pauline

pauline Oct 2019

I must admit
It's tiring
Everyday is more exhausting
I'm not sure if it's just in my head
Or this is our new reality
I try to look on the brighter side
But when I see you, I feel lost
I am no longer certain
How much more I am willing to endure
Until when I can take this

I am tired
And today is more tiring than yesterday.

letters and poems you won't be able to read

#letters

pauline Sep 2019

Dito Lang Ako

Nakakapagod,
Talikuran at harapin ang katotohanan ng sabay

Ang mga ngiti mo'y nagbibigay pag-asa
Ngunit sa pagtitig mo ay hindi ako ang nakikita
Tumatagos sa puso ko na parang patalim
Dahil alam kong hindi yon para sa akin

Inabot mo ang aking kamay
Pinaramdam na nandyan ka
Pinahawak ang puso mo pansamantala
At ngayon ay tila binabawi na

Pagod na ko
Pero bakit ba ang hirap bitawan?
Dito na lang ako
Sa gitna ng kasinungalingan at katotohanan
Baka sakaling kayanin ko ng di namamalayan...

#tagalog

pauline Sep 2019

hold my hand

Kindly hold my hand
Not that I'm feeling cold
I need to feel your touch
Intertwine your fingers with mine
Same with our lives
Can you sense the goodness in us
By just holding my hand?

Hold my hand
With firmness and caution
It may look tough but it breaks easily same with my heart
And I will hold yours too
With much love that only I will know
And yours to understand.

The warmth of our skin will keep the fire burning
So hold my hand dear and don't let go.

pauline Jul 2019

Dulo

Simula pa lang alam kong ako ay talo
Tumuloy pa din dahil sa tigas ng ulo
Sinunod ang puso at nagpadala sa agos
Hinayaang malunod sa tamis ng sandali

Isang araw nagising ako sa aking mga luha
Naalalang kahapon pala natapos ang lahat
Mga paa natin ay humakbang sa magka-ibang direksyon
Lumingon at tinanaw ang anino **** lumalakad palayo

Ang dulo ng iyong daan ay sa kanya patungo
Sa simula pa lang ay sya na ang iyong dulo
Ang tayo ay sandaling hintuan lamang
Kung saan nagpalitan ng masasayang tawanan

Ang katotohanang hindi natin tinakasan,
Walang dapat palayain dahil kahit kailan hindi ka naging akin
At ngayon ito na ang ating realidad
Hanggang dito na lang at hindi na pwedeng dugtungan.

#tagalog

pauline Jul 2019

She has to...

She's hurting but no one knows
She masks it all with her beautiful smile
Her eyes glittered and a tear fell
Some said it was tears of joy
But it was her heart crying
Slowly it was breaking
And her soul was being torn apart
She wondered if loving too much is enough to continue
Or it is now time to let go...
It was too much yet she goes on
She has to...

pauline May 2019

Kuwit at Tuldok

Hawakan mo ang kamay ko
Sasama ako kahit saan patungo
Sa piling mo labis ang kaligayahan
Susugal paulit ulit at handang lagyan ng kuwit ang ating kwento
Huwag lang tutuldukan
Huwag muna
Dudugtungan pa natin ng madaming masasayang alaala
Magkwentuhan tayo at magtawanan sa sarili nating mundo
Balutin mo ako ng iyong mga bisig kung saan mas ramdam ko na ligtas ako
Magtitigan tayo may malisya man o wala
At sa mga sandaling tayo ay tahimik
Ibulong natin ang mga salitang "mahal kita"
Hayaan ang mga puso natin ang mag-usap.

pauline Mar 2019

Sorry Not Sorry

I am sorry
I am sorry for being selfish
I am sorry for wanting you all to myself
I am sorry for thinking that this can really workout
I am sorry for hoping that one day we can really be together
I am sorry for completely showing my true self to you
I am sorry for holding onto something that is never mine to begin with

But I will never be sorry for letting myself into this beautiful mess
I will never be sorry for loving you.