I spend too many nights thinking
Wondering, writing, dreaming
Of someone who doesn't even think of me

You found me when I was damaged, barely alive
You took me and planted me in the richest soil
You watered me every day, showered me with love
You were patient, took your time
You never gave up on me
Even when things didn't look so great
But I finally felt the sun and opened myself up
Could feel myself blooming, rising from the ground
Until I was the most beautiful flower you've ever seen

I miss the warm, summer days
Sitting next to you in the grass
With flowers in my hair
A smile on your face
Falling in love
Feeling like we had all the time in the world
Thinking life was so simple
That we'd be together forever

I know you're tired of fighting
Tired of fighting the feelings you have
Of letting them take over
Letting them sit with you
Having them tear you to shreds
But you are strong
You are brave
So much braver than you think
You're a warrior
Ready for battle, resilient
And you'll keep fighting

You caged me like a bird
Broke my spirit, clipped my wings
You loved me but didn't want me free

Another day of fighting
Sitting on the bathroom floor, feeling defeated
Listing everything wrong with me, everything I hate
Picking myself apart until there's nothing left
Till I can't stand it
One day I'll love myself
Until then I don't want to be you anymore

We're drunk in the back of a taxi
Your arm around me, care free
City lights shining down on us
Thousands upon thousands
Illuminating the night
But you look at me like I'm the brightest you see