if kissing you is lemonade
may there be the perfect amount of sweetness
may our love always be sweet
never sour

you
are the song
that i want to
play on repeat
to distract myself
from the world
that i currently reside in
i want to transform
into your song
and let the melody
take me away

it is safe here
inside your song
the chorus repeats
and i find comfort
in the repetition

i dream of a home
all for myself
it has the standing kitchen aid mixer
in turquoise that i’ve dreamed of
since i was a little girl
in the back
there is a garden
where i can
turn my thumb green
and grow the ingredients
to nourish my body
to nourish this earth
to nourish my soul
i use a record player
to play vinyl
and cleanse myself
because
every day is full of new surprises
and my green thumb
helps me
create my own destiny

i can feel
it
sinking in
the dark cloud overhead
that rains down on me
with negativity
it comes with
thunder & lightening
it feels like a weight
that is holding me down

is it selfish to leave
in a time of crisis
to save myself from the anxiety
to prevent the depression
if that means leaving you behind
and going somewhere else
is that selfish

i know you are trying as hard as you can
but stop to take a
breath
every once in a
while
promise me
you will take care of yourself
or at least try
to give as much
to yourself
as you do
to others

my new thing is not wearing a bra
it feels freeing
now every time i put on a bra
it feels restricting
the same feeling of coming home to this small town
this town that fits inside a snow globe
but i refuse to be held captive in my own environment
so i will continue to not wear a bra
and deviate from what is expected
in the restricting snow globe