I lie my head upon my pillow
I think of this imaginary fellow
I have faith he is coming my way
Unbecoming thoughts I need to keep at bay
It is so easy to feel not good enough
My looks compared to society is tough
Because inner beauty no longer means much
Nobody understands a compassionate touch
Clothes more expensive than our rent
I think people have become a litte bent
No longer does the world shoot from the heart
We worry more what is on the wall for art
Children being taught so young to model
Plastic parents those we do need to throttle
We are teaching beauty is only skin deep
Pop a few more pills it will help you be sleek
My fellow he will stop inside and see
The difference between them and me
That nothing else in this life will matter
Nor in this world will he ever feel battered
He will forever know I am a gift from above
I will wash his feet in the purest love
My man will know my heart can never be sold
He seeks with me a true passion to unfold
Spirit sought this soul to mirror only mine
Knowing our unity in this heaven will be divine
Reflections of love within our beautiful eyes
Our souls are bare no need to be in disguise
He knows I will never think to close the door
It will not matter whether we are rich or poor
There is no better place for him to be
Than coming home to be with me
So as I close my eyes to go to sleep
I send him the sweetest dreams to keep
Until he is once again within my arms
Flames from our fire setting off the alarms
So I may never be a pretty barbie doll
Nor do I love to go shopping at the mall
But I see the beauty in the smallest things
Angels gave unto me the truest music to sing
For my words will only be spoken to the one
Who is willing to live in the warmth of my sun

Why did I?
Maybe because I wanted to try
Step out of the world I live
In many ways I am not sorry I did
Reflections of what I touch
Shining within me so much
What is so hard to understand?
The capabilities of this land
I see through different eyes
Only to myself did I lie
No one else to blame
I still remain the same
Or do I?
Why then do I cry?
I wanted the illusion
Of a true intrusion
To the depth of my being
What I am constantly seeing
Simply not so
Back into my world I go!

The waves came crashing in
What I was to do was a sin
As I walked toward the sea
I knew my life was meant to be
Gently stepping forward to begin
The coldness began to sink in
Stopping when I was waist deep
Wondering was the path too steep
I turned to look around
Nothing was making a sound
Just the drumming of the waves
Darkening around my soul like a cave
Murkiness started to surround me
My mind knowing it was all I could see
Water began to fill my lungs
My heart started speaking in tongues
As my listless body began to sink
My lungs took that last drink
For in the world around
I am now no longer bound

In fleeting moments I have read

That your soul is not dead

Intrige spreads across the page

I see you wanting out of your cage

Time to honor your journey of soul

So once again you will live whole

I see hope of a new promise

With a man named Sir Thomas

I saw those sad eyes many years ago

Only your sail goes the way it knows

It shall be interesting where the tide will take

Really it is only the shadow you will forsake

A ladder has been given to climb the wall

Will you give a hand?  Or watch it once again fall?

Angel's love is in my soul
Sometimes the world just takes its toll
I hear their whispers in my ear
But I am too busy with my fallen tears
My mind conspires against itself
With the negativity it has been dealt
I struggle in the darkness of night
Hoping soon again I will see some light
The tangled web I seem to weave
Breaking their hold trying hard to achieve
To run away from the pain
Being cleansed by angel's fallen rain
Reaching, striving, fighting tooth and nail
I climb, I crawl so slow like a snail
Every day I try to let their brightness shine in
The more I do I feel I wasn’t born a sin
My angels are my guardians, my friends
With their love there is no beginning, no end
No judgements are whispered across the wind
I need only to feel worthy of the greatness they ascend
I am no longer lost, in angels I am found
Destined to show their greatness I am bound

Honesty is a lost art
Nobody wants the part
We are all actors
No attention to factors
We forget what it is to feel
Now we just want to steal
Floundering through life
Stabbing others with our knife
Wasting away inside
Stopping to say we did try
What did we stop and do
Except be so totally untrue
Wow that is the new fashion
Sending many hearts smashing
Selfishness is the treason
That is the only reason
We plant these seeds
To flourish the field in weeds
We blow them across the land
In these weeds we take our stand
We nourish our sorrow, our pain
Excusing our plans of future gain
I may at times stumble
My heart may rumble
But I am glad this one I walk alone
Going to sit upon my favorite stone
Watching the flowers wave in the breeze
Spreading there pollen to make me sneeze
I rest upon a bed of rose petals
For no less again will I settle
I am worthy of much more
Than the weeds you pick and store
So as we harvest our crops
My life blooms, your life stops
Exactly where you left it
Collecting the weeds where you sit
So I bid you farewell
My flowers are to0 pretty not to smell
I go without causing harm, no foul
Should've believed I threw in the towel

