Carol Huizinga

Carol Huizinga Oct 2010

You cannot hurt me
Because I can see
Within my soul
Others may not be gold
I am not blinded
Do you need to be reminded?
My lesson is learnt
This heart is not burnt
Nor will it ever
Hurt to that endeavor
Mirror mirror on the wall
I will never take that fall
I wiped away those stains
Never to produce pain
To another
Not you, nor sister, or brother
From very young that was my vow
Because of this I live in the NOW
I love those who cross my path
Good or bad you do the math
Questions? Do leopards change their spots
Or should they just be forgot
Left in the huge worldly pile
Of unawakened minds who cannot smile

Written 2010

Carol Huizinga Sep 2010

Pondering the puzzled puzzle

I see the point of direction
You visualize the pieces the sections
Of the puzzle you have been given
Although some of it remains hidden
I need to keep my soul free in flight
You struggle in what is wrong and right
In me there is so much more
When I finally stop having to close the door
When you might actually truly feel
What reality of what is real
There is only you and me
What exactly is meant to be
Neither of us knowing
Except what they, and we are showing
But sometimes we get off track
This I know as a fact
We each need to lead and follow
Each of us new things to swallow
We think, we ponder, we analyze
Me I know within what lies
Just as you know your ties
But unless we learn together
It will never be tethered
For us we both need the piece
Within each other’s reach
Trust in what is being shown
It will not be forever on a loan
IT is given as a fleeting chance
For us to have the first dance
IN whom we truly are
Yet we both keep so afar
Why do we ponder such a gift?
When we have been given a free lift
To rise above the given task
Instead of hiding within masks
Only time will tell the story
If we lose or win the glory

Written 2010

Carol Huizinga Sep 2010

Back to my world I go

Why did I?
Maybe because I wanted to try
Step out of the world I live
In many ways I am not sorry I did
Reflections of what I touch
Shining within me so much
What is so hard to understand?
The capabilities of this land
I see through different eyes
Only to myself did I lie
No one else to blame
I still remain the same
Or do I?
Why then do I cry?
I wanted the illusion
Of a true intrusion
To the depth of my being
What I am constantly seeing
Simply not so
Back into my world I go!

Written 2010

Carol Huizinga Sep 2010

pfffff

I am so confused as of late
How do I clean this slate?
Tears run rampid down my face
I have lost my own space
In my emotions I fumble
The voices in my head rumble
There has to be something wrong
Because I never seem to belong

Written 2010

Carol Huizinga Sep 2010

What I was and what I will be

At times when I was a child
They all thought I was a little wild
My mother thought I touched evil
To me this was unbelievable
I heard the voices in my head
Sometimes they were from the dead
Clearly they were speaking to me
Showing me what they wanted me to see
I tried to run and hide
Not understanding they were on my side
Crying myself to sleep
Hoping not to hear the floor creep
My door never to open wide
With no sight of something on the other side
So often I was misunderstood
I walked beneath my own hood
Covering my true self
Only to lose my good health
Withering I cowered in the dark
My human steps lost the spark
Thank goodness the voices never stopped
My tears they forever mopped
Somewhere in my mind clouded mind
I was shown I was one of a kind
Now when the voices in my head speak
People lay their hand upon my cheek
In earnest they listen to the words
Now people know I am not absurd
I have proven to them the other side
I am not taking them on a ride
They now have the choice
To listen to their angel’s voice

Written 2010

Carol Huizinga Sep 2010

Spirit Warrior

Comprehend the fight
In trying to make it all right
Growing up feeling alone
What you see, chills to the bone
Your path never an easy walk
Hard to find your voice to talk
Never truly expressing your sight
Of what you see in darkness and light
The dreams in your sleep
Make your soul constantly weep
I dropped by to tell you a little story
Of a knight surrounded in glory
I’ve seen the beauty of your soul
Within the energy waves my angels hold
They told me to whisper in your ear
Remind you of how God holds you dear
In simple pride you must stand tall
The beauty you show us all to reach
Spoken words of truth to us you teach
The love and devotion you give so much
Really makes the difference to all you touch
There will never be anything less
For you have always been blessed
Swing upon your white stallion
Show you wear God’s medallion
As you're running through the fields
Know you're within God’s shield
You only need to see and believe
It’s always been there for you to receive
I see you running strong and free my friend
Beauty and magnificence never to end
Within the grace of his hand
Your steed carries you across this land

Written 2010

Carol Huizinga Sep 2010

Darkness Hunts Us All

I am drowning in a dark pool
Taking the negative to a duel
I summon energy with all my might
Whom will win this final fight?
Behind me stands all that is good
They, in front wear the dark hood
I pray to my almighty mother
As we circle around each other
She continuously walks with me
Giving me the love I share I see
My heart’s strength cannot shatter
I will not be conquered or battered
For I speak the truth of life
Never remaining in your strife
For they silently follow
Ready to swallow
The lost souls are bound
Never again to be found
In darkness they are lost
Evil to them is boss
But I will never give in
Not ever to this sin
I grasp at the power
My soul never to sour
The sword is within my hand
Swinging no mercy where evil lands
Light and love
Always rises above
In us is always the smallest spark
It’s not always given to the dark
You might have won at a time
When self abuse was our crime
But now we stand strong in relief
That love and passion are our belief
You cannot have me or my friends
This is where your path ends
Go back where you came from
My cords are about to strum
As we spread our simple song
For those who have been waiting so long
Climbing this huge mountain
Being washed in mothers’ fountain
Souls full of serenity and peace
Across this land is now released
Whispers are now heard
On the wings of birds
A good riddance I bid the dark beings
The mother’s true light sending them fleeing
For within the swirling light
It was easy to take this flight
Because we have the upper hand
Spirits are the music of the band

Written 2010