Chloe B

Chloe B Nov 2013

Eyes

I look in the mirror everyday and stare at myself.
I don't like what I see.
Sad eyes and a fake smile.
This is not how I want my life to be.
Scars and bruises on my body remind me of the past.
Everyday I wait for the future, but I'm afraid I'm getting nowhere fast.

Chloe B Nov 2013

Hurt Heart

my heart froze,
when i realized that I liked you.

I knew you were bad for me,
but I wanted your attention.

You told me that you liked me,
but it was a game.

I got played
and humiliated.

now I'm ripped open,
wow you really hurt me.

Chloe B Nov 2013

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Family? Not really.
Criticism is all they give me.
They rip at my flesh and tear at it until all you can see my bones.
I am open to new wounds.
I'm vulnerable to everyone including myself.
I rarely get complements.
And affection.. well I don't remember the last time we hugged.
It hurts to know that my relationship with my family is slowly fading away.
I know my life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best either.

Chloe B Nov 2013

Sad

She
Appreciates
D**eath

Chloe B Nov 2013

Overdose

Yesterday,
Well I can't remember yesterday.
I was told I overdosed on sleeping medicine.
I was sick,
in the head.
I hate that I never feel "normal".
I just don't know how,
I need help.
I know she won't care so I will just bottle it up inside,
like I always do...

Chloe B Nov 2013

Alcohol

I'm empty.
I need something to fill me up.
Alcohol sounds good, but I don't want to be what my father once was.
A drunk.
Used to be.
One who drinks like there's no tomorrow.
Addicted?
Yes.
Still addicted?
No.

Chloe B Nov 2013

Once in my Life

I've tried to change so many times...
Please just let me be happy for once in my life...