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Sep 2015 · 575
I Won't
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
Everything is drama sometimes
I can't worry about it
I am done listening
I am done pretending to love someone I don't

My life no longer revolves around jerks
I don't need your friendship anymore
I seriously don't care
I won't let you bring me down any lower

Buried in these eyes are tears
Nobody sees
Nobody needs to know

I didn't actually need your kisses or hugs
I managed
My life was too dependent on sharing and bonding
I'd rather walk away and find new friends than try to fix you
Sep 2015 · 412
Won't Stop
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
I won't stop reading
It's an addiction
I won't stop and I don't plan to
Furtherer and further I see
I passion the passion in my eyes
Cherry coke pouring from my sight
At last, a song to kiss my broken
I can't stop 'til I am happy and free
The sky above me reaching too
I shouldn't want to fly higher  
I am not going to be that little girl everyone thought was weak
Sep 2015 · 456
Hope.
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
They say it like they know it,
And you've always kept quiet,
But you've got poetry,
Right down to the louve,
It's now just a hall,
In your mind's eye,
To see,
And not like what is there,
The picture in your word blackens,
But it won't let you speak it,
You gave up on being perfect,      
A long time ago,
Flowers in a tomb,
Keep watch by Egypt,
Yet you still feel their shadow,
Though their spirits are gone,
If they were real,
They'd leave memories too,
But love only lasts so long,
By a dream like you,
Although your spirits are still here,
And mysteries remain unknown,    
You're only seeing your words,
While the earth sees your hope.
Sep 2015 · 626
Period
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
Blood gathering on my pad
Like the times with you I'll never get back
Feeling my ****** cramp some
But I guess it's not over yet
Sep 2015 · 361
Mirrors
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
In the mirrors
We're seen as women
But mirrors don't tell lies
Sep 2015 · 321
Lie
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
Lie
Your tears down my cheek
Your heart in my chest
Your eyes for a dream like mine
You're not lying for me
I want to exchange bodies with you
'Cause you know you want to be me
Sep 2015 · 308
Living
Chelsea Spears Sep 2015
Small hands that hold
The gold crayon tightly
Creating silver lined hearts   
She'd never been able
To put it into words
Aug 2015 · 272
Real Dream
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
The knowledge of my sense of what's real
Grew too truthful, too quickly
Now it's changing and
I'm no longer the dream I once was
Aug 2015 · 285
Procrastinator
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Terminator is such a great
movie. He killed
So many humans!
And even promised them that he'd
return
Aug 2015 · 972
Papa Paparazzi
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Does this picture make me look like an idiot?  
Does this foundation cover enough of my face?
Do these sunglasses hide the flaws behind my eyes?
Do these jeans reveal too much of my slutty body?
Aug 2015 · 237
Original
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Now I know why these words were written to me  
To read...without these feelings, I'm just a chalked out line
Wanting to write a new poem ever five seconds and 
Repeating myself in the same theme over and over again.
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Feeling blood from between my legs monthly
Removing band-aids every few hours    
I notice "Hey, this never ends"  
Even my friend's dogs seem to notice
Not that I could ever stop this form of self-harm
Do you think it's better not to have a friend?
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Each splash of Pink
leaves my nails so shiny, pretty and polished
Paint lands on my cuticles and compliments my feel
The strong scent of open nail polish  bottles in my room make me feel a little lightheaded
My nails appear so reflective and smooth from this
angle  
I use different colors for different reasons
pink for perfect
I'm in love with Pink, its just such an amazing color
Like that color that says, "Let's go shopping."        
Painted pink cuticles are so hot
I almost forgot that I'm a
tomboy~
Aug 2015 · 231
Right
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
I think I'm right
For, I have told the truth
From many years ago
I keep these old maps
Because I want to 
Remember the things
I forget so
Easily
Maybe I'm right
Aug 2015 · 279
I Don't Really Lie
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
No matter how  
Much I rhyme
I will never be a poet
Concrete Angel
or Bring Me To Life
But I still write  
For maybe the truth is change
Aug 2015 · 235
Half-lies For Sebee~
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Let's listen
To Disturbed
Together
While exchanging
Another Way To Lie between
Each other
Aug 2015 · 175
Love This Poem
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Know I nothing of this poem
But oh, still I love writing the name
Aug 2015 · 462
Smooth Criminals~
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Cut into my thighs
(Just losing weight)
Clean up the tub
(Just a little blood)
Throw away the evidence
(Suicide is a crime they can't punish)
Aug 2015 · 203
Not Sure~
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
There's been many things I've written
That I'm not exactly sure of
Texts that I've sent
That I was in doubt of
Things I've said 
Just because
Ways I've felt about what you said, repeating itself over and over,    
That just right
~
Aug 2015 · 280
Soft eyes
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Soft eyes and hands from my feet to my toes
And these sparks and hidden emotions
Leave my heart feeling super sensitive
Your fingers around my tear ducts
Your scratching the inside of my eyes
I think I might scream
Tissues and tears hidden in the corner of my heart
Between ******* these buttons and unzipping my jeans
Is the need to feel what comes between
Aug 2015 · 631
Polka● Dot Dresses●
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
You cannot convince me
That these polka dot dresses
Are cute
Because they only come in one color
Dots        
And more dots
So explain
How can you tell this truth to someone  
Who hates wearing these dresses?
You don't...
Aug 2015 · 295
Beavis Talk
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
(I don't know, just explaining why I don't talk much)
                                  
