Lost upon the long waves.
Waiting for that long awaited day.
To be found and back to life.
To see it crumble back before your eyes.

My fear has intruded me.
I'm lost in another haze.
The days become cold.
I'm drifting away.

I've been locked away.
The waves are real far away.
What do they look like in May?
I can't see them till the time I get away.

Lost inside a bundle of dreams.
Never to be found it seems.
Across the sea to the land of dreams.
Only to be woken in a pile of flames.

Never to see the beauty that lies.
Far on the way to be ignored.
Just like the lies and the cries.

When you're down it also means you're blue. The sky is blue. So doesn't that mean it's down too.

He ***** me.
He made me feel like I had to speak those ways.
He told me I was beautiful.
He said I was worth more.
I feel empty now.
I'm numb from the pain.
The images of guns to his head.
Cuts on his wrists.
They won't leave.
The cigarettes he would always send photos of.
He made me guilty.
I was forced to talk ****** to him.
He killed my feelings.
It is so hard to trust now.
He makes me feel useless.
The nudes he sent scar me.
I can never get it out my head.
He threatened to **** himself.
I'm lost in all the guilt.
I will never be clean again.
I feel *****.
I've never been *****.
What did I do to deserve this?