First, you feel the cool against your fingers.
Let yourself calm down.
Everything will be ok.
Next, comes reluctant defiance as you move closer and closer.
And then
Contact. The point meets flesh
Add a little pressure and adrenaline does the rest.
Your fingers twitch, you feel a scratch.
Now just watch, sit back. Relax.
You see the pure, white innocence
Soon, it's gone. Covered by red.
The white line turns crimson, and the shame fills your head.
But you don't care.
You continue to watch the mesmerizing show.
It's delicious and sick, watching it flow.
You feel the pain, you know it's there
it's part of the experience
there's no more hesitance.
Now the red runs down
It meets the clear water
And that beautiful droplet twirls and dances until there's nothing left to see.
And so you repeat.
And then
The defeat.