I sit here. And you?

                                     You sit there,

away from my sight,
smelling only your scent
diffusing in the air.

And the silence grows everyday,
keeps on destroying,
keeps on ripping the love
once we thought was true,
the love we kept on hoping
to exist forever.

But now,
I'm sitting here, and you?


                                                          ­   You're sitting there,

getting more far
where I can no longer see
even your shadow.
And your scent,
it's fading this time.

Now I stay in silence,
becoming deaf,
now I'm deaf,
caused by the loud silence
that enters my mind so deep.

Now I can't even hear
the beat of my heart.
But glad I could feel it,
I could still feel it
thumping slower, and slower,
but slower.

And now I'll live in silence,
forever.

Nobody remembered,


                                                   ­  It's my birthday today.



I guess I'll just sing a lonely birthday song for myself,





Then on my bed I'll lay




                                      'till I
                                              f
                                             a
                                              l
                                              l
                                                 as(zzzzzz)leep.

You sometimes think
you're the best,
Too bad you do not know,
How long you still have to run,
How long you must still go.

You boast, too proud,
Your big mouth eats yourself
Feeling the best among the others,
outstanding among the rest.

One day you went to a battle,
Unprepared but confident,
For you think you can handle
Any kind of events.

But now that you have suffered,
I hope the lessons you have learned.
You still have a long way to go,
Still a long way to go.

I'm a maze master,


                     yet, haven't found



my way





                                      o
                ­                
                          u



                                 ­               t.

I see her tears falling,
and I feel how much in pain
she is upon looking at
her sad, sadder and
saddest face.

She's got raccoon eyes,
so deep and sad, sadder
and saddest eyes.

I could feel what her heart
is saying,
I could feel every beat of
the sound it makes,
And I feel so sad, sadder
and very, very sad for her.

I looked at her,
And her face is so familiar,
Then I was back to my senses
and realized that
all I see is me.

They're flesh were rotten,
They've got brittle bones,
They drank a cup of coffee
That they always liked cold.
But as they drank, they both smiled
Reminiscing the old days,
When they were still young lovers
The memories they can't erase.


They're dead now, but still together,
inside a cave of stone,
Where Mr. and Mrs. Smith
became walking skeletons.
They have no flesh, have no eyes
and no more teeth but they still smile,
Mr. and Mrs. Smith still love each other
Though they're more than senile.

I tried to stay and be happy with you
Give back the love and kindness you gave to me,
And give you the happiness you deserve,
But I'm sorry, my heart is now the one talking,
It says I have to let you go.

I don't hate you,
I even appreciate your efforts just to make me stay
And the more I didn't want to hurt you,
'cause you'd be half dead,
I know you will.

I witnessed how you surpassed the challenges,
Just to make others think that they're wrong with
what they think about you,
Everyday you proved to me how much
important I am to you,
But now, my heart says
I've got to let you go.

I walk towards the roads of the darkest paths,
Where light of silver moon is nowhere to find,
With no hopes and dreams and morning light,
Only sorrows and agony, and despair.

Darkness swallows my thoughts and will,
And shadows crawl hiding my strength
I hid between the night and day,
With nothing but dreams taken far away.

My hopes had dried, no rain to fill,
Wounds of broken pieces no chance to heal,
'cause each day my world is engulfed by darkness,
No hopes, no dreams would grow in me.

Each day I wake up with a broken heart,
When I hear your precious voice carried by the wind,
With a sweet melody filled with sounds of joy and happiness
As you sing that sweet song for her.
And when those hazel eyes glare at my side,
But not for me, but for that girl from behind,
Blue skies turn into gray,
Blue skies turn into gray.

I still remember the day we first kissed,
It was on the night of November two
New in lovers' world, we're inexperienced
Both of us did not have a single clue,
On how to do it, and on how to show it
'cause we're wis first timers in this too
But all we wished is to do it, as far as we can go.

You held my chin like in movies
My heart skipped a bit
You brought my face closer to yours
We were simply about to do it.

And when the cool wind blew in the
calmness of the night
I was back into my senses again
And that time I moved away,
Not yet ready for it to happen.

My palms were cold, as well as yours
both of us we're so shy,
we couldn't say a word and
couldn't even look at each other's eyes.

