We acted like teenagers
never saying what we meant
hinting with smiles and compliments.
We acted liked fools
when we were near one another
never ceasing to smile or laugh.

We acted like teenagers
staying up late talking
over messenger or text.
We acted like fools
stealing glances across rooms
enjoying each other's company.

We should have acted like adults
expressing our feelings
telling the truth.
We should have acted our age
then you'd be here beside me
not playing house with her.

didn't you understand
the first two times
but you kept coming back
and i kept letting you
even though i couldn't love you
i didn't want to be alone

didn't i understand
the first two times
i let you crawl back
and you kept trying to stand up
even though you didn't love me
you didn't want to be alone

Why
when the snow begins to fall
do I feel your arms around me?
How
many more winters
before your memory becomes buried?
When
will the avalanches of pain
finally cease and fill in the cracks?

Why
do the blizzards of memories
come back to me in frigid storms?
How
do i come out of it alive
when every winter I nearly freeze?
When
will my heart thaw
and let the icicles fall?

When I look at you, I know,
if I was someone else
maybe we could fall in love.

When I hear your voice, I know,
if our paths crossed at the right moment
maybe you'd write lyrics just for me.

When I see you smile, I know,
if you could take the time to get to know me
your world would tilt and I'd be your sun.

I'd be the gravity that kept you grounded.
I'd be the reason for the light in your eyes,
the reason for your song,
for your laugh.

You'd call me,
"the reason you live".

Your whiskey eyes
drunk with lies
call to my gullible soul.

But to feel your touch
to want it so much
burns a hole in my heart.

When I smell your skin
I feel that I can win
over the love of a boy.

The lights flickered, went out
my world turned upside down.
Memories I've forgotten to forget about
form an ocean in which I drown.

Walls around me collapse
images of you wash over me.
I suffocate with this relapse
of a distant memory.

Words left unspoken
tears spilled into the tide.
Nothing left me more broken
rubbing raw a tender hide.

Never so easily replaced
never to be forgotten.
All the kisses I still taste
but feelings have gone rotten.