Down by the lake, in the cottage made of stone
The porch is taken over by all the flowers grown.
The walkway needs weeded, and the chimney needs repairs
There are holes in the wood that we used to build the stairs.
The windows are fogged over from the dust in the air
Underneath the shade tree sits my worn out rocking chair.
Inside is full of cob webs, and smells of filthy must
The kitchen sink is tarnished, and covered in rust.
The bathrooms are molded from the absence of use
The wooden floors are covered with a thin coat of dew.
From the lack of attention and tender loving care
The beauty of the cottage has vanished in thin air.
If the time were taken to show how much we cared
The beauty of the cottage, and the warmth would still be there.
Over time it faded, the need of caring hands
Now down by the lake, the lonely cottage stands.

Look around you...
What is it that you see?
You think it's all of nature
About the birds and bees...
I see a beauty to most unknown
One inhibited from life
A peaceful reassurance
Seen only through my eyes.
None other can captivate
What before your eyes is shone
For deep inside the heart of life...
Lives a love to most unknown.
You cannot call it as you see it
For you see not what it is
My heart has the sight to see...
What before my eyes shall give.

Friendship as delicate as a rose
Seemingly smooth, and vibrant
Trusting in your touch
Fearing not the spoiling of purity
Holding closely, with gentle pressure
Petals of silk, a treasure they are
Just like that of you and me
Bound by stems and leaves
Holding together the perfect beauty
As for you and I, we are held together
bound by heart and soul
Like the rose, we are delicate
For friendship is worthy
to be smooth and vibrant
Loved and nurtured by the heart
It expands into something beautiful
Treasured memories
Un forgotten laughs and tears
Secrets never revealed
Shared moments for a lifetime
To trade this for a rose
Never, for the rose will wilt
losing  its beauty, left to die
Though our friendship is described
as that of a delicate rose
Our friendship will last
a lifetime, without fading
or wilting..nor becoming anything
less than beautiful...

In my mind you stay
Planted from the purest love
Nurtured by each thought
Strengthened with knowledge
Loved by my heart
Each moment you are thought of
you grow more and more
spreading through my mind
like wild flowers in a field
taking over, draping their beauty
As for you in my mind
you are my thought,
my comfort, and my beauty.
Having not to share you with the world
It is I, who loves you,
It is I, who sees you,
To everyone else you are not
the beauty that I see
For inside my mind
you are everything.
In my mind,
You are LOVE eternal,
The only love I have
ever known....
The one I desire,
need, want, and long for.
Every single day that I awake.
So in my mind you will
always stay the only love for me.

My sweet child, please don't  cry
For I am right here by your side
To take away all your pain
To bring you sunshine from the rain
I carry your heart everywhere I go
Holding it closely when I am feeling low
Your laughter brings music into my heart
Your smiles are the reason I cannot part
Everything about you is beautiful indeed
I am so proud of the life that you lead
Always remember when tears you have cried
Every single moment I was there by your side
Sometimes I would hold you right where you stand
Other times I'd take you by your sweet little hand
Giving you the comfort that I know you need
Taking your sorrows that your soul heeds
The times when your stares are hard to trace
It is I, who stands before your face
The person who brought you into this world
Has loved you since, as her little girl
So when you're scared and you just wanna hide
Please know I am right there by your side.

Picking you up
Tears fall down my face
As I look into your eyes
The ones I once loved
There is nothing.

Holding you in mid air
I ask, "WHY?"
Angry and hurt, I curse you
It was my heart, my heart
Not yours....never yours.

The beautiful smiles
The innocent heart
Dying just to be loved
Lips like that of rose petals
No other soul so complete.

As I hold you in my hands
The reflection I see, is not you
Lest mine eyes misjudge the reflection
It is evil that lurks about you
Slithering through your veins.

Afraid of my discovery
I fall to my knees
Asking God for the forgiveness
Of the crime I am about to commit
Killing the only one I ever truly loved.

Holding you higher, I glare into your eyes
Once what was beautiful, is now evil
I loved you, I needed you, you killed me
Now your death awaits you
Here in my own loving hands.