But for the second time we tried again,
Our skin became colder,
And yet we closed our eyes
and feelings grew ponder.

This time it's different,
our feelings were intense.
We could feel each other's heartbeat
This time it made sense.

At last we've already tasted the
sweetness of the lovers' kiss
On the second night of November
We finally granted our wish.

You rocked back and forth
Looking at the stars from your
90 year - old door.

You're three years older
Than your creepy old - styled house,
And yet you're alone.

Nobody visits,
They don't even seem to care,
Yes, nobody does.

You're old and weak now,
Always rocking back and forth
on your rocking chair.

When people pass by
They show that weird, awkward stare,
Then you start to glare.

You're old and weak now,
And you have a heart disease,
No one dares to help.

Poor old man, you are
Left  with nothing but your wealth,
Just your worthless wealth.

I would want to help,
If I were just your neighbor,
I will help yourself.

Maybe today, you're
one step ahead of me.

And tomorrow, this is
what it still would be.

But I promise you one day,
One day with my own two feet,
Through my determination and practices,
I'll go far better than you.


And this time, you'll be the one
chasing me.

It just happened,
this admiration intensified,
feelings gets me dissatisfied,
'cause in my mind,
it's always you.

I throw a joke everytime I see you,
And tell you how much I like you
and would want to kiss you,
but since we're friends,
saying it seriously would be awkward.

But this feeling, it makes me choke
as days pass by,
'cause the feelings that need
to be voiced out
Almost filled my throat.

Yes, you're my boyfriend in facebook,
Yet, in reality, you're not.
We held hands, slept and ate together
for a month and a week
when we're in another city,
But you're not serious with it.

It all started in a joke,
But to me, it felt real
and would always remain
real in my heart.

You're like a medicine,
You got me addicted to you,
A medicine that I wouldn't wish to stop,
Though I know I already got overdosed.

But I'll taper myself down,
To not to suffer from withdrawal,
I might forget you then,
I still don't want it to happen.

You're like a pen that always
run out of ink whenever you
speak of your love to me.
You're almost about to utter it,
but just like writing a piece of paper,
only traces of the pen's tip are seen.
And in your eyes I could tell
you're hiding something inside,
Something that you would want me to know,
And something for the world to see.

But my dear, if you'd be a pen
I'm willing to be your ink,
to fill you with so much love,
and together we'd write,
and utter the magical words
that we'd shout to the world
of how it existed by just writing it down on a piece of paper of love
that existed between you and me. :) <3

Hypnotized by thine eyes
Under your spell I was lured
Amazed by your tempting voice
And in your arms I felt secured;
You caught my heart with your bait,
You made me beg you to stay
And now that you totally caught your prey
Here I fall down on my knees,
Left behind and broken.

Listening to the sound of the
pouring


R
    A  
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            N



I'm back into being a child again..

He took his bow and his red arrows,
but clumsy as he is he lost some of those,
and panicked to the point that he did not know
what to do in the midst of the shadows.
He searched for the missing ones
and luckily these arrows were found,
but clumsy as he is, cupid became stupid again.

He paired his arrows with a she and a he,
and clumsy as he is, the other arrow hit to another she.
And so as well to the others, a different pair of he and she.

So unlucky and unfortunate these people are,
unable to feel what it is to love and to be loved
by the one you fell for,
upon hearing to people who were paired perfectly
they feel like it's different, their dreamed fantasy.

Just because of that stupid, clumsy cupid,
many people have broken hearts
for being hit by the wrong pair of arrows of love
Many have shed their tears and buried themselves in despair.

Your eyes speak to me every time
you see that beautiful lady across your house,
And all I do is smile back
when deep inside my heart I'm drowned
with painted fake happiness that I show to you.
My ever-loving reserved smiles and kisses
have come into waste when you told me you like her
and I became more broken the day you told me
it's her you want to court on and spend the rest of your life with.

I asked myself what are those for?
The care you rendered to me,
The soft - spoken words you whisper in my ears,
The days you took me to restaurants and movies
And the nights and days you held my hand tightly,
never wanting to let go.

Why do you have to do such things
when you'll only leave me broken, anyway?
Am I just for fun or a dummy that you are practicing on?
How could you do such things and leave me like this?
How could you do this?

