Zero.
i’m a thousand miles away.
breathe in deep. let it out.
the sounds
flowing out of my vocal chords
fall on deaf ears,
they fall on Nothingness.
breathe in deep. let it out.
i’m on another planet
in another solar system.
breathe in deep. let it out.
and i’ve never even seen
earth.
i’ve never even seen
Home.
breathe in deep. let it out.

One Year.
i’m getting there,
i promise i am.
it’s just
so Difficult.
breathe in deep.
i think i’m on saturn,
now,
or maybe neptune.
i can see earth
in the distance.
it’s Close.
sometimes when i shout
i can tell that people
are trying to listen to me.
maybe i’m the one
who’s Stopping them.
Let It Out.

Two Years.
i’m here.
and finally,
finally,
i am Better.
this is what home
is supposed to feel like,
this is My earth.
i am here, and i am
describing every inch of my journey
in words that spilled out of my fingers
and out of my veins
in less than five minutes.
here i am,
my first time on the planet,
giving you my deepest secrets
and my worst recoveries
and my reasons for being who i am
in the only way i know how,
and expecting Nothing in return.
you can hear me.
and you’re Listening.