Will this be the
Moment we
Long for
When age has
Caged the flame
Inside us?

You were a curiosity,
Nothing more.
A Gordian Knot I
Swore I would untie.
You told me nothing
(That was part of
Your great mystery)
But still I felt that
I knew you
Better than
I knew myself,
As if you'd become a
Part of me
The pomegranate seeds
You'd planted
Growing into flowers
Around my bones,
Crushing my heart
And lungs
Into breathless
Love for you.
Your stories were empty
So I, with my
Spinning wheel mind,
Filled in the gaps.
I made them tragic
So I could comfort you
So I could tell myself
You needed me.
You didn't though,
Not really
And yet you still
Lingered
On my doorstep
Like a bad penny.
You liked longing
For... something
You wore anticipation
On your skin
Like cologne,
Salty with sweat
Like the ocean
Like drowning.
If you were a curiosity
I'd fallen for your intrigue
I swore I'd find
The centre of your maze
Even if all that
Awaited me there
Was a minotaur.
I was obsessed
I thought I would be
The one to
Crack- solve- fix you.
I wondered
Hopelessly, if you
Ever lay staring
At the celing
Tracing my name
In the dark air
Like constellations
As your dark eyes
Flashed in my mind
Like a shutter.
Did you believe in fate?
The tug of the string
Binding our fingers
Until it hurt to be
Away from you.
Did you also feel
That we had been
Pushed together
Inevitably?
Really
I don't think you
Thought of me at all.
You'd told me
That you only looked
To the next moment
When I questioned
The lost look in your eyes
As if you were a boy again.
I think I loved you then
When you were far away
And untouchable
I vowed I'd reach you
Join you on your deserted island
Not seeing that you'd
Already left me
On one of my own.

I'm peering through
The window
Of a life that used
To be mine.
Of people
That became
Figures in pictures
Memories warped
Into rectangles
That you hang
On the wall.
The moments
We thought would
Last forever
Have escaped us
Floating like
Paper lanterns
Into the night sky
Carrying with them
The brightest
Hopes and dreams.
Though I watched
Them go
I am still
Suprised to have
To leave
This life that used
To be mine
Behind.
But even as it
Fades away
It's glow
Through foggy window
Remains.

If you have chosen
Whether or not
You are angry
You are privileged.

If you have chosen
Whether or not
You will act upon your anger
You are privileged.

If you are just enough
To be angry
If you are lucky enough
To be privileged
Use your anger, use your privilege.

When staring into
The face of oppression
Silence and compliance
Are one and the same.

Why does love
Smile so sweetly
When it lies,
And heartbreak
Cry
As it tells the truth?

You never said goodbye
To me
Instead one day
You just
Slipped away
And I wondered if
I could look for you
But knew deep down
That love
Doesn't work that way.

It seems that closure
Is never closing
Even when the
Signs are clear enough
To read
Apparently I can be blind
When I want to be
And some cuts
Though old
Just like to bleed.

Maybe it would help
Knowing you
Couldn't stand me
Because now
I look for you
In every face I see.
And the pill might
Have gone
Down easier
If you avoided
Every girl who
Somehow reminded
You of me.

Truthfully
It might help
If you never fell
In love
With anyone
But I know that's not
An ask
You can complete
Because a heart
With a face like yours
Captures that
Of everyone
You meet.

So instead
Please promise
That you'll think of me
Sometimes
Because I think of
You
More than I can say
And even
After all this time
A part of me
Perhaps stupidly
Will always
Feel this way.

I miss you when I know
I shouldn't
As what is there
To miss?
It's been so long
Since anything
And that's what's
Wrong with this
I miss, I miss,
I miss.