As I lower you into my arms
I look deep into your eyes
The Porcelain doll I once loved
Who's beauty captivated the world
Most of all, captured my heart.

Your head I bash onto the floor
Awaiting to hear you scream
Each time I bash, I yell every word
that reminds me of who you truly are
Deceitful, liar, dishonest, and fake.

To your death I take you
Leaving you no time to beg
As for me, I am once again complete
Knowing that you cannot hurt me anymore
I am strong, and I will survive.

As for you, my sweet, little porcelain doll
You shall forever be nothing more
Than pieces of my life that I ripped apart
thrown into a plastic bag
Buried in your favorite rose garden.

Everyday as I walk passed this garden
That we so lovingly planted together
I smile, not in remembrance of you
But in remembrance of the life
you gave to me, and the death I gave to you....

My little Porcelain Doll.

From this moment on I am yours
To you, my life I now give
I promise to love you forever, my dear
As long as we both shall live.

To give my heart to only you
To be the one who makes you smile
To let you know I love you so
I will go the extra mile.

Kiss you after a long days work
Hug as though we have never touched
Lay beside you as you sleep
For you are the life I love so much.

Even when our bodies have withered
We've become senile and wrinkled too
There will be no other place on earth
Except the place I share with you.

Our love will leave impressions deep
For no one shall ever forget
The most beautiful love shared on this earth
Began when the two of us met.

At the end of our journey together
We will find comfort in knowing
That even when we have parted the earth
In the Heavens our love is still growing.

As long as we both shall live, my love
Are the words I speak to you,
For I know that even when death arrives
Our love shall see us through.

We will leave this earth, not each other
And to you my life I now give,
I promise to love you forever, my dear
Knowing forever we both shall live.

An image painted on a canvas
For the whole world to see
Is the image what they notice
Or is it what truly lies beneath
On the outside there's beauty
Radiating a hint of happiness
Filled with life and enthusiasm
Enjoyed by all who see, or notice
The hands that created this masterpiece
Must have been solid, and stern
For the wall that holds this canvas
Has a black lining the eyes can't see
Bitterness, shallow, and heartless
Covered with a coating of gold
To the human eye to seem like perfection
For there is no happiness within
An abundance of repentance
that grows under this image,
stretching high up along the walls
The image of everlasting beauty
Trees swaying in the background
Beautiful flowers blooming abundantly
The sun shining as though just ripened
Birds soaring through the air,
chirping this magical, mystical morning
Dew lying upon the image
leaving a sparkle to catch the eye
The image seen as it is wanted to be seen
Painted from the mind of someone
needing perfection taking nothing less
Knowing you can't cut a stone with scissors
Or fly like a bird without wings
You can't even create perfection
When there is no such a thing.
Minus all the beauty that this image holds
Would your attention be captured the same
If by fascination you could see with it
Without it what would you see
A canvas hanging on a wall alone
No beauty within or without
Black walls that line the canvas, no image
Empty, rebellious, alone
Fascination is taken away by reality
Once the image becomes clear it is no longer
an image, nor perfection you see
Though now noticeable the canvas
rests on the wall that is lined in black
Plain as the sky on a glorious day
The canvas holds no image of beauty
No image of any kind
It was merely what someone wanted you to see
Hoping that in reality the image
would always be there, stay the same
Beautiful, happy, loving
Speaking a thousand words just
from what your mind captured
It is now faint to the eyes, clear
That this canvas is nothing more
than a dishonest piece of work.

As I set here feeling all alone
I'm thinking of all the moments..
When we held each other and laughed
til we ached with joy...
and tears trickled down our faces.

Remembering the way you smile
at me...like it is the first time
every chance you get.
And the way you kiss me
like it is the last chance...
Every chance I give.

Remembering all the sweet words
you say to me...
But even more, the way you say them.

I pray, one day, we can think back
on these moments...
As we sit in silent comfort,
Holding each other close, because
it's all we know to do..
Through all the rough times our love
abides... stronger than anything else
ever could.

Remembering how you look
deep into my eyes...
But even more, how it makes me feel.