There's a thing such as beavis talk
You only know he's there when he's there
And, there's much more to him than that...
You can't respond  
Then your words  
Lose their power
You don't want          
Anyone to troll you
You don't even
Ignore them yourself
Aug 2015 · 1.3k
butthead~
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Met him at Target staring at baby Ciels
He made her heart beat faster than a racecar engine
And he's so dreamy
He looked at her and nodded  
At the check out
Before she made it to her mom's car, he was in her mind
Everytime she stops to think  
In further detail, she sees
Him and how they can't be together because he's always dating someone else
Aug 2015 · 269
........I Really Miss U
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
I met you in a white school building
You made my heart pound
We both had secret sides
The teachers didn't see, we smart  
I hugged you, you hugged me
We were bubbles and buttercup
But we never, never told anyone
Now, you're gone
I still have the stuff you gave me
I wish you were still alive
But you can't, you're mom told me  
I nearly died, you see
But when you stopped talking to me
I knew...you knew
Your mom, she said it was because of me
But how? You loved me?
I could have stomped your mom...it's my fault for letting her bully you
But I still remember everything we did
I wanted you, you secretly wanted me
Now we're both together in my memories and living our dream
Aug 2015 · 245
Bathroom
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Bathrooms are the most peaceful places ever
Laying in the tub
Looking at stuff online
Looking for sites that no one's seen before
Behind it all, down really deep
The bathroom is my only place to read
I never need to rush
Aug 2015 · 354
This
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Nibbling on my lip gloss plastic tube thingy
Liquids dripping from my mouth
Soft red lips  
Slightly open and drooling, drooling
Tasting the cherry
Flavored substance smack
Waiting to be over this
Feeling
Aug 2015 · 390
ching chow...
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
My eyes can never be fully opened
So let's all go draw anime
In a manga of our own
Aug 2015 · 358
Theory of :p
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Nothing
Quark
Atom
Sun
Black Hole
Universe
EXPANSION!
Aug 2015 · 259
Chest Holds Truth
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Raised by many nations,
but raised for different reasons
A lot of nations
Die for different reasons
But only because
There is a reason
If there were no reasons
There would be no lies
If there was no lies
There would be
No truth  

Raised by the people
Throughout their beliefs
Holding their medals
Bronze stars and more
Against their chest
With no regard for anything else
Shooting down all whom seem weak
They rule with their art of
With hidden meanings so plain to see
Fighting for money
Fighting for honor
It's not for peace
It's all for
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
With five reasons why, there should be no more questions
For ex feedback and bs excuses
Just enough reasons why, one for each cheating boyfriend
Of his friends who back him, but only when he doesn't cheat on you,
Is when he blindfolds his lover...
Lovers, whatever.
Five reasons why for one ex?
Ignoring more than one ex is a crime i guess.
Making up lies to more than one ex
may be sweet but taboo
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Warm wet hands lather my smooth face,
Peeling away each layer of grime,
The texture of the water mixes with my eyes,
Making me feel a strangely smooth sensation stronger than ever
Pimples slowly melt away inside the hot steam,
Appearing then disappearing again
What a waste of steam,
What a waste of complexion
So wonderfully smooth and tempting like...
Aug 2015 · 391
Daily Double
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Turn on the ac
Freeze my worries away
Turn off the basement lights
Hide from the monsters in my closet
Close the dark windows and shades
Forget about those blood hounds tracking my history
Close the curtain on their act of disbeliefs
Work without truthful sounding distractions
Unplug the life support on all my exes  
Save the love for someone who wants it
Aug 2015 · 626
love and ghost
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Dark wedding vows
says my dying love.
If you were to live again,
beside you I would stand.
As you'd take your first  
step, your first death has gone.
I'll shadow your heart with mine
eclipsing the moon in my light.
Aug 2015 · 588
The Speed Of Light
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Wearing short shorts
Out in the freezing rain
Hoping I'll lose
A pound
Or two
From these colors that I shined
So gray, so gray
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Visiting this gravestone right here
But just murmuring a few words the ghosts around here might hear echoing through their spirit realm
Sitting curled up by a lonely flower
Blaring heavy metal songs
Since I cannot have my family back 
At least these ghost's let me stay awhile hovering over All That Remains
Aug 2015 · 271
~ ????
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
He bites his ears clean off  
And swallows them bite by bite
Since he isn't full yet
He starts to bite each one of our ears
Then before we can breathe
Without even speaking
Just as he's finishing devouring our flesh  
Moves his tongue behind hid lips in a a circular motion  
Then once more
"With a frosty cool around my glass
Your blood would freeze well to my tongue, amazing!"
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Crying over stupid things
Filling your mouth with chocolate everythings
Upset over the simplest things, you want to just scream  
These feelings come and go, or stay a few days
Everything has to be cleaned or organized just right or I'll go ****** girl
Wearing simple things and hiding in your room for days, sad or depressed
Being filled with water like a balloon, feeling sleepy and like you can't do anything
Opening your eyes to see it's today, it's no valentines day
Same feelings, same amys, different month
Pen or paper? Awkward or uncomfortable?
Aug 2015 · 294
~~Sable & Silk~
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Peeling mascara off with the tips of my fingernails
Trying to fit into a pair of jeans that's more breatheable
Making my lashes softer and more bendable
Wearing a darker brown instead of  casual black
While pulling them out
Soon I won't need to curl them or do anything
To them
Aug 2015 · 333
Just For Food
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
I would cross the living room and my tummy would grumble
I would imagine I did all the things I never did                                
I would shatter every chip in my mouth
I would brush my teeth afterwords, tooth by tooth
I would climb on top of a chair and feel like queen of the world
I would do anything to be right next to the refrigerator staring at food  
Just for food ...
Aug 2015 · 242
Ghostfires
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
When you smile
You cause
Ghostfires    
To travel          
Further up        
My neck
Aug 2015 · 350
She Is Phenom
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Her heartstrings are breaking chords
Her tears are like pepper flakes
Her hands are just the right size, holding up the neck of her favorite art
Aug 2015 · 297
defeating
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Defeating
Elite
Four
Champions
In

