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Carol Huizinga Sep 2016
Darkness?
Bringing a harshness
Surrounding all who walk
Coming from those who talk

Is darkness depression?
Do we need to do a confession
My footsteps are heavy
Walking through this bevy

Crumbling, I lost some ground
Where will I be found
In others opinions
Seeking dominion

Is darkness ego?
This is our amigo
Ruining our picture
Maybe our permanent fixture

Is darkness a victim?
Come see the sitcom
Funny, I should say that
It presents ****

Darkness is it being alone?
This is what we enthrone
Does darkness turn to light
Or shall we keep up the fight?
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
In my little world I hear the birds serenade my soul

I hear the wind whispering through the trees

I see the sparkles of the morning dew making diamonds in the grass

I smell the freshness of the rain falling down around me

I see the butterflies dancing in delight across this earth

I see the wisdom in the great owl teaching me silence

I see the great eagle who teaches me to soar and spread my wings

I feel the sun bringing me warmth and illumination

I see the moon and feel the great mystery he beholds

I see the vastness of my life when gazing upon the stars

Most of all I see God and love in all I see and will be

And that is why I truly love just being me
Carol Huizinga 2009, dedicated to Amanda, this one I wrote a little different and it became her wedding vows, when I married her and Byron.
Carol Huizinga Jul 2010
I am looking for special things
That will allow my true soul to bring
Peace and happiness to all I employ
Living in complete and utter joy
Will this person come my way
Within my journey on this day
Does he live within the light
Allowing his soul to take flight
Not living within society's norm
He sets himself apart from the storm
His boat will never sink
To caring what others think
For inside he stands in truth
Knowing he needs not to be a sleuth
To enjoy living with the wings
Of what true love will forever bring
So to some it may seen sad
But to me I am so very glad
I have the patience to wait
Until he comes to open my gate
For my love has never died
It has been tucked away inside
A warrior somewhere has this key
He and I will both know it is meant to be
God will be strumming our guitar
Satisfaction will only be ours
The world will see the passion we uphold
Allowing others to be so bold
To seach for what lies within the soul
Never falling into the gaping holes
Within his light we will always mingle
This journey he will know we do not walk single
We are always within the wings
Of what goodness he does bring
We just need to stand up to our hearts
Never being emarrassed to share those parts
His blessings will never end
His perfect love he will always send
One day he will bring this warrior my way
I know he will be the one to forever stay
Never bending to society's fight
I stand forever within his faith and light
Carol Huizinga 2008
Carol Huizinga Sep 2010
Simply said you confuse my brain
Making me feel inside I am insane
Emotions are wildly running scattered
In the grande scheme will they truly matter?
I see into your beautiful sparkling heart
To the point that even to you I have remarked
I never before felt this level of soul depth
So it is very difficult for me to easily accept
Are you supposed to be special just for me?
Or maybe just teaching me to fly being free
I work hard keeping thoughts of you at bay
But baby these images keep coming my way
I try closing my eyes to have sweet dreams
Angels write your name what does this mean
I see it on the wall written in huge bold letters
It doesn’t make my inner confusion any better
Your angels come speaking to me constantly all the time
I hold you to my heart trying to be a mime
Not whisper my hopes, my dreams out loud
I truly feel like I am living within a shroud
Is this finally my soul level presented?
My chance to live life no longer in resentment
To be wild and free my spirit fulfilled with me
Can you see the real soul love meant to be?
Will you understand my angel's glowing light?
For if the writing on the wall speaks true
The angels have told me that it is you
I guess I will have to wait until life unfolds
For asking questions I am never that bold
So until then I will continue to believe in my soul
They are bringing me someone special to hold
Forever I am praying to my angels above
That I will be blessed with this type of love
To journey with a warrior who takes a true stand
Understanding the beauty of holding their and my hand
Truly I do not think I am in love with you
But I see the purity of our souls so true
Maybe it is not meant for me to understand
That is why I must stumble across this land
Questions answered when the time is right
Believing my angels will bring my soul love to flight
Written 2008
Carol Huizinga Sep 2010
At times when I was a child
They all thought I was a little wild
My mother thought I touched evil
To me this was unbelievable
I heard the voices in my head
Sometimes they were from the dead
Clearly they were speaking to me
Showing me what they wanted me to see
I tried to run and hide
Not understanding they were on my side
Crying myself to sleep
Hoping not to hear the floor creep
My door never to open wide
With no sight of something on the other side
So often I was misunderstood
I walked beneath my own hood
Covering my true self
Only to lose my good health
Withering I cowered in the dark
My human steps lost the spark
Thank goodness the voices never stopped
My tears they forever mopped
Somewhere in my mind clouded mind
I was shown I was one of a kind
Now when the voices in my head speak
People lay their hand upon my cheek
In earnest they listen to the words
Now people know I am not absurd
I have proven to them the other side
I am not taking them on a ride
They now have the choice
To listen to their angel’s voice
Written 2010
Carol Huizinga Jan 2011
Feels like I've never been this confused in my world
I feel like a childish little girl
Wandering emotions I don't want to touch
Please can my mind not be hushed
Your spoken words have blown my mind
Speaking of misunderstandings I cannot find
In the beginning it was all so simple
Now it is like digging for a lost temple
I don't know how to proceed
How to pick out the bad reeds
Inside I am burning resentment
Really why am I not feeling contentment
Approach is all you needed to change
To keep me within your range
Now I am lost, running, fleeing
Because of what I am seeing
But, there is always a but, you see
I know life begins within me
Looking forward to a new dawn
Fresh dew sparkling on the lawn
As I lie upon this broken ground
What was lost will be found
I am unsure what your future will be
You cannot only have pieces of me
Your energy must come up and around
Or forever you're lost, not to be found
Again the sword sweeps to search to and fro
Which direction do I send it to go
Inside I know though I feel so alone
With my heart just wanting to quit, turn to stone
I will walk a little further on
Knowing they'll bring me a true bond
That is all I have to say
As I walk forward on this day
Written 2010
Carol Huizinga Jul 2010
I bow my head before the alter
Sometimes I feel like I falter
Asking for guidance from high
So even to myself I do not lie
I sometimes feel lost and alone
Oh God what do I need to atone?
Blinded to only my footprints in the sand
I lost the grip of your kind hand
The diamonds have lost the sparkling light
Only the thunder and lightning left to fight
I crisscross each section
Of my emotion dejection
To find only it was I who let go
Simply that was the hardest blow
Why would I purposely walk away
From the love that forever has stayed
Seemingly I forgot the most basic rule
Leaving behind me the most important tool
I am created in perfection at it's best
Simply I have no need to feel anything less
From angels I am created in love
Answers coming quickly from above
I no longer stand dejected nor meek
It is peace and grace I will forever seek
Freedom in expressing who I am
Is now where I take my stand
If you have no understanding of this
You will never know my true bliss
I grasp tightly once again to the hand
Standing tall in pride of who I am
So my advice to you this day
Listen to the whispers follow the way
It will never lead you wrong
Be the only artist who writes your song
Carol Huizinga 2009
Carol Huizinga Jan 2011
In darkness I lie my head to sleep
Cannot always bring light to those who weep
Stumbling souls lost to human pains
Thinking only toward the insane
Emptiness in their emotion
Hoping for a new mixed potion
To bring them luck
Instead of being hit by a truck
Little do they realize and know
It's themselves who give the final blow
Hope is not a lost art
It is the place to start
To grow and prosper
Get your name on the roster
Live and learn
Or forever yearn
Written 2010
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
Walking down the river bed
I was trying to clear my head
Allowing good energy to flow
White spiraling light aglow
Trees stood around on tower
I stopped to smell a flower
I gazed into the river at the fish
Stopping long enough to make a wish
A prayer to my God above
To surround me in unconditional love
I felt his hand hold onto mine
Knowing nothing could stop my time
My soul truly does fly free
Heaven walks daily with me
I hope my words do not get caught
Within society's listless thoughts
I would lose my mind
True peace never to find
I no longer need to fight
People nor the world's plight
Tears will spill over the sins
Of how hatred and war wins
My spirit flowing on river tides
With pure energy I will glide
I will forever try to reach
Society's people I can teach
No longer needing to live in pain
They need no more blood to stain
For now along the river bed
They walk clearing their heads
Stopping only to smell the flowers
Truly feeling peace and power
Spirit whispers them above
To touch their own angels' love
Now they truly understand me
With all the beauty I do see
Carol Huizinga 2008
Carol Huizinga Jan 2011
You speak the words
My ears are the only ones that heard
I know my heart is not made of lead
I have only terrible fears in my head
How can you say those things?
And still say your heart does not sing
You said for me you felt sorry
How could you? I live in glory
Can you truly not see?
The real true depth of me
I know more than a little is hidden
Do you carry a sheild? Or are you forbidden?
The words you sometimes are speaking
Send my mind and body seeking
What is the purpose of this?
Something in me you have missed
You said I was different
A new message sent
Refreshing change from the norm
Not a crashing raging storm
Inside I can tuly see
The whispers that need to be
I know what to do with this voice
That has left me no choice
I am leaving and letting go
So you might understand one day and know
Written 2010
Carol Huizinga Sep 2016
You said I was not deep enough
Compassion for me was so tough
Maybe I needed more lessons
To see what you felt in my depression


