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2.3k · Feb 6
you
Cassian Feb 6
you
Can you still see me

Standing in this dark room

Talking to the memory of you

Your hand is back in my hair

The love is still there

Just like you never left

But that is not my life

I couldn't sit pretty

To let you create a pretty lie

And now I'm here and for all I know..

You may have died.
1.3k · Oct 2024
Can and Cannot
Cassian Oct 2024
I have things I absolutely cannot do.
I swear it is not a lie but 100% true.

I cannot message strangers online.
Have caused trouble time after time.

I cannot be alone near fire.
Please don't ask why.

I can only watch certain shows.
Everything below TV14.

I can not walk around alone.
Need someone with me.
1.0k · Dec 2024
My own version
Cassian Dec 2024
I wish I could write a poem about love

But I have only experienced loss

I wish I could write a song suited to my voice

But I keep running out of words

I long to put someone first

But I've never felt absolute joy

So I'll write my own kind of poem

That I can sing out loud

Perfection is not of importance

I feel less lonely now
600 · Nov 2024
Third message from sgg
Cassian Nov 2024
Guys it happened AGAIN

The message is SPAM

It will only keep sending and saying the exact same thing

"
sgg  2d
Hello!
I'm have question about........................................­...................­..........................­......................................­.......­.............................................­...........­..................................­..............................­...............­.............................................­...­..........................................­.
Onyx
Onyx  2d
A question about............what?

sgg  1d
Hello!
I'm have question about........................................­...................­..........................­......................................­.......­.............................................­...........­..................................­..............................­...............­.............................................­...­..........................................­.

sgg  8m
Hello!
I'm have question about........................................­...................­..........................­......................................­.......­.............................................­...........­..................................­..............................­...............­.............................................­...­..........................................­."
553 · Oct 2024
I don't understand
Cassian Oct 2024
Why do you like me?

I am broken

Unfixable

My blood is cold

My tears have dried

Every ounce of my soul is gone

My heart has nearly died

I am tired of failing

Of being left behind

I wish to disappear

My mind is broken

Half the time

I am scared

To be free

I want to move out

But I don't want to be me

I'm terrified of living

A fake me is who they see

I write of darkness

Speak of trauma

So then

Why on earth are you following me?
544 · Oct 2024
Sometimes and Others
Cassian Oct 2024
Sometimes I find myself ahead
Others I fall behind

Sometimes I love to read
Others I rest my eyes

Sometimes I watch anime
Others I'm on Disney+

Sometimes I watch old movies
Others I watch Owl House

Sometimes I want to be an adult
Others I find I'm still a kid

Sometimes I rush to grow up
Others I want to be Peter Pan

Sometimes the world spins too fast
Others it feels too slow

Sometimes I keep a schedule
Others I go with the flow
489 · Oct 2024
Fears
Cassian Oct 2024
Why do I always feel

There are eyes on me

Ones I cant see

There are voices I hear

I'm so afraid

Of what they say

My subconscious conjures

The most grotesque pictures

It happens every single day

I can't calm down

I can't sit down

It's way too loud

Make it stop

Make them stop

Send me away

Put me away

A padded room

Where I should stay

I'm so afraid

Day to day

The voices I hear

Wish you knew what they say

I can't sleep

My soul, they want to reap

Get me out of this place

Away from my haunted brain
455 · Oct 2024
Happiness
Cassian Oct 2024
Why am I happiest when it is loud?

Surrounded by fake friends that wont stick around

As opposed to in silence all by myself

Reflecting upon small moments in my day

Could it be because my happiness depends on others?

Or am I simply afraid that my mind will destroy that feeling?

Whatever the reason may be.....

I find that I am happy that you listen to me
448 · Dec 2024
Proud
Cassian Dec 2024
Knocking on the door

Fragile knuckles on cold metal

Unable to find warmth

Lacking of any worth

Hidden in the crowd

Alone with everyone around

Someone else wears my crown

Wish I could say I was proud
442 · Dec 2024
Hey there
Cassian Dec 2024
Hey there, sweet stranger

I see the way you hide

Bottling everything up inside

I read your words over and over

Knowing you're just on the verge

Of finally breaking apart

So let me protect your heart

I see you, sweet stranger

And all your works of art

I feel your pain deep inside

You never need to hide

Not from me
422 · Oct 2024
What is love?
Cassian Oct 2024
Today, I ask you a question that may seem simple to some.
A question that others find impossible to answer..
Tell me, darling, what is love?