Remembering the way that you touch
my face,
And the way that I hold yours...
when we make love.
Or when you whisper in my ear,
just to say "you love me"..
And the way it makes me smile.

Now, I want you to remember the way
I look at you,
With big eyes and a bottomless heart...
Always wondering if you know how
truly wonderful I think you are.
And although I've hurt you more than
I ever wanted to do...
I want you to remember.....
I love you now and forever...
Like it's never going to hurt.

Love, you proclaim
Boastful and arrogant
Love, it's not
Imagination, maybe
or could it be
the belief that it's
LOVE?

Love, you hide
Scared and pathetic
Love, it's not
a desire, perhaps
or just the feeling
of guilt, so you pretend
it's LOVE?

Love, you know not
Selfish and greedy
Love, it's not
Feeling proud,
I sense, for you give
nothing in return
for my generosity
That of which is LOVE!!!!!

To make a kind heart
First you will need
Tender loving care
With a pinch of good deeds.
A handful of smiles
A cup of warm love
An ounce of effort
Without substitutes above.
Now together you mix
Until all is blended
This will make kindness
Ever so splendid.
Combine a  half cup trust
With a half cup honesty
By spoon fulls drop
Lots of generosity.
To complete the mixture
Add the main part
To the life of kindness
You must add the heart.

Wretched and withered soul
Why has thou been created?
God must have had a blank moment
As your life he contemplated.

While in the midst of his discretion
Or the blanks that he once drew
There was no better soul to forget
Than the wretched and withered you.

There were lives given for reasons
Each and everyone included a heart
As you fell astray, and withered away
God must have forgotten that part.

They say, "Evil is as evil does,"
It wears a face of black
It shall ponder in Hell forever
Without ever looking back.

Wasted time, and pointless creation
God's  work here is all done
When the book of life is opened up
For you, there will be none.

You'll stand before him shaky
Scared and so alone
When he calls out the names of Good
You're name shall never be shown.

As Evil comes to take you away
You'll ask, "Evil, must I go with you?"
God will stare you in the face
And answer, "Yes, I'm afraid you do!"

Though you'll question his decision
Your head, you'll hang in shame
But in your wretched, withered soul
You'll have no one else to blame.

God loves all, who love themselves
Gives good to those who believe
For those who lose there way somehow
The pits of hell they receive.

As I'm led away from the pearly gates
Where many people will be waiting for me
They shall see the hand of Evil in mine
Leading me where I deserve to be.

You could take this life and end it now
You know, the one that you created
The wretched and withered soul
That you so strongly contemplated.

The one that while in creation
You must have drawn a blank
Because someone like me, is not God's work
I only have Evil to thank.

You say I cannot love you,
Lest your heart judge thine own,
For love is more than just a word,
From the heart and soul be shown.

I stand before my Prince today
Arms open like the wings of a dove,
Praying that in my arms you'll fall
Giving me timeless hours of love.

If but just a dream I seek
Tomorrow shall be tears of pain,
Thy heart will shrivel of death
Thy love will die in vain.

Join me my love, this day
Except the love that I hold dear,
For naught in timeless hours
Shall place your heart so near.

I bid thee a love that shall be eternal
A love full of lastingness and power,
Our souls shall rule for eternity
While our hearts dance in timeless hours.

When I fell asleep last night
I had the most amazing dream
We sat together peacefully
By the rose petal stream.
The sky was baby blue
Not a cloud in sight
The sun draped our bodies
As it shone ever so bright.
The grass was soft as cotton
Yet as green as it could be
The trees were full of color
For only our eyes to see.
The birds, chirping love songs
Soft breeze in the air
Our dreamland was so beautiful
As only you and I were there.

Today will be the beginning of forever
Where we shall find truth in all we do
Nothing will stand in our way
We will be complete....

Today will be the beginning of a new life
A door will open that leads to love
Nothing will stand in our way
We will be complete....

Today will be the beginning of US
To abide in each other in all we do
Nothing will stand in our way
We will be complete....

Today will be the beginning of tomorrow
Each day that shall follow there after
Nothing will stand in our way
We will be complete....