Silence falls across the land
Some may not understand
That light becomes night
But do you have the sight?
Tick tock goes the clock
Broken hearts turn to rock
They have lost the rhyme
The beating drum is off time
Happiness is a choice
Within the truth of our voice
Don't allow shadows to win
Next moments are to begin
Matters not who, or what they are
Stop, look, see that falling star
Shadows are not a reality
Only an emotional fatality
I give you a thought, a smile
Maybe only for a short while
People always come and go
Reason we don't always know
But, I do know this for certain
Pure gold lies under your curtain
Time to cut those binding strings
Open them; allow the light to bring
Magic and miralces to you
Your soul knows it is true
Loudly annoucing it is the time
To once again find your rhyme
Tick tick goes the clock
Challenging you to crush the rock

In sadness I cry
For once again I tried
Interpret the signs
Of a love that binds
To touch a part
Of my heart
That has never been found
Still listening forthe sound
I move forward on
Seeking the new dawn
Washing away the pain
Of the truth I cannot gain
One day I will learn
To call the one I yearn
He is waiting for me
I need to open and see
Stop wasting time
On the ones who don't rhyme
With the sounds of my soul
Standing in truth of my goal
I look behind no more
On the wings of a dove I soar
Angels pick up my feet
Showing the trail is never too steep
For the love I have within
Never to share would be a sin
I am so cherished and loved
I fit in my angel wings like a glove
So as I bow my head
The tears are dead
What will be will be
As God walks with me
Holding my hand
As I cross this land
Once again
I begin
Listening for the sound
Of where my soul is bound

Love whispers softly
As we enjoy our morning coffee
The sparkle in your eye
When you hug and touch me goodbye
The smile that comes upon my face
When my mind drifts in your space
Watching you stand proud and tall
Ready to take on them all
The sweet kiss upon my lips
You hands on my body running amiss
Shivers from your touch
Make me realize so much
Forever a soft place to lie my heart
Something no one can part
A special place only we know
I've been hit by the arrow of your bow
I have touched something unique
Now my journey is complete
Because now love whispers softly
While we drink our morning coffee

Our heart’s depth will shine
Illuminating miracles of light
Mirroring the truth of our lives
In a sparkling diamond mist
Souls merging in a dance
Intertwining our energies
To the lullaby in our souls
Merging the sweetness of bliss
Spiraling kindness and compassion
Engendering a magical world
Existing only in truth
To this warrior I give my heart, my soul
My heart, my soul never given to another
For truly only he will seek
The wisdom in the mirror
Reflecting our spirits' journey
Toward enlightenment
Binding our heart into one beat
I listen for the sound of our drum
For the legend has been told
The love will never cease
Redefining what to society
Is only a single word?
Our souls' eyes will teach
What the world yearns
In earnest to reach
The uniqueness of soul
As one we are complete
I will journey this earth
Within your angel wings
I have waited long
Only to simply learn
I have nothing within you to fear
Unto your eyes
I have no disguise
Until my last breath
Whispering in the wind
Will my love for you end

I see the point of direction
You visualize the pieces the sections
Of the puzzle you have been given
Although some of it remains hidden
I need to keep my soul free in flight
You struggle in what is wrong and right
In me there is so much more
When I finally stop having to close the door
When you might actually truly feel
What reality of what is real
There is only you and me
What exactly is meant to be
Neither of us knowing
Except what they, and we are showing
But sometimes we get off track
This I know as a fact
We each need to lead and follow
Each of us new things to swallow
We think, we ponder, we analyze
Me I know within what lies
Just as you know your ties
But unless we learn together
It will never be tethered
For us we both need the piece
Within each other’s reach
Trust in what is being shown
It will not be forever on a loan
IT is given as a fleeting chance
For us to have the first dance
IN whom we truly are
Yet we both keep so afar
Why do we ponder such a gift?
When we have been given a free lift
To rise above the given task
Instead of hiding within masks
Only time will tell the story
If we lose or win the glory

Pictures flash across my mind
Understanding I must find
I stand alone in this fight
Nobody can help with this sight
I want so much to believe
The words I want to retrieve
So the words become normal
Nothing fancy or formal
Just something within me
Lasting forever to be
Opening the flood gate
To my true destiny and fate
To the truth of my whole
That is my final goal
Shining not only for others
But in my own love I smother
Show the laughter and the joy
Not be like a decoy
Show the love I have been given
You’d understand how I've been livin'
How one tiny miniscule thing
Truly brings my soul to sing
For to it all I am connected
Nothing is ever rejected
Lessons are always taken
Never be mistaken
I am full of gratitude
Constantly changing my attitude
Enjoying the small joys of soul
Making me a better whole

You attached the beautiful spiraling string
Waiting for life, what it will bring
Like a puppet I dance the fight
Not to get tangled within your sight
Grasping, you pulled, I flew up high
Your lips bringing me to a soft sigh
Glimmers within your eyes
Those depths are my ties
I leap, I bound
Scissors not quite yet found
Why can you not feel the direction?
Make the simple connection
Can you not see how far it can go?
In beauty our souls can flow
Will you pull my string under?
In your thinking blunder
Or will you pull me within
Feel me like it’s not a sin
See me, mind open wide
Wearing gloves so you don’t slide
Down the spiraling string of life
Within your own soul's strife
You hold the scissors above
Simply I am the love

