My heart won't slow down.
Blood pumps so fast
my face turns red,
hot.

My stomach won't settle.
Butterflies flutter
around in circles,
dizzying.

My heart won't slow down.
I'm feeling nausea
I want it to stop,
ease.

My stomach won't settle.
I feel nervous
I want to be calm,
relaxed.

My heart won't slow down.

I've gotten my hopes up.

Angry at myself
frustrated with this feeling
I let him get to me.

Heart always on a shelf
I must begin dealing
with what isn't to be.

Maybe I shouldn't give up,
quite yet,
but it still hurts.

It may be just a bump
I shouldn't be upset
I'll still flirt.

But,

I've gotten my hopes up.

What will I write about
if I fall in love?
I only know of lust,
of pining.

It gives me doubt:
what will I write of?!
Heartbreak turned to dust,
lights shining.

This emotional drought,
can I rise above?
Find in you some trust,
my silver lining.

It's a new route,
writing of love.
To try, I must!
No more whining.

Tonight
is one of those nights
when I just need to stare at the ceiling.

When I over analyze a word,
a punctuation,
an emoticon,
in an email.

Tonight
is one of those nights.

Suddenly I miss you
I barely know you
but I want to hear you laugh.

Sitting here alone
the sun fading before me
I want you here beside me.

I feel strange
wanting you around
thinking I need you.

Have I been lonely too long?

Suddenly I miss you
I really just met you
you always make me smile.

Listening to the winds
I know I might rush this
if you miss me, too.

Maybe I should forget
try to take this slow
but I suddenly miss you.

Have I been lonely too long?

I couldn't wait to see you
and when I did
it was all I had to confirm.

The feeling I had to sift through
all those i had hid
buried under a berm.

What should I do
open up a bid
let you make me infirm?

If only you knew
it seems I have slid
into a situation in which I squirm.

It takes all I have not to call you.

Could this man be my soulmate?
He made me laugh,
without trying.
He let me talk
without defying.

Could I find attraction in him?
The way we fell in step
and the way it was so simple.
We may begin to ebb
or we could grow, begin to kindle.

Could he be my soulmate?
Maybe he's the stepping stone
leading me to my match.
For now I won't be alone
waiting for the flame to catch.