Awoken
by pounding on the door
at two in the morn
stumble up
fumble with the lock
two of my dear friends
hammered and in shock
that I answered
Both beautiful
despite their state
before I could say,
"Hey"
They kissed my face
and bit my neck
hugged me
to and fro
I know they were
drunk
but those were
the first kisses
I've had in months
and months
I fell asleep
with a
smile

Had my wisdom
ripped from me
today
mouth jumbled
in a slew of words
verbs
slurs
slept deep
flying with the birds
not knowledge less
but none the
wiser

tears are wasted often
on the people
who touch
and then
abandon

feelings are evil
only trouble
it leaves you
in a bubble
trapped inside
with no hopes of escape
it leaves you lost
and confused
about what love is
what it's meant to feel like
what it is meant to portray
what it is meant to create

we fall so many times
for the same trick
we feel so weak
emotions leave us
feeling hopeless

we cling to such bad habits
people whom are addictive
we get lost in our lives
it feels quite tragic

we try and see
the good
even in
the bad

it is sad
how we
fall victim
to the same ****
again and again

bad luck finds it's way
into your gentle veins
and poisons, weakens
it changes you
completely

it changes it all
the way you think
the way you touch
the way you kiss
the way you
separate yourself
from everyone else

not a nice way
of living
living in fear
all of the time
spending your days
in fear of being abandoned
and broken, torn, blinded
by the thoughts
and doubts
stopping you
from being free
and somewhat happy