Why are you so perfect?
Please, please teach me
You always know what to say
How do you do that?

It flows from your lips
like Niagara Falls
I drink it in sips
Then take a big gulp

You tell me what I need to know
I take it in, but I never show

When will this end?
I don't want a friend.
I just want to send
This all over the edge.

I don't want you
But I need to.
I think I hate you
But I'd love to.

I'm wrapped around you
Felt like I flew.
Now you're gone
And I'm gone, too.

But you've been replaced.
They have a new grace;
But I'm scared to see
What's in store for me.

I'm terrified of you
Though you're all I knew.
Now I've got to do
Completely without you.

You make me sick:
Your happiness.
You're blinding me
In your sea of eternity.

It's disgusting
What I'm feeling.
I wish I could take it back,
But it's already blooming.

It's the elephant in the room.
It's in the center;
Shadow looming over
Yet we ignore it.

Where is this going?
We're moving way too fast.
I only have time to think
"This moment will not last."

I told you that
I miss you.
You said that
You do, too.

You say you waited,
Looked all over.
Why is it when
I look, you're not there?

You say these perfect words;
You're such a sweet talker.
I listen so desperately,
Lo and behold, again, I believe.

You say you don't want
To lose someone through the cracks,
But now I'm the one
Falling off your lap.

I want you to catch me
But your hands pull back.
You seem so disgusted
By everything I lack.

But now he's here;
Listens when I hurt.
He catches every tear
Where you left me in the dirt.

I wish I could trust.
I wish I could believe.
But when I cry, I'm hushed.
I'm scared of silences you leave.

You're still in my heart;
Still in my soul.
You still saved my life,
That much we know.

You'll always own a piece of me,
No matter how big this family.
I know you still care,
But no longer are you there.

Do you care?
At this point
I don't know
Give me something

Where's the love?
You seem so gone
We haven't spoken
In so **** long

It seemed so perfect
That honeymoon phase
Now I'm broken
And you forgot my name

You were there
You saved my life
I said not to worry
I'm done with the knife

But I need you now
I need you again
I feel you're gone
And I've lost a friend

In the silence of this night
you’ll never know what I fight
bleed out these evils
rid yourself of the poisons
you keep on knocking
but no one’s there
desperation triggers adrenaline
nothing can stop me now
I just ignore the daggers
because I know it’s all a dream
I can’t even die
and what would it be like
to be able to practice
your final act of being alive?
dying in your sleep
but still able to wake up
still able to see the morning sun
those thoughts just load the gun
I shouldn’t think these things that pop up
I should try to filter my brain
but why?
when nothing can filter the pain
just watch me fade away
all this is just part of that fight
that I fight every night
silence is a beautiful thing

Where did you go?
Living your dream
You seem so happy
Did you forget about me?

I hope you did
I was holding you back
You were so worried
You just need to laugh

I want you gone
I want you happy
Though I could use a hug
Every now and again

You don't need me
I'm the dust on your feet
I'm baggage you never needed
Shake me off and leave

You're better than me
You don't need this
You deserve the best
Not this burning nest

So I'll see you around
In my dreams I'll love you
In my mind I'll keep you near
But you will forever be free of me