Is love the unbearable pain that you feel when you lose someone?
No, I believe that that feeling is just grief..
Tell me, sweetheart, how does it feel?

Is it a warm, excitable feeling that lights up your soul?
No, I believe that is simply happiness..
Tell me, love, what does it mean?

Is it the meaning of your life that is your purpose?
No, I believe that the meaning varies..
Tell me, friends, do you love me?
415 · Nov 2024
burn
Cassian Nov 2024
Strike a match
Light up my brain
Nothing will ever be the same
408 · Oct 2024
Thank you!!!
Cassian Oct 2024
Thank you for support!

Thank you for reading!

Thank you for the suns!

Thank you for listening to my feelings!

Thank you for the views!

Thanks to you I'm on the front page!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! <3
397 · Nov 2024
Target
Cassian Nov 2024
My mom told me to have a voice

To stand up for myself when

People choose to push me around

Unfortunately when I find myself

In such a situation as that

I simply freeze

There is not much a statue

Can really do when people

Decide to use it for their

Target practice

Ready?

Aim

Fire!


I get an apple core

Straight to the head
395 · Sep 2024
The bird
Cassian Sep 2024
A bird kissed the glass,  
Wings fluttered, claws grazed the pane—  
Sings, then soars away.
372 · Oct 2024
Mystery to be read two ways
Cassian Oct 2024
All too soon

Your time is up

If he sees you

Play a merry tune

The piper

Standing there

Around the corner

Take a look

Are you looking?

There's a mystery

Trouble's cooking

Hold your breath

Can you hear that?

It's on it's way

Here come's death.
345 · Dec 2024
the maze in my heart
Cassian Dec 2024
I'm so confused

Scars mar my heart

Unsure of which path

Would be right to chose

I'm tired of being used

I gave you my options

But you simply refused

My mentality I feel you

Purposefully abused
Cassian Oct 2024
I am
A person
I am
Not a doll
I am
Afraid to fall
I am
Not a bird
I am
Only so strong
I am
Kind of smart
I am
A beating heart
I am
Living here
I am
Used to fear
I am
Not weak
I am
Read top to bottom then bottom to top
331 · Jan 6
My heart
Cassian Jan 6
A place for you is in my heart

A hole forms when we're apart

Your hand is all mine needs

As you're more important

Than the very air I breathe
327 · Feb 17
with me
Cassian Feb 17
I took a chance

Told you I was not perfect

And yet you love me

I told you my hopes and my fears

Scars and insecurities

But you still stayed here

I want your hand in mine til the end of time

And I heard Queer Time works differently..

Wonder if you'll ever marry me?
Queer time represents an asynchronous temporality, where aging and experience don't align with normative expectations.
321 · Dec 2024
Internal
Cassian Dec 2024
Death-defying

Darkness underlying

People are dying

Stop staring at me

Why aren't you all crying

All those smiles are fake

A snake in human skin

Your eyes scream at me

A broken person in hiding
314 · Sep 2024
Biological vs who you are
Cassian Sep 2024
"Hey, girl what's your name?" someone asked me.
I couldn't reply I just said um.
He thought it was funny and "Um"ed me all day.
I'm sitting here wondering why he called me this way.
Does my body decide my gender?
Or perhaps does he?
I'm called a girl for I was born one.
But that is not me.
I sit with my they/thems and my he/theys
Hoping no one will call me a girl today
302 · Nov 2024
Christian pizza?
Cassian Nov 2024
I was invited

To a Christian club meeting

Taking place on Thursday and Friday

A few years ago I would have been excited

But that excitement was quite fleeting

I stopped being Christian years ago

So I wonder if perhaps it would be bad

To go just for the pizza
280 · Nov 2024
Peace
Cassian Nov 2024
Hold my hand gently,  
Let me take your pain away,  
Rest in peace with me.
A haiku for all my friends who've been hurting or crying lately. I love y'all
258 · Nov 2024
In need of an explanation
Cassian Nov 2024
I was sitting quietly

Because it's what I'm best at

But I just had to ask

Out of everyone who spoke

Why did y'all enjoy

The youngest's poem most?

