Hey
Anybody out there?
I've wished on
every star
every 11:11
every prayer
I've
knocked on wood
crossed my fingers
I
said my prayers
went to church
said sorry
Where are you?
And why aren't you here?
And why
And why
And hello?
Can you hear me?

Sometimes
I hold my pencil so tight
and write so fast
that
my nails dig into my hand,
my fingers ache
and I
feel alive.

Time
Ticks
It goes
fast
and slowly.
Life is short
or is it long?
A minute,
an hour,
a year
can pass
in the blink of an eye.
Please live it to the fullest.
Don't fall asleep.
You might wake up
and find that all this
was a dream.

If I look up
at the stars
every night
And wish
with everything I have in me
Will you grant it?

I just wanna be loved.
Can you tell me I'm beautiful?
Even if it's a lie.
Will you let me call you
when the tears fall
and I can't make them stop.
Will you hug me?
Will you make me stay when
I want
to run?
Will you be there
when both
the sun sets
and rises.
Maybe won't work.
I know that means no.
I need a yes.

When I read the words of
other writers
my mind gets blown.
Beauty that great
is something I want
(***** that, Need)
to achieve,
to be.
I don't even know.
Maybe someday
I will
(know that is)

Do you know what it feels like to love? To dream? To explore? I do. And of course, the flip side of those? Do you know what it feels like to hate? To give up? To go back. I do. Unfortunately, in the end, we can never take back those things we do. We can remedy them, put a salve over the ache and hope that it heals but we can't take back the ache, can't go back in time and change the outcome. As people we will each have a path. A unique path, one that can sometimes intertwine with others but is inadvertently and undeniably ours. It can be lonely, it can be frightening and it can be good. Love. It is what holds us and what binds us. It is who we are and who we want to be. It is every fiber of our being and entwined in our dna. Humanity and love. They cannot be separated.