April 14th 2002 - 15 years old

You think it's *funny,
You think it's cool,
You think you make all the girls drool,

You're cocky,
You're a *****,
How many times do you wanna ask "**** my ****?"

You think you're hard,
You think you're smart,
You think you can rip through me like a dart...

April 14th 2012 - 25 years old

Now that we're older,
Now that we're wise...
I still hate,
I still despise,

Looking straight through those  bitter-sweet eyes...

You looked like heaven,
You were just like a toy,
You were everyone's little,big,bad boy,

You were nasty,
You were mean,
But you were never every girls teenage dream.

Now that you want me,
Now that you're nice,
You made me fall too hard,treat me like your sacrifice,

I don't even like you,
I don't even care,
Get out of my face before I start to swear,

You ain't funny,
Nor are you cool,
Nor did you make ANY girl drool.

I'm just a little tree,
A little tree that struggles to live
- to live normal and grow like all of the other trees,
...
You ever seen a tree...
...that grows in the shadow of another tree?
Yeah, we'll that's me.
It's all puny and misshapen because it's just bending and twisting...
...trying so desperately to get some sunlight.
If somebody just cut off a few feet of that big tree...
...that little tree could grow up strong.
But no, that's not the way life works, right?
They all love that big tree, right? They're all proud of that one.
They hate the crap out of the little one next to it.
The little tree that refuses to grow right.
And you know what? Till somebody comes along and cuts down that big tree...
...that little tree is never gonna get any light. Any light.
Story of my life...

It was like a force,
Something telling me to pull open that drawer,
Telling me that thing inside it,
Was something I needed.
A craving.

A sudden shoot of adrenalin darted through my body,
"I want this", I whispered.
A needle was pulled out of the drawer...
Then it stood,hovering over my weak arm,
"Come on,you can do this.", I reassured myself.

It plummeted into my forearm,
I could feel it travelling deeper and deeper,
Sure it hurt, but I deserved it.
The pain circled my arm causing me to feel drowsy,

I pulled it out...

The tonic of the vampires' liquid climbed its way out of my flesh,
The coppery smell of it drifted under my nose,
Causing me to roll my eyes back,
I laid there lifeless,
Thinking of all the senses it stimulated
It tasted like salt,
Like a bitter sweet candy land in my mouth.

**I was an addict to my own blood.

Like sand
he is slipping through my fingers,
Like water
he is slowly drifting away,
Like the shells
he is simply beautiful,
Like a boat
feel free to sail away...

I love you.
Body,
Mind,
Heart,
And soul.

I'm sat here with no where else to go,
Burying my head in my hands due to sorrow,
The rhythm of my heart beat begins to tremble,
The love and passion in myself you resemble,

When we're sat there with our hands clasped together,
I hear your soul whispering "ill stay with you forever"
But now I feel like you're slipping through my hands, I just know,
I have a feeling, telling me - telling me you've got to go,

I shake the feeling off and brush away the thought,
The feeling of you breaking away leaves me distraught,
The constant voice in my head telling me to break,
I say to myself no, no you've got to be strong, the risk -  you must take,

But now I understand the voices in my mind,
I am in love with this man,forever we are entwined,
I know that now, together we will stay as one,
But one more mistake and I know you will be gone.

To daddy, I was a baby,first held in my mothers arms... Well they saved the best till last.
My father, you, my protector.
You're my back bone, my heart, my soul, my favourite person in the world.
My only source of strength, my core.
You're the reason I come home from school and smile, the reason I wake up wanting to start the day.
Knowing someone like you is in my life makes my day so much happier so much more bright and vibrant.
You make my winters feel like summers, Friday 13th feel like Christmas.
There is no need for Christmas when you're around, you alone brings joy,happiness and a gift... Yourself.

Whenever I have a problem or if I'm upset, you're the first person to be concerned, the first person willing the do anything for my happiness.
I think you're absolutely incredible and there's no one else in the world I'd rather have to be my dad, you're perfectly fit for the role.
With your slight temper and stressful ways, you manage to get your way through life without any worries and things that get you down.
On your bad days I just want you to sit and remember that no matter what happens,I will love you and I will care for you till the day I die.

Even with your childish jokes and playful ways I can still see through that immature wall and I see all the way to your caring and mature side, the side that is always there, the side you need to be a father. Thoughtful but caring, protective but gentle.
I just wanted you to know how much you mean to me and I don't know what I'd without you,
I'd be destroyed without you, you're my everything dad.
I love you