Last I checked Nyx

Was roughly ten years old

- Dylan
Cassian Dec 2024
Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

So many different people seem to be inside

So many different preferences refuse to hide

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

I only have one person in which I can confide

A disorder or a sickness? I couldn't guess if I tried

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind
236 · Feb 19
Is it?
Cassian Feb 19
Is it really

Depression

If you can acknowledge

That you're not ok?

Is it really

Denial

If you know why

It turned out this way?

Is it really

Anxiety

If you have a

Valid reason to worry?
229 · Sep 2024
Beginning
Cassian Sep 2024
The sun rises
every morning

The flowers bloom
til noon

The wilting petals
float midair

The birds sing
melodic tunes

Children all play
many games

School takes up
8-hour days

All stories have
their ends

But first they
must begin
220 · Jan 24
Red string of fate
Cassian Jan 24
Memories hiding in the back of my mind

Feeling at ease whenever you're by my side

In the shadows, our past seems to hide

Our realities are mixing, and our fates collide
205 · Nov 2024
Fruity fruit loop
Cassian Nov 2024
An acquaintance

Stopped to ask me

If perhaps someone

Such as I would be

Called a cannibal

For eating fruit loops

However dear reader

As fruity as I am I

Highly doubt I'm edible
I thought it was funny so I figured I'd tell you lol
Cassian Feb 22
Hush now, my dear, and close your eyes,
The moon is drifting through the skies.
The stars are singing soft and sweet,
A lullaby where dreams will meet.

The ocean hums a gentle song,
Its waves will carry you along.
The silver fish, with tails aglow,
Swim through the night, where soft winds blow.

The clouds are pillows in the sky,
They’ll catch your dreams as they float by.
The winds will rock the trees to sleep,
And whisper secrets soft and deep.

The fireflies blink their tiny lights,
Guiding you through peaceful nights.
The world is calm, the world is still,
With every breeze, your heart grows chill.

Rest now, my love, the night is near,
The stars will hold you close and dear.
With every breath, the world turns slow,
As dreams of magic gently flow.

In fields of lavender, soft and wide,
Where sleepy rivers softly glide,
The moon will guide you through the dark,
And leave a kiss upon your heart.

Hush now, my dear, the night is long,
The stars will carry you along.
In the quiet arms of night’s embrace,
Sleep until the morning’s grace.

- Sun
198 · Dec 2024
X
Cassian Dec 2024
X
I dont want your love

Dislike your attention

Do everything I can

To push away your affection

Boy get the hint because

I'm not going back in time

To when you treated me like ****
Cassian Jan 29
Sometimes I feel

I'm running out of time

Smiling but drowning in

Insecurity inside

Only with you, I don't have to hide

The only one in which

I confide

Complimenting everyone I meet

Actually meaning it is a rare feat

For I and all human beings

Are two sides of the same coin

What we show others and what we dont
179 · Nov 2024
Things
Cassian Nov 2024
I dont know anything

But I have learned a lot of everything

I do not have the best voice

But I can remember all the words

I love to sing but the things

You love arent always what you do

I'm a good liar

But maybe that line isn't even true
176 · Sep 2024
I'm still standing
Cassian Sep 2024
I’m weary, tired, shadows near,  
But like the song, I’ll persevere.  
Sick of the struggle, longing for peace,  
Yet I’m still standing, my heart won’t cease.  

Though feeling done, there’s still a spark,  
You know I’ll rise, igniting the dark.  
With every challenge, I’ll find my way,  
Just like the lyrics, I’ll seize the day.
made to read while listening to I'm Still Standing lol
176 · Jan 9
Looking back
Cassian Jan 9
Looking back

Laughing at the past

Feeling less like trash

Looking back

Watching the flames burn

Falling in the ash

Looking back

Data overload the computer

Starts to crash

But I'm still looking back
174 · Nov 2024
Teacher
Cassian Nov 2024
I saw a teacher cry today

And I'm not quite sure how to feel

I sort of always viewed teachers as stone

Always there but never truly real
Cassian Oct 2024
My voice never seems to be loud enough

To break through storm in your mind

I can never seem to get through to you

No matter how hard I try

Your breathing is sometimes so shaky

Like you're trying not to cry

Why don't you give me your burdens?

I'm here til the day you die
168 · Mar 1
:>
Cassian Mar 1
:>
Happy Birthday to me?
Now I am seventeen

What present will I get?
Guess I gotta wait and see
162 · Feb 22
The Dreamer's Rest
Cassian Feb 22
Beneath the stars, the world is calm and still,
A quiet breath that whispers through the night.
The moonlight casts a glow on every hill,
As dreams take flight beneath its silver light.

