The sweet silence of the suddenly subtle atmosphere steadies my heartbeat,
The tender muscle of his heart beats into the cup of my left hand as I lay next to him,
His Eyes, glassy and calm,
His Hair, tousled and soft,

The heavenly smell of his sultry scent begins to drift under my nose,
Causing my eyes to spring open,
and look deep into his beautiful ocean blue eyes,
Then, parting my lips slightly, I  lean in towards him,
yielding to the soft strength of his kiss, that is engulfing me,
gaining in strength until i find myself wrapped up in him,
body,
heart,
and soul.

Leaving his luscious lips,
We both lay slouched down against the headboard of my brown leather bed,
My head on his shoulder,
wrapped in to his arms,
Both of our hands clasped together,
"This man means the world to me", I repeat in my head over and over,

He takes one small gaze at me,
Before he can say one thing,
I begin to speak the words...
"I love you... forever and ever baby."

The relief of her retrieving pain and anger...
The reason to my existence is much clearer now,
Throwing sadness into her life gives me happiness and pleasure,
Everyone believes her story,
My side is cremating into dust,
My acceptance of it all is at it's peak.



Now the constant feeling of throbbing sensations launch themselves into my heart
... like a million punches.
Every punch digs a little further,
Deeper,deeper,
The full, flowing feeling of guilt floods in and drowns me,
Blood.
Why did i do it?
I am not the same, I am not the same.