drunk
but not from liquor

but something toxic
in a form of prince charming

at first sweet
made your world spin
only to wake up the next day
with severe pain

you have been running in circles
while trying to find love

when it has been hiding in plain sight
in a place you'd surely find
if only you're walking instead

and he finally went on a date
after us ended


ordered the usual
unconsciously ordering it for me
when it is now a she

then realized it's going to be difficut
getting over a habit
and impossible
to get over me

pottery
poetry

he molds clay
and she molds phrase

similar, but different

pottery can make your skin bleed when it goes wrong
poetry can make your heart bleed when it goes otherwise

the breeze hits different that day

was it the air,
my hair,
smell of your outerwear,
or the way you stare?

you know how humans mark the beginning and end of something, as if there's an exact border line between things?

astrologies, seasons,
eras in history,
& even night and morning

when in reality, it has always been progressive
slowly fading into something,
and you won't even realize until it has turned into something completely different

that's why people time lapse things like sunsets
and paintings
so they can look back on moments
they did not realize was changing

i guess that's how our conversation went
how we went

scrolling through our talks and chats, is exactly
like a time lapse
like a sunset perhaps

looking back on things i didn't realize was changing
until it was too late

i hope one day you'll go through our time lapse
like i did
and i hope it means as much to you, as it means to me
and remember how once,
for a certain amount of time,
before it went completely dark
it was beautiful.
every second of it.

we're perfect opposites
a perfect mistake

like a white shirt with coffee stain
that's why you stayed
for a long time
in the back of my head

no matter how many times
i try to wash you away