to the person that stays by my side
who knows me inside and out
witnessed me at my lowest
and offered me a helping hand
in order to stand back up
you inspire me
thank you
for finding me

times are changing
the sun will be replaced
by the moon
and the yellow light will
fade to darkness
but the cycles will continue
as will the changes
we will always be able
to count on the setting and rising sun
and the comfort of the moon
no matter where we are

i am done waiting
for the next thing to happen
i want the now
this moment
i want to know
what it is
everyone
is waiting for

you say that our communication doesn't feel intimate
the only other option
is one that involves no communication
which would feel worse than ending it all together
and that's where we stood
on opposite ends of a cliff
waiting for the other to say the words
that will set us free

it doesn't matter which one of us said the words
we both knew what was happening
and although i am free
i still feel shackled to your love
it is the only love i have ever known
and for the better part of a year i never thought of being with anyone else
so what do i do now

there is so much time
and so many miles
that separate us
there are also
so many memories
yet to be made
and kisses that
have yet to be shared

my childhood memories
are like magnetic poetry
a simple word
can stand on its own
and spark a multitude of scenarios
a string of words
can un-pause a clip
from a home video
but you are
a jumble of words
that make no sense
the pieces can be rearranged
hundreds of times
and i will still be left
to piece it together
one by one
day by day
until i can forgive you
for turning my childhood memories
into broken pieces
and thank myself
for turning them
into poetry

i’m not going to apologize
for the things i’ve said
however
i will apologize
for the way those words
cut like a knife and
became misconstrued
i refuse to apologize
for my anxiety