Is it too much to ask that you be proud of me?

Sadly I still think of you.
After everything you've said to me,
I still think about you.
Why?

I've figured out what another one of my many problems.
I'm afraid, because I don't trust myself...

If your were to ask me what I value most in life,
I'd tell you it's not the possessions or the clothes I have,
It's not the talent or passion for music,
It's not even my dearest friends that I value most.
It's me.
I value me.
I have a right to,
However I would take a bullet for you.
So I don't value me that much..

Don't get frustrated with yourself,
Just keep trying.
And don't be afraid to try.
Remember that.

I still want us to be friends,
I want to have that connection,
We've come so far.
But you don't ******* care anymore..
I'm sorry.

I'm the one what dishes out advice like money from a billionaire.
Yet I am broke..