Chloe London

Chloe London Dec 2012

Fingers interlocked,
My eyes staring into his,like he was my prey and i was ready to pounce,
My fingers getting lost through his blonde,curly locks,
I pressed my lips onto his chest,
The smell of his skin was sweet,it was so soft,it was glowing.
He was mine.

He placed his hand on my cheek as i lay virtually lifeless,
He begins to lean closer,
His tender,delicate lips press onto mine,
Fireworks started to sparkle and instantly shoot their way up my body,
Causing me to move away from his lips and gradually build up a sweet smile,
I was in love.
He smiled back,causing my heart to pound out of my weak chest...

A gunshot.

My eyes shot out as i darted them straight to my unconscious lover,
He lay there,
Arms positioned lightly over my waist,
Head resting on my shoulder,
There was no heartbeat,
I shook him,
"Baby,stay with me"

It was too late.

His last words?
"I'm yours."

Let me know what you think:)

Chloe London Dec 2012

The Incredible Things You Do - You Amaze Me. - Mam

It all started when I was a baby,when I was nothing but a skeleton waiting to be filled with knowledge,love and care. And that's when I met you, you were the first person I set my tiny blue eyes onto. The most amazing person I will ever meet, and the first. Now that I'm almost filled with that knowledge,love and care I've came to realise that you're not only a mother but a friend, a best friend, someone I can always turn to when I am worried or lost in a problem. Or even if I just want a hug or someone to tell my they love me. You're there, you're my number 1. I love the fact that no matter how hard your day has been you always have time to listen, you always have time to be a mother - and a pretty good one at best.
I love the way you're always jolly and even on the occasion that you're not, you still have that happy expression and put all of your worries behind you to show that you're okay and it's amazing that you can wear a mask and throw all of your worries and fears behind it, to put on a brave face for me. Without you I would be miserable, without a mother I would be lost, without someone like you I don't know where I'd be now. I know we've had our bumps in the road but what's a mother-daughter relationship if we don't, right?:)
...without those bumps we wouldn't be where we are now, especially you, without that baby bump I wouldn't be here.
I just wanted you to know that no matter what happens I will always love you and there is nobody else I'd rather have to be my mother, even if I could choose, something would drive me to you. You're an amazing woman and I just wanted to let you know how incredible you are. You amaze me,seriously, you're the greatest role model in the world:) you're so beautiful and smart and wise and I couldn't ask for a better person to be in my life. Once again, I love you and I hope you forgive me for all the bad things I've did to damage the trust,bond and love between us, because there is nothing worse than a broken trust and a broken mother-daughter relationship. I don't know what I'd do without you. By the way, you're stunning and I never want you to change, stay smiley mam:3 you're the best!

Love,
Chloe x

Not much of a poem, more of a write up for a loved one

Chloe London Dec 2012

Something Inside So Strong

There's a thing inside of me,
Something I can't describe,
It's like a monster.

It makes me feel as though I'm going to throw up,
My stomach knots and my heart begins to travel up,
Until it meets my mouth,
I feel Ill with jealousy and disquieted feelings.

I hate this girl so much,
But my question is why?
She causes me no harm,no hurt feelings...

Why does she make me so angry?

Her face, it brings a hidden treasure trove of sadness,
The key to the lock remains impossible to open,
The only way to enter would to destroy this wall of hatred.

But how?

Chloe London Dec 2012

Happiness

I like his hands. I like putting mine against his as we gasp at how much bigger his fingers are than mine. I like it when we play wrestle,and his fingers wrap around mine.

I like his hair. I like to run my fingers through it and play with it. I like it when he leans against me and the smell of his hair sinks into my clothes and I feel like he's a part of me.

I like his eyes. They're deep blue, with flecks of gold that show up in the sunlight.
I like the way they crease when he laughs and light up like a thousand stars when he smiles,and the cute smile lines that soften up his firm looking jawline.

I like his smile too,and his laugh. He sometimes let's out a small chuckle,other times laughs out so hard that hardly no sound comes out. And all the while he's smiling that gorgeous smile,and when it's directed to me, I can't help but go weak at the knees.

:)

Chloe London Dec 2012

The Betrayal - A Backstabber

This little thing hanging on a wall,
Much more than just a thing,
It holds more memory's than a brain ever could,
Every time I look at it, floods of tears it would bring.

This little thing hanging on a wall,
Square
Brown
Used to be rectangular, standing tall.

This little thing on a wall,
That thing standing tall,
Was once a mirror staring at my back,
Every time she looked at it, it would crack.

This little thing on a wall,
I smashed and chopped
And cut it down,
The only emotion it brings to my face now is a frown.

Now this little thing on a wall,
Is now a broken picture frame,
Not a mirror,
Not a memory,
Not any little thing at all - It's a real big shame...

Chloe London Dec 2012

Baby I'm Sorry

It's the next day and I'm feeling sick with guilt,
It happened and there's nothing I can do about it,
I hurt the most amazing man in my life,the love of my life,
He can't eat ,
He can't sleep,
He tells me he's hurt but he loves me,

I want him to hurt me back.

I sit there and try to make myself upset,
Try to harm myself mentally,
What I done was wrong,
I need a punishment...
A big one.

I want him to cheat on me.

"Do it", I tell him,
"I want you to make me feel the pain you did,
Just once.
I want to feel hurt just like you did,
Make me suffer,
Do it and I can move on."

I want him to make me feel worthless.

"I'm a lying cheat,
And there's nothing I can do about it,
And it kills me,
People say...
'Once a cheat,always a cheat.'
But I know that's not the case."

Baby, I'm sorry.

"I'm sorry,it's all that I can say,you mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done if I could
Start again,I'd throw it all away to the shadows of regrets and you would have the best of me."

Chloe London Dec 2012

A Love Story

My feelings for you started when i first saw you. From day one I wanted you to be mine. Whenever I'm with you, my heart wont stop beating so fast. You are my FIRST love.

Because of the way you make me feel. Because no one has ever been so special to me before. Because you'll truely never understand the way I feel about you. Because just seeing you, makes me the happiest girl alive. Because you got that girl you've been trying to get. Because there are so many signs that show us that were made for eachother. Because i can't get over the fact that you're mine. Because I gave up alot to be with you and it was worth it. Because of your smile, personality, laugh, your eyes, your nose — you're literally the definition of the perfect person. You make me laugh all the time when i just want to cry. You make me feel like i'm on top of the world

I love how you're here for me, but most importantly I love the fact that you made me fall deeply in love with you at such a young age, were not meant to know what love is or experince it yet but i have with you. You make me feel like noone even can. I love you baby

Thank you for giving me the most precious opportunity.

A write up of emotions :)