The moments we had under the silence of the night,
When the rain suddenly fell on my head,
and you'd say you hate rain but I say it feels good
to have gentle rain at night and look at them dancing
on the sides of the street lights.
Those moments when we looked at each other's eyes
and felt the silence, hearing only the rain's sound as it fell on the pavement.
When you've almost told me you love me,
(as what I've thought)
And I too, about to say it if you've only told me first.
Those moments, when I wished my fantasy of me and you would come true.

But now I've awaken to the truth,
I'm the only one who felt it,
The sound of the ringing bells of love,
The sweet music that I hear everytime you're by my side.
It's only me.
Just me.

How could cupid be so unfair?
Can you tell me at least?
Why does he have to hit his arrow only to me with your
name on it and you've been hit also but having hers instead of mine?
Isn't it unfair?
Tell me.

I love you, you love her.
You only love me as your friend,
and I guess here it will all end.

Stupid cupid!

It's odd and messy,
So colorful but did not compliment.
You spent sleepless nights
Just to finish this work of art.
You made this for our anniversary,
And yet, I joked around and
laughed at it 'cause it's so different,
too colorful and kinda weird.
Then, I gave you my sweetest
'thank you' kiss. :)

I lost the one I love
The one I thought is for me
The one I treasured most
The one who set me free.

I looked back, thinking
What could have I done
For him to leave me,
What's left is none.

The skies these past days,
They're good to look at
With you by my side
On the grass we lay flat.

But with one nightmare
In that night I encountered
Feeling so unfair
Stabbing words delivered.

We fought with tears falling
The nightmare is indeed true
'cause we both were yelling
We didn't know what to do.

And yes it ended painfully,
The ending  we didn't want
But no matter what we do,
It's already irrelevant.

A second chance I begged
You stared blankly ahead
Expression can't be read
Like a person that's dead.

And the love just died,
Beautiful memories buried inside
Life just withered and dried
Forever in the dark I hide.

You're the understudy,
waiting to be the star
who'd shine brightly
like the original main character.

You wait at the backstage,
Chanting the lines with her,
As she performs in the theater
Where she's being adored.

But one day, if you keep
on dreaming,
The spotlight would be yours,
Just keep on believing
The spotlight would be yours.

I shed my tears in that cold silent night
reminiscing the memories of you
I always wished I could still make it right
But it's too late, there's nothing I can do.
I know I broke your heart the second time
it is useless to ask for forgiveness
Even gestures like of the pantomime
could never relieve this raging sadness.
And now that you are living happily
with the new lucky woman in your life
I'd never hear you joke again wryly
'cause I'm never gonna become your wife.
And now it's time to put an end to this,
I'll just say goodbye to you with a kiss.

I've got few minutes left,



and my clock went dead.

Your memory is




                                   the only treasure




I'm willing to keep.

are those that never get relieved by taking pain medications.

Two lovers on the tree house,
Embraced by the sun's heat,
Protected by the shadows
Two lovers there they meet.
Each day they cross the river
Climb up on that tall tree
Each day they are happy,
Like two love birds on a tree.

Ooooooops!




My heartbeat is unstable,



                       would you be my remedy?

I lost my heart,
and later I found out
It's been stolen by you.
But still, I'm glad you did. :)

Since the day I left you my mind
drifts away each day
and I don't know, I don't understand
'cause my heart and my brain
never stop arguing.
and since the day that I left
your memories always haunt me,
making me remember everything that
we did in every step of our way.

I was too weak and I felt that I'm
no good for you,
I even think I don't deserve to tell you
I love you
'cause with what I did
everyday is a shattered glass
'cause everyday, I know I break your heart.

I wanted to come back to you
but I would be selfish if I do,
'cause I know your not the kind of man
I'm going to marry,
Definitely not you
'cause though I love you,
I don't think that we're meant for each other,
And this is the reason why I left you.

The cool wind began to blow,
making our love numb and cold,
when our bodies no longer feel the heat of love,
just pain, loneliness and sorrows.

The dancing moonlight of long ago,
became a burden from the past,
for you and I seek light from it,
And just like the moon, our light didn't long last.

Stabbing pain both hearts have felt,
Dark clouds, lightning and thunder storms,
clashed within a blink of an eye,
music faded, so as love.