Three

Minutes
Aug 2015 · 380
My puppy
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
The way she wags her little tail
and her fur is always needing attention
The way she stares at me
and her eyes so full of life  
The way she loves kisses
The way she barks to get my attention
Her eyes are dark, dark choco
I'd hurt really bad if she ever left without me
Aug 2015 · 217
I <3 U xx
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
I <3 u
I <3 u so
I <3 u so so much
Aug 2015 · 419
<3. (poem for Felicia F
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
You are out of this world hot;
Inside and out
You do not get in stupid fights, you do not hit people and smile

You are out of this world hot;
Inner beauty and heart
Perfect and a star  

You are out of this world hot;
Pretty and full of fun stories
Stares with butterflies, silent, always speechless

You are out of this world hot;
Mystic and true
Kisses sweeter than strawberries dipped in chocolate

You are out of this world hot...
Aug 2015 · 202
Meh
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Meh
Waking up at 1:30 in the afternoon
I'm really not awake yet...
Aug 2015 · 370
A liar
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Being a liar has its ups and downs
But some things you just don't know
There's been guys I've dumped, and guys I've lied too
Telling the truth and hoping they'll understand gets you no where, you must move on without them and just stop loving them completely
  
Suicide, attempting it, cutting deeper until that friend who said they loved you is finally gone
Not even arguing or speaking to you anymore
Still doing what I want to be me,  making me out to be bad is so childish that I don't even say a peep no more
Freaking out over me being bad or whatever, nothing less or more will ever change me so give up and die

I've been through some crazy relationships so far with people who swore they would protect me                          
I've been thrown on the street by my mother over money
I didn't even have the chance to buy a car or find an apartment
Not looking forward to you or anyone like you talking smack behind my back either

I still have to listen to you text me asking if I'm alright or if I forgive you
These promises are called Lies...150 mg's truthful sounding bs
I have to have my own dreams apart from yours even if you think I'm not doing what's right, I've ignored every text and deleted you from my heart
At this age I'm alone with barely enough money to make it out alive, no one like you will ever understand me so please get out of my life before I really do **** myself because now that I'm alone...I can't be stopped
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Tilt the pinball machine
Letting the ***** 
Drop into the holes
Lick the button
Off the sides
Like the salt of a 'tato  
Use the mini mirror to check your make up
Like a funhouse
Rainbow stops the dark
Take a extra bite
Of the silver sun
Get my Vitaminsss  
Scratch into the glass
Use your polished nails as mini knives
For the Wizard's mind games.
Aug 2015 · 328
chew chewwwwww
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
Grilled and cheese.
Tomato soup.
Applewood Bacon.
All melted together.
chew
chew
Aug 2015 · 490
Indigo eyes ...
Chelsea Spears Aug 2015
As I trace the deep skies running up my real dreams, 
my sixth sense tells me that it can feel it with goosebumps,
signifying a supernatural change and changing the colors in my eyes to a dark dark indigo.      
          
I do not know if eyes are suppose to change colors like this  
              
It always happens 

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