I awaken
Sweaty and week
Dreaming of you
Your heart I seek

Now this day

Loving you
Desiring you
Your touch
Leaves me mesmerized

Lips of ecstasy
Tremble...
The taste so sweet
Beating heart

Stop me now

This day
Let my heart
Belong to you
For it is love

Love I seek
With you
Holding you
Craving all of you

Forever this day

You take me
To unknown places
Only my soul
Could ever crave

Back to sleep
To live the dream
With you
Forever

This day...

I sleep
Dreaming of
You and I
In love..forever

Never awake
For this is
all I know
Right now...

Dream my sweet
With me
Feel the love
That I have

Crave with me

Forever...

If from your lips came tenderness
Or sweet poison to my soul
The spell you cast, I'm already under
My heart you've but stole.                    

Though if my lips are sealed
To my neck this poison you offer
It shall flow into my veins so smooth
Reaching my heart there after.

A thief in the night to greet me
With such desires as this
When all the while, it was the thief
Who held the poisoned kiss.

The spell you wish to cast dear thief
Is that which I cannot refuse
For if you stare deep into my soul
I already belong to you.

When the world around you becomes dark and gray
You feel as though you've been led astray.
Don't let the hardship bring you down
For there is always a way to turn it around.
Your strength and courage can pull you through
Hold your head up in all that you do.
Friends will stand right by your side
Fight the fight with you far and wide.
You shalt not stand alone in the fight
So take my hand and hold on tight.
I'll be the angel who gives you wings
To help you soar above everything.
When the fight is said and done
You'll now in the end that you have won!

Your beauty invites me
Beckoning me into your surroundings...
Anxious to make a wish upon this beautiful well
Taken by its wondrous reflections
I cease everything that I am....
The well, that of which, is you.

Savoring the peacefulness
Absorbing every drop of you...
For into the wishing well I wish to drown
A single coin tossed in your presence
Tarnished by your beauty...
The desired coin, that of which, is me.

Presence of a drifter
Admiring the beauty of the well...
Prays for the granting of his wish upon us
Dropping a single red rose in exchange
To lie with us forever....
The red rose, that of which, is our dream.

You brush against me gently          
A hint of what you need,
Our bodies feel inspired
By the passions that we heed.

Your eyes, they cross me softly
Bringing chills upon my spine
For just to feel you touch me
Is a feeling one of a  kind.

So, sweep your hands across me
Your finger tips on my skin,
Plant your hands within my soul
Bury your love deep within.

Make love to me all through the night
And when the night shall end
Hold me in your arms so tight
Never letting go again.

I do not seek your company
Nor do I seek your time
All I seek is your soul
I want to make it mine.

Come, walk with me
In darkness, and cold
Feel a life of emptiness
Your hand I shall not hold.

You'll crawl like a pathetic maggot
Through my fleshy droppings
Bowing at my feet, you need me
For now there is no stopping.

You seek to find me everywhere
When I am not around
For summoned into evil
Forever you are bound.

Now I seek your company
I shall always seek your time
Pathetic maggot you've become
Wallowing in my grime.

It was you who beckoned me
Begging for me to appear
Now that I have come for you
Your request you must adhere.

I recall the good insisting
That you please not beckon me
Since you did not take the advice
You now belong to me.

I can mold you any way I choose
make you anything I please
You are now a pathetic maggot
A server unto me.

Once you beckoned unto me
Your soul you did sell
The time has come for you
To rot away in hell.

The mirror reflects the image
The image defaced
A blur, invisible, a mistake

The mirror shows all
All is everything about you
Nothing, little, a coward

The mirror is truth
Truth is what I believe
All, but nothing  from you

The mirror holds your future
Your future is doomed
Flames, screaming, helpless

The mirror allows you one call
One call to whom it counts
Not me, no way, someone else

The mirror breaks before you
You, who is pathetic and low
****, death rot, vanished

The mirror reflects the image
The image now beautiful
For without you, I reflect

My life that's just so hectic
Is far from calming down
Stress levels overflow
Aggravated by every sound.

My head like a volcano
ready to errupt to the max
what I wouldn't give for
Just one day to relax.
                                                      
No kids yelling, "Mommy"
Laundry that's already clean
A house so immaculate
Not even dust is seen.

