Dream out Loud

Dream out Loud Oct 2015

U TEXTED ME : "Hey.."
out of all things to text me
What about a pathetic apology..
It wouldn't even have to be heartfelt
Just as long as i heard it
Just maybe i could've pretended to feel it..just like u did
I would've taken that over "Hey.."
But i didn't get a chance..
Again

Dream out Loud Oct 2015

I wish

I wish sometimes that it would all go as planned
That I'd never fall for you again
That i would be shown as much effort as i give

I wish that you would stop being so barren
I wish that u would tell me, when, where, how to fix it

Because this ..
Whatever this is ..
Its driving me insane ..

To the point where worrying about u instead of me is normal
To the point where talking to u is like dragging a nail against a chalkboard

It becomes painful and obsolete
So ..
I'm ignoring u at the moment

Because even though i care..actually a hell of a lot more than you do..

I can't become obsolete too..

Dream out Loud Oct 2015

Ready

For so long
Making excuses
Never knew that i could be independent
But i am
Or at least i' d like to think i am
But ready or not
I'm ready

Dream out Loud Sep 2015

Optional

If loving you was optional, I would've given it all up a long time ago.

Dream out Loud Sep 2015

Truth (Part 1)

You asked me not to lie.
You said you wanted "truth"
But it wasn't my truth
You wanted a crippled version of "truth"
The kind of words that you imagined
The ones that you were "ready" for
So when I went to tell you my truth
I automatically became the liar.

I'm still waiting for some one to accept the truth!
My truth
The words that flow from my spirit, through my soul and out of my lips
And they'll love me the same or even more

Because telling the truth doesn't come in one way
It's some one's own version of a situation or moment
It's about there feelings inside of their morals

So share your truth and i shall share mine
And they dance together in the value of harmony

Dream out Loud Sep 2015

Bleeding

Body sore
Breathe hitched
Falling deeper and deeper
Into the darkness
Of whatever there is to fall into
Because it happened
I'm bleeding
From what?

This honestly makes no sense? Does it ?

Dream out Loud Sep 2015

U bet i felt it

Before the cool runs out and time stands still
I still feel things
So many things
The roar of thunder vibrates my body
Rain still makes me happy for some strange reason
I feel it in my feet
And yes, I still have have bottomless anger
My thoughts will forever spew out randomly
Bending over backwards just so that my breath can just fog the glass
Aiming to cause some kind of hectic light heartedness
Never have i Ever..
Never have i ever tried to make it swell
Never have i ever tried to pull my self too far
But i drown anyways
Never have i ever cared
But you bet i felt every part of it

Sorry this was so random