My body,
My soul,
My appearance,
Has all changed.
From strong to weak,
I have been forced to release all of my energy.
I've pushed myself too far,
Because the sky was the limit;
So I ended up in the black clouds.
And the rain that falls,
Has turned to blood.
Blood from my body
& blood from my heart
I appear numb,
Because I have lost feeling
I appear blind,
Because my sight went away.
I appear deaf,
Because my eardrums dont move anymore.
I appear mute,
Because my voice has been shut down.
I appear not to breathe,
Because the air inside me has escaped.
Im mentally exhausted,
Because my mind cant function anymore.
I have forgotten who I am,
Because I wore out my body by damaging myself.
Everything that was part of me has escaped,
& left me alone.
Alone with myself,
Alone with silence,
Alone with negativity.
I just feel I cannot handle anything anymore;
& that everything seems to be controlling me.
I have brainwashed myself,
& my body has gone weak.
My strength was the only thing that kept me going.
And now I fall to the ground like a leaf,
Shrivelled up;
Dried out.
Tired of drama,
Tired of believing,
Tired of living.
And Im walking with my head down,
Just waiting to bump it,
And wake up from all my nightmares.
I feel exhausted,
Because my mind is tired,
I feel weak,
Because all strength has left me.
I feel broken,
Because my body is in pieces,
& I feel my heart break
& I feel my ears ringing
& I feel my eyes watering
& I feel my mouth going dry
& I feel my nose plug
& I feel my hands go numb
& I feel my chest tighten
& I feel my vision escaping
& I feel my hearing going
& I feel my voice dying
& I feel my hands getting cold
& I feel that everything, life,
Has been ****** out of me
& I am now the size of a twig,
Mentally.
Because everything,
Life,
My soul,
Has all been taken from me.
It has all escaped me.
For now I am drained