Dishes washed and put away
The floors all nicely swept
Everything in its place
Exactly where its kept.

A massage for the body
Jacuzzi for the mind
A drug to make me stressless
It doesn't matter what kind.

Slave-free environment
No duties to acquire
Living just ONE day of freedom
To do what I desire.

Perhaps I wake up feeling lazy
Or I wake up wanting to shop
It will be my choice to do
whatever until I drop.

If the house turns to chaos
Or crashes to the ground
At least I'll know that when it did
ONE day of freedom I had found.

I saw you once in a dream,
Delicate, sweet face of innocense,
Drawing my heart to the palm of your hands....
Holding it there...
Mesmerized!


Sitting at your knee, staring into your eyes,
Magical webs you weave,
Taking me from my self-imposed solitude,
thrusting me into a rainbow's-journey....
Delightful!


Hours spent within your existence drift away,
Delicate, sweet face of innocense darkens in the fires glow,
Stillness cocoons us, entrapping us in thoughtfulness;
My heart in your hands, your eyes fill my soul..
Spellbound!


With the glow of the fire the night descends upon us
In this hour, this place becomes ours,
Together our souls blend deeply into one
To the precious, lasting moments, of US..
Picture perfect!


I saw you once in a dream, and I shall see you again.....

Away at a distance,
Everyday he sets alone,
Leaning up against
A heart that's made of stone.

He reads a book each day,
He often lays to rest,
Does he grieve the loss of love,
Or is life his only test?

Passing by one afternoon,
I turned to him and smiled,
His eyes were filled with sadness
As he spoke, “I'm ok my child.”

Was he feeling lonely,
Or was his heart full of fear
For what was all his heartache,
And why the saddened tears.

Today starts a new day,
The distance is all alone,
No one there to occupy
The heart that's  made of stone.

Did he find his happiness,
Is he at peace within his heart,
Are his sad eyes smiling now,
With his heartache, did he part?

For the books he read each day,
Were not just books you read,
They held photos and memories
of his life that he did grieve.

Now the distance is empty,
But his presence will never be gone,
For his life and his love remain in
The heart that's made of stone.

Each day he carried his memories
Never leaving them alone,
For they lay to rest inside
The heart that's made of stone.

What beneath my feet doth hold
Thy body strong, and steady
When all the while I feel weak
Thy palms are warm and sweaty.
Feverish feeling all over my body
Clammy skin, to touch so cool
Skin as pale as the fairest of them all
Faint, and falling like a fool.
No more strong and steadiness
Lanky with eyes that droop
A body so frail and fragile now
Above thy life does beauty group.
Taking my hand, lifting me to my feet
Strength now rushes over me
Whence all the while it was dream
Allowing my heart and soul to see.
Hidden behind a closed door
My life seems as described above
Once the dream took over my mind
There was nothing more than love.
Waiting to capture my heart and soul
To refrain me from seeing anything less
Now I understand the meaning of ones self
Open your heart, for your life shall be blessed.

Beautiful white gown, flowing so fair,
Babies breath wrapped in my hair
Lovely flowers, I hold in my hands,
Awaiting the hour that we shall both stand
Vowing our love, underneath open sky,
As doves in flight pass us by
True love has met it's glorious day
Knowing that forever, it's here to stay
Feeling the air breath on our skin,
The sun, to our souls, sinking within
As we vow to each other to always be true
From this day forward, it's me and you
A chance to make a brand new start
With love to over flow each others hearts
Before you, I stand, to walk down the isle
My true love awaits, with a gorgeous smile
My heart is singing from deep within,
For this is the moment our life will begin
My journey starts, towards my love so true
Tears fill my eyes, each step closer to you
On this day, my dream has come true
To marry a man as wonderful as you
Now together we stand, side by side
We say our vows with honor and pride
To have your name, now as my own
We kiss with passion, our love is shown
Down the isle, now as one
Our lifelong journey has just begun.
Beautiful day, wondrous start
We are now the owners of one big heart
To envision a love, so perfect and true
This is my dream for when I marry you.