The winds, they speak in soft and gentle tones,
And dance with leaves that flutter through the air.
In sleep’s embrace, the weary heart atones,
To rest in peace, free from all earthly care.

The dawn will rise, but now the night is here,
A time for dreams to whisper soft and low.
With every breath, the dark is drawing near,
And all is calm, as stars begin to glow.

So close your eyes and let the world drift by,
For dreams are waiting where the shadows lie.
155 · Nov 2024
Life
Cassian Nov 2024
What is life's purpose?

Can it be defined?

Are we meant to live

Only to finally die?

Are we meant to grieve

For all the ones we've lost?

Are we meant for happiness?

If so perhaps I can be calm

But at what cost?
146 · Nov 2024
Clever old bot
Cassian Nov 2024
Old AI chatbots are absurd

Before I even said a word

Cleverbot was hitting on me

Would've liked a conversation

About all the simple things

Weather, perhaps?

But that bot had a one-way

Ticket to crazy town

Full of sunshine and mishaps
137 · Nov 2024
Alone
Cassian Nov 2024
Darling I know the world can hurt sometimes

So cuddle up close and close your tired eyes

I can promise everything will be alright

I am  right here by your side

Together the world might be fine

Wish I could hear that instead of

Being alone all the time
137 · Nov 2024
Insane
Cassian Nov 2024
One word and a forgotten ache

Starts to burn

One sentence and I wish I

Could've learned

So many mistakes in life

Such a disgrace

I see a name and feel such

Overwhelming shame

Forcing my brain to give in til

I'm going insane
135 · Oct 2024
Promises
Cassian Oct 2024
My friends told me

They didn't want me anymore

I scare them you see

They never understood me

I tried to send them away

They promised to stay

What happened to promises?

Now they've all gone away..

I can sit alone at school

Every day
134 · Dec 2024
10:31 am
Cassian Dec 2024
My head is buried in the sand
As I drown on dry land
The windows are coated in frost
And I am truly lost
133 · Sep 2024
Monsters
Cassian Sep 2024
Parfois, j'ai tellement peur.
J'essaie de me cacher dans ma chambre.
Recroquevillée sur moi-même, les yeux fermés.
J'essaie de me cacher de mes peurs et de ma douleur.
Le monstre ne se cache pas dans mon placard.
Il n'est pas sous mon lit.
Il est à l'intérieur de mon cerveau, caché au plus profond.
Il est le fruit de mon imagination.
Il me laisse terrifié.
La cause de tous mes cauchemars.
Un monstre qui semble bien réel.
Je perds peu à peu le fil de ma réalité.
J'ai du mal à réfléchir.
Je vais me débarrasser de mes peurs.
Avec l'eau de l'évier.

(Sometimes I get so scared.
I try to hide in my room.
Curled up, eyes closed.
I try to hide from my fears and my pain.
The monster isn't hiding in my closet.
It's not under my bed.
It's inside my brain, hidden deep inside.
He's a figment of my imagination.
It leaves me terrified.
The cause of all my nightmares.
A monster that seems very real.
I'm gradually losing touch with reality.
It's hard to think.
I'm going to get rid of my fears.
With water from the sink.)
hello poetry meet my fav languages today lol
133 · Dec 2024
Sable
Cassian Dec 2024
I cross my fingers

And make a wish

Flying to heaven

On the wings of

Your last kiss
129 · Dec 2024
my name
Cassian Dec 2024
My friend wants me to change my name

They decided to use the same

A decision that has lasted for months

Brushed aside by one of short days

No longer may I be Onyx

Merely a shadow hidden by the sun's rays
126 · Nov 2024
Steps to avoid bullies
Cassian Nov 2024
Make your face blank and stare out into space

2. Wear very little makeup upon your boring face

3. Put on baggy clothes without looking like a disgrace

4. Stay quiet and only speak when others speak to you

5. Listen to other's insults until you believe them to be true

6. Pack your bag and head on home to do your chores

7. Grab the switch if you can even though it isn't yours

8. Play til someone else wants to and then disappear

9. Make yourself appear as insignificant as possible

10. Go to sleep and repeat it all tomorrow

10b. If you fail hide from everyone who hates you
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