies,
it makes me so queasy.
my knees bend and shiver
when you smile in my direction.
i wonder why you love me
while i stare at my reflection.
you're everything to me,
i want to show you the world.
i wanna be your everything,
i just wanna be your girl.

hold me close
and let me hear the thumps
of your aching heart.
two sad people
so in love.
we will get through this
together, hand in hand.
our diseases won't
take us down,
we will wear the crown.
you like to be up,
i love to be down.
we are yin and yang,
swimming around
in a puddle
of mud.
life is ****** up
and our rights are a facade,
but it is worth it
as long as i have you.

sometimes, i just
wanna die.
i'm not even sad.
i just
wanna get high.

if i use again,
it's over
for me.
let me sign
a dnr
then leave me be.

If you love me -
I'll stop you there.
I only like you
when you're bare.

If you think
you're anything exclusive,
please get the **** out
before I go translucent.

It'll be easier if you
leave first.
Take my advice,
before it gets worse.

I'm poison,
I crave your blood flow.
I'll seep in deep
and make your heart blow.

I can show your flesh love,
but you're dreaming
if you think I'm capable
of anything above.