Caroline: Favorites

Jul 2013 Caroline

The voice

One
I wasn't born yet
Two
I was a baby
Three
I was a girl
Four
I am a teen....
One
How could i define anything from anything at all
So tiny in time so far awa from what could be
New to the world i didn't even know existed.
Two
Now i know the world
Know all i want to to be fed and picked up
Have someone to smile at me so i can smile back
Three
Innocent, still, what age?
Just the age, something i couldnt explain
I ran back and fourth then i bumped into my destiny
Four
Something , Who am I?
I should know by now, should have known since number three
I am a human
Worth of respect, love, peace, share,
PAtience, and all of the rest things any other human deserves
I am not only a teen, i have my rigths to live without feeling scared
wether i would wake up or not the next day!

Jul 2013 Caroline

inevitable

Jul 2013 Caroline

Madisen Kuhn

inevitable

if you told my heart to beat
it would
but not because you told it to
and if you told me to love you
i would
but not because you told me to

Jun 2013 Caroline

immortal state

Jun 2013 Caroline

Redshift

immortal state

people do not die.

they
fall through pavement
or slide under semi-trucks
or glide off bridges
into the soft embrace of water
into a place
in another state

and i don't ever see them
because they moved away
but they will be back
and maybe it's hard to keep in contact
long distance
relationships
****
but someday we'll hang out again
and it will be weird at first
because we will have changed
and
grown
but after a while
it will feel
just the same

this is how i cope with so much death in my life.

Jun 2013 Caroline

Flattery at Gun Point

Jun 2013 Caroline

Ralph Corke

Flattery at Gun Point

“do you love me?”
What does it mean when you ask me? How can you not tell?
If you can’t tell that I love you then maybe that’s just as well.
You see I’ve never felt love before, just lust, pain or adoration,
But I know it shouldn’t lie so easy with constant hesitation.
“Do You Love Me!?”
The question pierces my ear but my lips are not sincere
The words don’t roll off my tongue as easy does my eye.
My heart doesn’t beat in rhythm until the time we say goodbye.
I need to breathe, let me breathe. But all I do is sigh.
“DO YOU LOVE ME?!!”
How can you spit wasps at me when all I want to speak is butterflies?
Do you know what love is or is just easier to be cruel than to be kind?
How can I tell you, with tears, with yells, with infidelity? How do I tell you I love you? With lies, broken promises and charity?
“I’ll ASK YOU ONE LAST TIME, IF YOU DON’T ANSWER ME THEN IT’S FINAL.”
Cocked gun at my head, pale blue vision turning scarlet red
“DO.”
It’s small led shaft pointed at my brain, no warmth left.
No time to say I’m sorry just forced words to relieve me of my breath.
“YOU”
Tie a noose to the yew tree and kiss me on the cheek.
It’ll bow down it’s branches and grow new roots. I’ll be ok, escaped to love another day.
“LOVE”
Pull the trigger, I won’t tell. You’ll never know, you can go to hell.
“ME?”**
Yes, of course I do. Why do you even have to ask?

May 2013 Caroline

Are You Sure?

May 2013 Caroline

DP Younginger

Are You Sure?

What is it that you want most in your life, as it follows a very distinct path?
Do you want to fly? Play sports? Sustain a career? Or perhaps spend the rest of your life with that very special one you love?
Does he treat you well?
Does he love you with mirrored intensity?
……………………………
Are You Sure?
……………………………
Take a look into my graphite eyes,
Do you believe it?
I do-
It’s up to you to decide where you’re headed in this short living,
You can follow me,
Or steer your own life on autopilot,
I can guide you,
I can love you,
Can you love me the way I love you?
…………………………
Are You Sure?
…………………………
Take a moment to envision a life without the One that you love,
How is it?
Can you honestly believe that you will be with him forever?
I believe it,
Do you?
Look into his eyes and glance into your future,
Is he present?
I am here,
And you are right beside me,
Loving me- right?
…………………………
Are You Sure?
…………………………
Don’t cry,
I’ll be here forever,
Cherishing you, loving you, caring for you,
Believe me when I say that we are going to be together for eternity,
Look into my eyes,
Do you see what I see?
I can see what you see,
But can you look into my pupils and say that you love me with the look I am receiving at this moment?
…………………………
Are You Sure?
…………………………
Take a breath and smell the air,
Do you smell the passion?
I do-
I can tell you that you love him, even if you can never seem to let him go,
You want to let it all out, but you’re afraid of what he will think,
Don’t worry,
Let it out baby,
He won’t mind because he loves you,
I love you,
Do you love me enough to show me your past?
…………………………
Are You Sure?
…………………………
Don’t leave,
Stay here in my arms forever,
Let me hold you the way you should be held,
Do you feel the warmth of my love?
I love you,
I know you, to me, the same,
I know with all of my beating heart,
You Are Sure.
…………………………

May 2013 Caroline

favor unreturned

May 2013 Caroline

Madisen Kuhn

favor unreturned

she was like
        a wilting flower
drained of all things
that kept the others upright

he was like
        a rushing brook
who saw her crumpled and tired,
crowded by overgrown weeds,
and wanted nothing more
than to clear the earth around her
and see her bloom again

so he took all he had
        and poured it into her
and when finally the pinkness
had returned to her cheeks
        she looked back at him
        and saw that

he was now like
        a withering shrub
frail and planted in dry clay

and despite the deep conviction
she had in her heart to restore him
        like he had restored her
all of her best efforts
left her with with exposed roots
and dirt beneath her fingernails

he wouldn’t let her stay
        to continue to try
        to quench his thirst
so she left him with a watering can
and promised he’d soon find relief