Comprehend the fight
In trying to make it all right
Growing up feeling alone
What you see, chills to the bone
Your path never an easy walk
Hard to find your voice to talk
Never truly expressing your sight
Of what you see in darkness and light
The dreams in your sleep
Make your soul constantly weep
I dropped by to tell you a little story
Of a knight surrounded in glory
I’ve seen the beauty of your soul
Within the energy waves my angels hold
They told me to whisper in your ear
Remind you of how God holds you dear
In simple pride you must stand tall
The beauty you show us all to reach
Spoken words of truth to us you teach
The love and devotion you give so much
Really makes the difference to all you touch
There will never be anything less
For you have always been blessed
Swing upon your white stallion
Show you wear God’s medallion
As you're running through the fields
Know you're within God’s shield
You only need to see and believe
It’s always been there for you to receive
I see you running strong and free my friend
Beauty and magnificence never to end
Within the grace of his hand
Your steed carries you across this land

A butterfly landed on me today
Truly he made my day
I spoke with him awhile
What he told me made me smile
He said nothing in this world matters
We must end our constant chatter
To be able to open and see
All the glorious beauty to be
His message was something to grasp
The peace he brought me is to last
For it's not everyday I can say
Something precious came my way
That is why I know he was angel sent
His colors were so unique and different
To bring joy and happiness to my heart
So I would never walk a different start
Being one within God's adoring love
Knowing I have the ability to rise above
I am so truly blessed he came to me
Truth and compassion are meant to be
Like him I am unique in all I say
Angels' love on my journey everyday
I know my way of life is a choice
Moving people with my voice
Loving as we walk hand in hand
Like a butterfly across this land
Spreading laughter and joy
Like an innocent child with a toy
My words may be easy to conceive
But how many can truly receive
Expressions of love to behold
I am richer than all the world's gold
The truth is always within sight
As a butterfly my soul takes flight
It is so truly wonderful this day
That he decided to come my way
I am blessed to walk this earth
Until God takes me for my rebirth
Light dancing across my face
He then fluttered away in grace
Magic and miracles will never end
Goodbye my little butterfly friend

If only people could understand
Messages that cross this land
That there is not always a wow
When I sit before you in a bow
Angels speak across my mind
Trying to alleviate the bind
It is not always want we want to hear
As I watch your fallen tears
If you're blocked at this point
Your angels will not cross this joint
They will not tell history or ahead
Until you clear the cloud in your head
I wish I could perform the miracle you wish
I do bring to you food on a dish
But because you wish to hear different
Your energy will always be spent
I give you answers to your pain
But to you it seems lame
I am sorry you could not be open
As I watch you loping
Running far from you and me
So inside you will never see
Such a shame you ran away
It was a beautiful moment for you to gain
To reach that power you have inside
Realize your pain and cries
Are awaiting to be washed away
All you needed was to say
I am open, I can heal
No moments will again will it steal
To this negative earth we walk
In our angels we need to talk
The love and abundance we would feel
Would feed our next emotion meal
Healing and growing we would move on
Enjoying the dew of the new dawn
I always will do the best I can
To make you understand
I am not always the answer
For truly you are the dancer
I see what is needing
For you to stop bleeding
Only you can apply the bandage
If you could only manage
You would see the gift of love
I gave you from above
It is the answer you needed to see
You only just needed to be
I am sorry to you my friend
Prayers to you I forever send
To you I am not good enough
Lessons for you are too tough
That I cannot help
It is your hand dealt
I only try my best
I will never give any less
I am who I am
In this I take my stand
It is a gift from above
Only you cannot see the love
That is not my fault
You do not open your vault
I walk away strong and free
And you walk too blind to see

Today I am tired
I wish I were fired
So I could do nothing at all
Just into my bed I'd fall
Pick up my favorite book
Not caring how I look
Just relax in a dreamy daze
Trickling through my mind's maze
Tomorrows another day
Energy will return my way
I will return to this human race
Even have a smile on my face
But for today I am going to stay
Keeping everything far at bay
Curled up by the blazing fire
Of that I could never tire
Sometimes it is awesome to be alone
Giggling when I ignore the phone
Rejuvenate my body's lack of sleep
Oh sometimes hiding is so sweet
I bid you farewell at this time
So I can go back and find my ryhme

Every time you touch me you set off an alarm
I feel the fire, the flames run up my arm
It spreads from head to toe
Perfect places to touch you know
The heat of your lips
I feel in between my hips
Lavishing untold passion unto me
Sending me to unknown places I love to be
The love I feel from your heart
Sets you from others apart
Whispering those words in my ear
God, oh please help me I cannot see clear
Special thoughts we share
I know now what it’s like to care
You took away all the hurt, the pain
The flow of tears disappeared like the rain
You’ve shown me the warmth of the sun
Believing in myself is so much fun
Someone special to hold close
One I can respect the most
This is what I need
To plant and water this seed
I will sit and watch it grow
For love should not be low
To feel really true passion
Hitting us like waves smashing
We should be able to touch
The love we need to feel so much