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Caitlin Feb 2014
You
Can
Never
See
The
Real
Me

If
You
Do
It
Will
*******
Me

You
Can't
Know
What
I
Feel

You
Can't
Know
What
I
Think

You
Can't
Know

You
Can't
No specific *you* in this, *you* is anyone
Caitlin Feb 2014
She sits, at the end of her porch
Waiting for the day when everything
Will fall into place

He sits, only inches away from his phone
Waiting for the text
That may never arrive

She stands, finally
Deciding to do something
So all will fall in to place

He stands, deciding
That waiting only
Hurts rather than helps

Will you sit around?
Or will you stand and do something?
The choice is yours...
Caitlin Feb 2014
Choices is what it all boils down too.
He choses to do certain things to see my reaction.
I have to choose.
This or that.

That will be the choice.
What do I chose?
Against my heart or for him?
For the excitement or for the dull?
For what I love or who I love?

How far am I willing to go,
Down this black hole that I've dug myself?
That is the choice.
That I have to make.
HAVE to make....
Caitlin Jan 2014
The end is always tougher than anyone thinks
It often takes longer than you think to get over

And the memories are always there
At night,  in those moments before sleep
In every rehearsal, when you can't look to your left and ask for help.
When you realize your on your own
When you feel yourself falling apart

That is the ending of one story
And the beginning of another
Caitlin Jan 2014
Moody
Happy
Sad
Angry

Moody
Kind
Caring
Loving


Moody
Afraid
Scared
Terrified

Moody
Depressed
Hidden
Shy

Moo­dy
Careful
Wary
Hardened

Moody
Joyful
Willing
Tried

Moody
Control
Fearful
Fallen

Moody-
Ready
Set
Go.
Caitlin Jan 2014
Music is my life.
I know I've said that a million times
But it is. All of me is music
You will never catch me in a moment
when I'm not humming lyrics or singing or playing my horn.
Music is also, my escape.
The thing I turn to when I'm falling apart inside.
It's also one of my biggest problems.
Caitlin Jan 2014
I'm afraid
Of life, facing it alone.
I'm afraid
Of giving it my all,
And having someone take it
And crushing it-breaking it
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
So afraid, that it might run my life.

— The End —