my new thing is not wearing a bra
it feels freeing
now every time i put on a bra
it feels restricting
the same feeling of coming home to this small town
this town that fits inside a snow globe
but i refuse to be held captive in my own environment
so i will continue to not wear a bra
and deviate from what is expected
in the restricting snow globe

i'm glad that isn't me
same town forever
beginning a family so young
starting a life that changes everything
before that
we had hopes & dreams & goals
we had similar taste in music and shared a sense of humorit’s only funny now because
you were always my best friend
now you will start this new life
share your hopes & dreams & goals with someone else
make sarcastic jokes when you are stressed
and reminisce about high school
when those songs come on the radio
but yes
i'm glad that isn't me

i know you think i moved away because of you
this is true
i moved away
because you taught me to be independant
it hurts me that you think
i moved away for a negative reason
you are not a negative reason
you have taught me
everything
i know

i have learned how to tell how much time has passed
by the
temperature of the bath water
the number of pages i've read
the melted wax in the candle

the strings of my heart are not elastic
each time we say goodbye
the strings of my heart tear a bit more
time after time
bit by bit
the resistance weakens
until we are together again
and I feel complete

sometimes
even the social butterfly
gets social anxiety

leaving home is scary
especially
when you just found it