You're thoughts became my thoughts
Emotionally I was wrought
But alas, let me tell you my dear
You're visions were not seeminly clear!

I did show you all of me
Did you ever see, all I can be?
I suppose it doesn't matter
As the friendship is tattered

So many times I wish to phone
Tell you of what it is like to walk alone
But then again you already know this
Fortunatley this life is not blissful

Lessons are learnt
Your visions are burnt
It was far away from the truth
Thank goodness I still have my youth

So I, myself can move forward
Then I no longer need to feel awkward
I am , who I am
I shall never be ******

Hindsight, it was meant too be
I never would have learned to see
Within this I am so happy
Now I can go *****

I will always send you light and love
Asking the angels to bring you above
Now what last words shall I say
Being a seer was not this Day!
Z
Carol Huizinga Sep 2010
Z
Watching your hair whispering in the wind
The blonde, the silver flying like sin
Before me you stand so tall and proud
You mirror my spirit so strong and loud
The kindness in your brown eyes I am bound
Teaching me lessons I have not yet found
You carry me to places I have never been
Leaving me dumbfounded with a silly grin
When my energy is not quite right
Your energy is about to take flight
Ready to stand up to me with your strength
Taking me to my emotional length
Generations stand behind you
Making your spirit pure and true
I climb upon your back
You always pick up all my slack
Wind whipping across my face
Tears stream from your present grace
Thankful that your spirit chooses me
Teaching me how beautiful it is just to be
We ride fast and furious
Leaving behind only the curious
Written 2010, to my best friend, my horse, the most beautiful palamino!!!!

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