I'm afraid to admit
That I crave your lips to split me open
Spilling forth every unevoked feeling and emotion
Into an uncontainable flood
That I wouldn't know how to control

I'm afraid to admit
That your exposing eyes
Appear to know my secret
That i do not revel in the loneliness
And all too often my laughter is a lie

I'm afraid to admit
That with you I'd be willing to change
Together we would cross every line, then burn it to ash
And I would never look back
To see if anyone was watching me
For I would no longer care

My mind has too fond a latch
On complacency with sadness
You wouldn't want me to hurt myself
Or hate my mind
Would you, Little Love?
I want to make the promise
To end such things
Yet it terrifies me
I am afraid to grow
It lets in more room for pain, if possible
Yet you brought a light into my world that I believe can combat it.

Though you are free from pain and therefore free from this life,
I must hold onto the influence of your light.

Felt through an aching throat
And burning eyes
Smeared makeup
And uncontrollable cries

It's amazing
As if your tiny innocent being
Possessed a sense of inner peace
Beyond the power of the known

i reach and extend in the dark
until my bones creak
break
then snap
under the weight of your silence
bitterly shattering  the void

(i miss the music of your words)

you taught me to learn from the sadness